Iforgotmybrain

A few, always for family. Never particularly enjoyed any of them tbh, just not a fan of big ceremonies like that. Boring to attend, and I hate having events or ceremonies that focus on me. I know weddings are supposed to be more for the guests than for those getting married, right? But I still can’t see myself ever really having a whole big wedding event for those reasons. And I’m too selfish to care about what my family or potential in laws would want.

Triangles. Nice, strong shape. Great for building stuff.

I always feel just a little conflicted by John Lennon. Wasn’t always the best person, even by his own admission. Was a bit of an ass at times. But damn, you just can’t deny that he wrote and composed some of the most beautiful songs, songs that genuinely no one else would be able to compose and write. No one else could’ve wrote Across The Universe or Because. Such beautiful songs.

Words are flowing out like endless rain into a paper cup They slither wildly as they slip away across the universe Pools of sorrow, waves of joy are drifting through my opened mind Possessing and caressing me Jai Guru Deva

Somehow, Crypto Luigi returned

I’m a bit pissed. Game I was really interested in had a like 10 hour flash sale today, all time low price for it. Issue is I was busy all day today and had no opportunity to even visit the Steam page for the game until now, at 12AM, when the sale is already over. Putting a digital game on sale for less than 24 hours is so stupid, man. I feel like I got screwed over for having obligations besides just staring at my Steam wishlist all day.

I don’t really care either way. Definitely wouldn’t go out of my way to get a tan, though. I prefer to keep my skin as cancer free as possible and things like tanning and tan beds are pretty much antithetical to that.

This vexes me

"I can do this all day!" "Yeah, I know. I know..."

No, I always talked about doing sleepovers with my friends as a kid but it never happened. We all lived really close so it seemed kinda pointless to us I guess? Plus during the summer, which is the only time when we would be able to have a sleepover, we were always hanging out at each others places until (relatively) late anyway. I think one of my friends might've actually fell asleep at my place one time but that's a really fuzzy memory so I can't say for certain if it was that or if they just stayed for most of the night.

Do you want to live forever? Let’s talk about it. Or at least talk about how we as humans could become immortal. Starting with what seems like the “simplest” path to immortality on paper, something akin to uploading a copy of your consciousness to a computer or bio computer. Which does sound good on paper, no biological aging, easy to move your consciousness to a different computer if something happens. But that copy, or uploaded consciousness, wouldn’t really be *you*, it’d be a separate entity containing all your memories, but it wouldn’t be you. Because what makes you, you, is your brain. A copy of your brain is not you. It’d be the same as making an exact clone of yourself and giving it all your memories. So I don’t think that really counts as immortality. Immortality in my mind has to mean retaining your full consciousness. Remaining who you are. Otherwise what’s the point? That means retaining your current biological brain in some way. But brains go bad, they get diseases, given long enough they will run out of literal memory. Does that mean true immortality is impossible? You could have a full robot body with just your brain, but that brain, which is you, will likely die eventually. Even if we cure the kinds of diseases that the brain can suffer, like dementia, it will run out of memory, you’ll inevitably forget things, major things, no matter what. You’re how old now and look at how bad you are at remembering stuff. Imagine what it would be like 200 years down the line. That is unless you could augment the brain in some way, like via implants. Which in actuality, that’s probably the most likely path to living forever, or at least living for hundreds of years. We sure aren’t going to see it, but maybe humans in a dozen generations or so will, assuming we don’t ice the planet by then. Or in more major ways of augmenting the biological brain, could you completely replace entire lobes of the brain with cybernetic parts? As long as some part of the biological brain remains it’d still be you, right? There’s people today who are able to function without specific lobes, and even without an entire hemisphere of their brain, so it seems feasible. The brain adapts, it can rewire itself, so the old biological parts and new cybernetics would sort of meld together and co-exist on paper. But then that brings us to, how much of the brain can you really replace before it ceases *to be* you? If you do it in intervals, piece by piece, until the entire thing is cybernetic, is that still you? Or do we end up at the issue of it just being a copy of your consciousness again? How would we even be able to tell until we undergo a procedure like that ourselves? Basically just end up with a Ship of Theseus type issue. I do think this way would have a higher likely hood of you retaining your consciousness versus computer upload at the very least. And if we were to use actual new, biological brain lobes that are grown in a lab, instead of cybernetics, I’m certain you’d retain your full consciousness so long as the lobe replacements are done in intervals. I feel like no matter what, we as a species are stuck with being at least a little fleshy. Doesn’t matter how close to immortality we get or how advanced we are. Gotta keep that brain (or at least part of it) intact if you wanna stay human.

This is a big one for me too. I can't stand the dead, soulless look they almost all have. I guess the appeal is that they're just cheap and easy to get? But I'd much rather spend a little extra and get something that actually looks interesting and somewhat unique.

I wouldn’t say I like eating it but if I have a glass full of ice in front me after drinking a glass of water or something I tend to just eat the ice or let it melt in my mouth out of habit. Basically, glass is in front me, I drink from glass until it’s empty without even thinking about it.

The kind that exists. I don’t think I could ever give a real, accurate description of the kind of person I am because I’m inherently biased towards myself.

I’ve started to treat coffee as a sort of occasional treat I have sometimes whenever the mood strikes me. I couldn’t drink it everyday nor do I want to, but sometimes a coffee with a bit cream just sounds good. I maybe have one a month? If that? It probably averages out to one a month.

I don’t think I’ve ever fully written a completely unique country before. Usually my stories are set in something akin to our world and countries or in already developed fantasy countries like Equestria. I like world building, just not enough to go all the way and create an entirely new country with its own culture, language, customs, all that. I much prefer writing characters over world building. Now if we’re talking something like making a whole new country in the current state of the world, I’ve always been attracted to the idea of the Great Lake states and provinces becoming their own full fledged country. Kaiserreich, a mod for HOI4 where Germany won the First World War, has this to an extent. As the Second American Civil War in that mod has the entirety of the Great Lakes declaring independence and becoming their own country.

Life size eeveelution plush... If I actually had room for a big plush I'd have to seriously considering buying at least one, even with how expensive they are. I might somehow end up with one anyway even without hacing the space for it... $400 is pretty cheap for a plush that big. Good luck finding anyone making plushies that size for less than $1000...

You look like a fat burnt loaf of bread

I think I’ve replied to a thread that was similar to this one before. Either way, I always struggle with falling asleep. On a good night it takes me maybe 20-30 minutes to actually fall asleep. On a bad night it’s multiple hours. And when I do get to sleep I have a hard time waking up. Which I guess is better than struggling to fall asleep and stay asleep?

Look inside through holes in the sky, the fallen days bring tears to my eyes Heaven's always watching Dreams so big of a hive-like mind Sunny side up and ready to fry Heaven's always out for love

I don’t really have an ideal perfect date tbh. I do think the best dates tend to be the ones that are more spontaneous, just doing things off the cuff basically. Doing what seems fun in the moment.

The Matrix for sure. I didn’t watch it until much after 1999 of course, which probably did lessen the impact it had on me. Still, such an iconic movie. There’s a reason people still reference and talk about it all the time.

These guys have such great chemistry together, they should do a TV show together or something