ILikeNightmares

Entire left half of a body crushed and severe bleeding after falling 50ft to the solid ground while drunk, nearly died (if only I did..). Left abdomen turned into dust, left skull fracture, intoxicated organs, 2/3 blood lost instantly uum... NO, I should be dead.. It was a perfect opportunity and I didn't even plan on attempting suicide yet that day.

The same way a person who commits mass murder and takes his own life at the end does. No joke.

Because I don't want my heart to be struck by a sphere of pain ever again... :c I'd rather not risk it and keep the single status my entire life from the last time I got dumped rudely. And I'm bisexual which makes me fear even more...

Milk. Gives you strong bones!

So what was it? Was it minor, major... In my case, my worst injury occoured just around 3 weeks ago. It was 1st of May, midnight. I was heading home from a BBQ party from my friend's place. I got completely drunk, and I'm talking like 4 liters of beer and 2 liters of wine... As I was heading home along with 2 buddies, we had to cross a certain bridge to get to the city transport. Out of the blue I climbed up the fence of a 50ft (15.2 meter) tall bridge and started shouting random songs and waving arms. Just as my buddy turned around to pull me back I slipped and fell all the way down to the ground. I was rushed to the hospital and had an 8 hour long surgery. Results of an accident was a broken left arm, broken left leg, nearly a broken spine, external and internal bleeding and an instant coma, lost around 20 liters of blood in total. I had over 50% chance to die since I was losing 9 times more blood than produced. Today I can walk and run normally but my arm is still a bit numb. I guess I was lucky. And I love my friend, if he wasn't there.....

Do I really have to say?..

That I finaly stood up and remained my balance in hospital from my injuries by falling off a height.

2 days ago, the fact that I will probably lose the job that I just got, the fact that I might stay unfit for a long time and because I feel terrible for myself, like garbage. (I fell off a bridge while drunk and ended up in hospital)

No idea. I don't, but some people certainly do. (now this might be a tough one, sorry...) Am I the only one who attempted to commit suicide willing to go to Equestria? (I was stopped just on time lel)

No jobs, crimes, murders, poor economy, poor marketing, homophobe nutshell, corrupt police, poor medicine, and last but not least, corrupt government. Balkans.

Drifting. It is so kawaii!

I am transexual/homosexual. Deep inside myself I believe I am a pony mare (girl). I act like one, I am sensitive like one (emotionally and phisically), I try to dress like one and I wish I actually was born as a girl. I am a boy, and other boys turn me on 10 times more than any girl ever did, proven fact ^3^ . I also have a strong will that in some point in or after life I go to Equestria as a female pegasus.