I’ve grown tired from each passing day
Falling deeper by unknown means in your etched cycle
Hearing the stories of every occurrence
Bearing the sigil of emotional scarring as I embark as a daily witness
Fortune’s strange grace on infants born to disease
Or the cries of children I’ve never met, yearning for the pain to end
People roaming the world with no place to go
And others surviving with no reason to do so
All of it I’ve seen
And by your damned wishes, all of it I have felt
Pain, of others or of myself, felt deeply by no conventional means
I would ask of your help, to stop the injustice of this perpetual sadness
But I know the reasons why you hide your face
Even so, upon every night I rest my eyes, I see the faces of the dead and dying
The weak and the blind, the hurt and the depressed
The lives of those who find only another sleepless night
All in my head and corrupting my dreams, as I have bore witness
Your merciless injustice in life and in hope
It is all just scars to a mind, no more it would seem
I’ll pretend that I sleep well, and wake with a smile
I’ll go on living the life you’d expect me to have
A normality smothered in fallacies, your dream for us in ignorance
I’ll cover my eyes when they walk by, the ones who can’t keep living
And I’ll turn the page when I read of there ends
I bore witness before, and bear it today
And tomorrow I’ll try to forget, so that I can keep living
My dream world of perfected pain from the heart
My anger swelled up, curdled and rotten, tearing me asunder every night
Damned to continue watching, I try… I try…
I’ll never continue, I simply can’t
Witnesses to the world we were forced to observe
I’d ask for it to end only for the disappointment of another tragic nightmare
I’d pray, but I have forgotten the words to use
Little angels that you gave life are flying away
And with them they carry the words of tomorrow
Unable to know of your good intentions, as you cast them down as they began to ascend
The words I would give to you are lost
The pain of the loss, my heart to continue beating
Please little angels… fly away…
-David F.