ILikeNightmares

Entire left half of a body crushed and severe bleeding after falling 50ft to the solid ground while drunk, nearly died (if only I did..). Left abdomen turned into dust, left skull fracture, intoxicated organs, 2/3 blood lost instantly uum... NO, I should be dead.. It was a perfect opportunity and I didn't even plan on attempting suicide yet that day.

The same way a person who commits mass murder and takes his own life at the end does. No joke.

Because I don't want my heart to be struck by a sphere of pain ever again... :c I'd rather not risk it and keep the single status my entire life from the last time I got dumped rudely. And I'm bisexual which makes me fear even more...

Milk. Gives you strong bones!

So what was it? Was it minor, major... In my case, my worst injury occoured just around 3 weeks ago. It was 1st of May, midnight. I was heading home from a BBQ party from my friend's place. I got completely drunk, and I'm talking like 4 liters of beer and 2 liters of wine... As I was heading home along with 2 buddies, we had to cross a certain bridge to get to the city transport. Out of the blue I climbed up the fence of a 50ft (15.2 meter) tall bridge and started shouting random songs and waving arms. Just as my buddy turned around to pull me back I slipped and fell all the way down to the ground. I was rushed to the hospital and had an 8 hour long surgery. Results of an accident was a broken left arm, broken left leg, nearly a broken spine, external and internal bleeding and an instant coma, lost around 20 liters of blood in total. I had over 50% chance to die since I was losing 9 times more blood than produced. Today I can walk and run normally but my arm is still a bit numb. I guess I was lucky. And I love my friend, if he wasn't there.....

Do I really have to say?..

That I finaly stood up and remained my balance in hospital from my injuries by falling off a height.

2 days ago, the fact that I will probably lose the job that I just got, the fact that I might stay unfit for a long time and because I feel terrible for myself, like garbage. (I fell off a bridge while drunk and ended up in hospital)

No idea. I don't, but some people certainly do. (now this might be a tough one, sorry...) Am I the only one who attempted to commit suicide willing to go to Equestria? (I was stopped just on time lel)

No jobs, crimes, murders, poor economy, poor marketing, homophobe nutshell, corrupt police, poor medicine, and last but not least, corrupt government. Balkans.

Drifting. It is so kawaii!

I am transexual/homosexual. Deep inside myself I believe I am a pony mare (girl). I act like one, I am sensitive like one (emotionally and phisically), I try to dress like one and I wish I actually was born as a girl. I am a boy, and other boys turn me on 10 times more than any girl ever did, proven fact ^3^ . I also have a strong will that in some point in or after life I go to Equestria as a female pegasus.

I was playing Ice Hockey.

I do like 3-4 times each week. I work on an Airbus A320. Gets quite boring.

I was born and raised in a ghetto-ish part of the city in a country located in Europe. When I was 4 my parents divorced and were fighting every time dad came to pick me up to go out and have some fun. I lived alone with my mother for 6 years until she got married again to a new man, my stepfather. I got a new sister on my mother's side when I was 12. In the meantime I also got 2 brothers and 1 sister from the father's side and his new wife. So yeah, today I have 2 mixed brothers and 2 mixed sisters (I am the oldest). And once more, when I was 15, my mother divorced from my stepfather as well, and today she is kind of a mess, I have to carry most of the family work for her. Anyway, about the rest of the childhood, well yeah (sorry mods) it was UTTERLY FUCKED UP SHIT. I had ADHD, I was constantly bullied and rarely fought back because I didn't like fighting. I maybe fought back 3 or 4 times my entire life, my worst outburst was when a student from the classroom pushed faceplanted me against the wall and I turned around, grabbed his head and smacked it 5 times against the tile floor. I was bullied 13 years of my lifetime and had a very little number of friends because I just didn't like people. I was doing just fine without friends to be honest. Once I tried to commit suicide by jumping from my balcony but didn't realize my stepfather came back home, saw me, sneaked up to me and pulled me back and smacked me a couple of times. In high school, I was an illegal graffiti artist which made my childhood even shittyer. Only to realize when I was 17 that all of that bullshit isn't worth it and became a depressed suicidal fool 'till now, 20 years of age. At least I found a job, and BOY YOU ARE LUCKY if you get a job here where I live.....

To the point where I am just waiting for certain people to forget about me and stop having any contact or feeling towards me so I can finally kill myself? I'd say pretty much.

City of Zagreb, capital city of Croatia, Europe. My neighbourhood. Pretty much ghetto. eew :S (I live in one of those scyscrapers to the right)

Sad, angry, pissed off, self-hatred, useless, uncapable.

People asking me about my job and how is it constantly everyday. I hate my job, it turned me into an insane person.

As a kid, I'd say 12 years old, was riding a BMX bike in a skate park. Was jumping over the ramps and stuff. At one point I was speeding towards one of the ramps and launched myself 2 meters into the air and landed onto the metal bit of the end of the ramp instead of the concrete. The front wheel instantly slipped and I fell to the floor chin and face first. Went unconscious immediately. I woke up as paramedics and some other skaters were escorting me to the ambulance vehicle. I couldn't move my jaw. xP

Making their own asses look beautiful, valuable, shiny and safe while not giving a damn about others around them. People are selfish bastards and it's a shame and depressed feeling when you have to work with loads of them.

Not the death itself, but of what will happen after death; will it be dark/blank, will it be lonely, will it be hell...?

Fruit: Plum Vegetable: Pepper

Being in a hotel that temporarily has security system issues and neither room doors can be opened with the swipe key, I am thinking how in the hell and when am I gonna be able to return to my room if I go out and take a smoke now, and boy I have to do it.....