Bastian

I may be a little late but I still have time to thank you all for the wishes. 

First of all, hooray! I will be here more often from today on.

And second of all, I want to thank you all.

Through the whole process of this pandemic I changed. I stopped being all happy, I developed a need to expand my borders and with it came several stages of depression. They weren't bad though, with those I managed to question who I was as a person.

I had changed, and in a bad way. I didn't treat people in discord like I treat you, I would judge everyone except for a small group. I was the centre of the world. I knew something was wrong with me.

It took me some time, but I managed to see the root of the problem. Love.

Ever since I started to read books I have been assaulted with false thoughts of being the centre of the world. That because I read a lot my opinion is golden. And it got me to stop seeing everyone as a possible friend and more as a minor being, ignorants. I stopped loving them.

But, precisely for those books I read, I came to understand that I am just another human being. My opinion and my way to live is just my own and I can't impose it on anybody, that will only make conflicts. Instead, I have to love those around me.

And the ones who directed me that way were all of you. Every single one of you showed me the mixture of feelings that the word friend has beneath it. If it weren't for you I never would have known it and I probably would still be around thinking that I am the best. You all gave me your love and made me understand that love is precisely what I want, not status. 

You were the masters behind the clay, you were the light of my path, and now your work thanks you for the magnificence you made it be. 

I am 15 now, a whole new era in my life, directed the right way thanks to you. Once again, thank you for giving me your love, for showing me the truest joy of all, the joy of being able to love.

Bastian is Bastian because of you. *hugs tight*

I will make a blog telling more details of my view of the world. Be patient.