Transgender Support and Discussion Topic

[The Kaeya Simp 13,988]

7 minutes ago, Pastel Heart said:

I dunno if I'm comfy with posting pics personally, which is better than before (a year ago it would have been totally out of the question) but I still have super bad self image issues and paranoia. If you ever want vocal advice I can back you up though, I've trained by myself and I sing!

Also I LOVE LOLITA FASHION I would get some myself but it's so expensive wow, kudos if you can get some!!

i have really bad self image too and i cant post most of the time, hopefully when i pass i can do it more

i know you meant that for someone else, but i would love if you could help me a little (if you feel like it that is)

i love lolita fashion too, tbh i've considered just buying some cheap shitty ones from aliexpress

[Pastel Heart 6,466]

32 minutes ago, The Inigo Simp said:

i have really bad self image too and i cant post most of the time, hopefully when i pass i can do it more

i know you meant that for someone else, but i would love if you could help me a little (if you feel like it that is)

i love lolita fashion too, tbh i've considered just buying some cheap shitty ones from aliexpress

For me it's like.. i get this feeling of total body separation and I kinda freak out. Kinda like derealization? It gets so bad I feel like everythinf around me is shutting down and the only way to get out of the mentality is to regress or make myself pass out. Theres a reason I dont post much in these threads or talk about the whole physical situation or my health is cos it's kinda dangerous for me to think too hard haha. I'm okay rn though~

Oh of course!~ I don't know how you sound so I can't give super great advice so I'll just give you the universal stuff; generally, you don't want to talk through your chest/throat. This is because the deepness in your outward voice is because of the Adam's apple; it's like a filter. Basically, you want to bypass that filter to get a higher pitch and a more feminine voice. You should visualize this as your chest voice, and your head voice which is the goal. If you feel your voice coming through your head and not your throat, that's a good sign. I believe the correct vocal terminology is talking in falsetto. When your voice comes out, hold your chest or abdomen area; do you feel the vibration? That's the low octave, the goal is to talk while lowering that as much as possible; using your throat muscles and stomach in conjunction you should get this with practice. If you still struggle: Put your hand on your chest and test your voice on one note, from highest to lowest pitch, your voice is bound to be somewhere within that range. Good practice is holding your hand on your chest, feeling where the vibration comes, and train yourself to avoid that. Find a tone of voice you are most comfortable with, don't force it! Using examples from characters, youtubers or celebrities you like is fine and a good way to find the area where you wanna be; practicing Fluttershys yays is actually what helped me a lot! But remember to avoid the Minnie Mouse voice ie. Just talking in a unnatural high pitch, it's eyebrow raising to a lot of people and it puts strain on your voice. Find something that's natural for you and don't worry about if you still sound sort of deep or not as feminine as you wanted; everyone is different and there's more voices out there than you can think of! I hope this helps you, and anyone else reading this too--I have no idea how to give vocal advice in the other direction though, and I don't wanna give a wild guess, end up being wrong and look silly.

I didn't know there was cheap lolita stuff; I guess its become more mainstream now so budget stuff is easier to find? I know back in 2015 and 16 I couldn't find ANYTHING under 100$. Thank you and @Miss
for the info~!

Edited November 6, 2021 by Pastel Heart

[The Kaeya Simp 13,988]

44 minutes ago, Pastel Heart said:

For me it's like.. i get this feeling of total body separation and I kinda freak out. Kinda like derealization? It gets so bad I feel like everythinf around me is shutting down and the only way to get out of the mentality is to regress or make myself pass out. Theres a reason I dont post much in these threads or talk about the whole physical situation or my health is cos it's kinda dangerous for me to think too hard haha. I'm okay rn though~

Oh of course!~ I don't know how you sound so I can't give super great advice so I'll just give you the universal stuff; generally, you don't want to talk through your chest/throat. This is because the deepness in your outward voice is because of the Adam's apple; it's like a filter. Basically, you want to bypass that filter to get a higher pitch and a more feminine voice. You should visualize this as your chest voice, and your head voice which is the goal. If you feel your voice coming through your head and not your throat, that's a good sign. I believe the correct vocal terminology is talking in falsetto. When your voice comes out, hold your chest or abdomen area; do you feel the vibration? That's the low octave, the goal is to talk while lowering that as much as possible; using your throat muscles and stomach in conjunction you should get this with practice. If you still struggle: Put your hand on your chest and test your voice on one note, from highest to lowest pitch, your voice is bound to be somewhere within that range. Good practice is holding your hand on your chest, feeling where the vibration comes, and train yourself to avoid that. Find a tone of voice you are most comfortable with, don't force it! Using examples from characters, youtubers or celebrities you like is fine and a good way to find the area where you wanna be; practicing Fluttershys yays is actually what helped me a lot! But remember to avoid the Minnie Mouse voice ie. Just talking in a unnatural high pitch, it's eyebrow raising to a lot of people and it puts strain on your voice. Find something that's natural for you and don't worry about if you still sound sort of deep or not as feminine as you wanted; everyone is different and there's more voices out there than you can think of! I hope this helps you, and anyone else reading this too--I have no idea how to give vocal advice in the other direction though, and I don't wanna give a wild guess, end up being wrong and look silly.

