Dimitri Hammer

My grandfather fought in the trenches for almost two years before he went AWOL and decided to go back home because he felt the war was rather stupid.

Nice collection there.

Reminds me of the Great Gatsby. Nice picture my friend.

I was going for that!

is it just me, or did Dimitri shave a little? nice drawing though

His beard is being pushed behind Fluttershy's 1920s Mane

I am getting married in January.

That is one good thing, yes? I guess...?

There is almost nowhere in the world where I would want to live. My country Russia, under that bastard Putin, has just been getting worse and worse. America is a cesspool of awesome ideals, that are being corrupted by greedy, selfish bourgeois politicians.

Honestly, I hate it all. I living in the Alaskan frontier now, and this seems to be the last place for me. Would rather to live farther in the mountains. Maybe even France. My uncle, who has recovered from being in the hospital, says France is a nice country. Now, I not know any French, and learning another language would be horrible....

Well, maybe Denmark? Maybe France? I just want to go somewhere where the majority of people are not discriminatory. When I went to France several years ago the people were really nice, and I had a translator to help me in the rural parts of the country. I knew several who spoke Russian and it was a real cool place actually. Maybe I take my brother and Daniel and we move to France! Would be interesting

I'd say a knight-in-shining-armor and a princess duo! Or a paladin(Dimitri) and druid(Fluttershy) if you like RPGs.

I really like that idea!

Thank you

Yeah. Thinking about everything has more than often helped me in my life. Has helped me with many problems. It hurts when thinking about the wrong things, but is incredibly useful nearly every other time.

In relation to my anger...I have had relapses several times this year. Temper gets control of me, and I freak-out. I always try and express it in a proper way, but it never works for me. Just have to keep thinking of something I guess.

As for the past. You are right. After going through it, I know enough that I not want to go back.

Thank you friend.

Hard to reconnect with yourself when everything has been taken from you, you have been blamed for the death of a loved one, you hate yourself for years and try numerous times to end your life with nothing but stopping yourself because of the fear. Wanting to kill yourself, but for some reason you just stop yourself. Nearly succeeding in it, but the bullets fails.

Hard, but not impossible. All I want in my life again is someone. I just want my life to mean something. Mean something...not to the world, but someone who loves me. I love my brother, my friends. I miss my wife. I miss the woman I wanted to spend my life with, die for, die with, loved more than anything, cherished more than my own life.

Taken away from me. She was taken, and I was blamed for it by her parents. No one helped me. They turned away. Left me alone with my fucked-up depressed mind to figure it all out. What did I do? I got angry. Remorseless. Did thing I not even think God can forgive someone for doing.

Happiness is hard to find. For me, it seems near impossible. Yet, still achievable. I just want to have someone again. I can never replace Aleksandra. Never. She was my life. But, I know she would want me to move on. I know she would. Being a miserable bastard just hurts her memory.

I just want my life back. Can I ever get it back? No, but I can try to be happy again with another. It is all I want.

This blog entry certainly strikes a chord with me. I have pain and regret in my life and, despite being very close to several people over my lifetime, I have nobody to talk about it with.

 

I wish I could offer you more than moral support, Dimitri, but sometimes even knowing I'm not alone in this kind of struggle is helpful.

I thank you. Sometimes, we just have to find our strength to make it through. I have many regrets that I can never tell anyone. Only I can offer any opinion on it, and it just "picks" at my brain. I love my brother, and I love my friends dearly, but I can not discuss it. Is it out of fear? I believe so. Though, I have found my strength. The thing that pulls me through my thinking. I think just too much. Too much about the past, and what I have done and seen.

Like you said, is nice to just know others feel the same, and though they may never divulge their problems, we all can offer good sentiments.

My brother keeps wondering if he should get this game. He liked the last one, but he wonders if he should get this. He already "pre-ordered" GTA V.

Looks funny though. :3

Mmm, stuff I rarely if ever eat...

That actually looks really good. Even though I not eat food like that a lot, I do have to say I love chocolate anything.

Those outfits are gey.

If I wore it, it would be sexy... :V

Who rated this 1 star?

 

I will ban all of you for disrespecting DEVO!!  D:<

Yay

Robespierre is nothing but a tyrannical paranoid French man

Should never worry friend. I get the same thing. I worry, I fear the worst all the time, but you just has to reassure yourself that everything is fine. Having negative feelings is never a good thing to always possess.

You know my past. I have not held on to the negativeness. I finally let it go after seven years. Remain hopeful, and never hold any pessimistic ideals. No need to worry friend

Vicodin (and other pain killers) is legit. The week after I got my wisdom teeth removed was trippy as hell.

 

Let me ask you; have you ever pondered the mysteries of melting cheese? It is mind blowing.

I have never had anything for pain numbing besides simple aspirin. Craziest thing I ever had was Absinthe.

I have never been so pensive about this dairy substance of which you speak...

Scared me for a moment, Dmitiri.

 

House is pretty good, I got bored of it about halfway through. I felt like nothing really ever changed or progressed in the show. I do like Scrubs, though.

I just like how House is such a deceitful, selfish, cynical, ass. He is great

Sorry for the scare too D:

I say we get our torches and pitchforks, and demand he tells us himself..

Oh, the good times which I was not apart of.....

Thank you for making me feel inadequate...

Jokings

:wub:

Now, I'm just a stupid youngster who don't know jack, but isn't the green light suppose to represent the American Dream or something or other?

Nick relates it to the American dream, but mainly it represents Gatsby's desire for Daisy. I mean, we all can interpret novels differently. I personally just think that it's his desire for the one thing he loves the most in life. Someone he would do anything for. Give anything to please and gain her love. The desire for love.

Nature is so fascinating...