I didn't know there was cheap lolita stuff; I guess its become more mainstream now so budget stuff is easier to find? I know back in 2015 and 16 I couldn't find ANYTHING under 100$. Thank you and @Miss
for the info~!

honestly a lot of the same with me, where i just start to separate me from my body

oh i see that really sucks, great you're ok rn

thanks so much ^^

like the best quality ones are probably the $100 ones but like $30-40 ypu'll get something that looks like the lolita style

[Fluttershyfan94 5,742]

I mean some know already, possibly on here I've pretty much known from a very, very young age that I was transgender. Many often find themselves realizing later on in life but I knew from my earliest memories.

The age of coming to terms with it was when I was fourteen that is when I accepted it uwu. Though I realized I was transgender a long time prior it, however living in Iceland there isn't much acceptance for transgender people and they do everything they can to pretty much stand in your way of you becoming who you feel you are that is. Which is often times depressing if not dangerous but it's become better though only in the fact there is easier access to hormone replacement therapy but it is still not that easy as the process takes way too long. 

People have to understand that the transgender experience is different for each and everyone, you try to catagorize it and you'll find many that won't relate as such you need to learn about each individual individually some are gender dysphoric, genital dysphoria and some are not even dysphoric others realized because they felt gender euphoric. It goes without saying just how complicated it can be to explain it. Especially to people who do not feel transgender but we have to understand they can't relate to it as they've never felt it so have to be willing to help them learn by keeping yourself available to perhaps some hard questions. Yet at the end of the day more they learn more they possibly will accept you.

In regards to my early childhood, there was no talk about lgbt it did not exist in my world. My experience I could not put a name on I did not know that there was even such a thing as a transgender individual and in fact learned about it first in nsfw media. Though I always knew I was a girl just that society didn't see it that way I dressed different I often got euphoria when people used female pronouns for example as I often was thought to be a girl by random people. This gender confirming reaction that had I known what was being transgender I would have done something but of course I know very few accepting of transgender people.

I've lived my life pretty much feeling like I'm pretending to be someone I'm not and often I felt like I didn't know who I was looking at in the mirror while I never had genital dysphoria I had the other. While difficult to put in words, seeing yourself becoming yourself or your true self it is important. 

Edited February 9, 2022 by Fluttershyfan94

[Twilight Sparkle97 402]

Sorry I haven't replied in a while. I was unable to do so. Anyways, an update on regarding my goal to start CSHT. The therapist I visited back in November wasn't the person who had expertise in transgender treatment/options. And my DDS went well. I'm now off of my grandparents insurance since early December. I didn't get approved for SSI ( Supplementary Security Income, the correct name of what I'm receiving ) until mid December. I was told by them to apply online for Medicaid along with the plan, which I did toward end of December. Then I got my Medicaid card on January 14, and for some reason I had to reapply for my Medicaid plan even though I did back in December. As a result, I didn't receive my plan card that day. I just received it on January 26th. It was a waist of time to get on my own insurance. I had made an appointment on January 25 at a Local Family Physicians for March 1, which was the earliest available. Then after I received my plan card, I made a appointment to Johnson health center, thats where I go to see my PCP according to my plan card. My appointment to JHC is tomorrow morning. JHC offers primary care, dental and mental health all in one facility. I  hope they can at least provide me some counseling within the next month and then write me an referral to me before I start CSHT. I have already started buying women's/juniors clothes that match my identity. I also want to change my name to Zara, like within the next month or two. My hope is to already have it changed by my birthday. 

 

And get this, There is a whole lot of rules I have to follow while receiving SSI, which resulted me in creating an Ablenow account. 

[Twilight Sparkle97 402]

Ok so at my appointment earlier, they did a normal check up and some blood work. I also had to fill out some paperwork. I told my PCP about how I felt about my gender, and she actually wrote me a referral to go to UVA health Charlottesville to see an Endocrinologist, which is strange because they already have Gender affirming care options according to Community Access Network Lynchburg. I'm actually surprised she wrote a referral on my first visit. She didn't even ask me some general questions regarding about how I feel about my gender, but its better early than late. 

 

 

[Twilight Sparkle97 402]

Been nearly two months since the last reply, but I'm getting closer to my goal to starting MTF HRT. I've just filed for a name change at my local court circuit last Friday and I've still not heard back. I was supposed to hear back by late this week, but I still haven't heard anything back yet. So I'm going to call them Monday to find out if they've accepted it. Meanwhile, I've also called UVA Health Family Medicine and Specialty Care Crozet yesterday and scheduled an appointment on Friday, May 6. But get this, when my PCP made sent the referral, I was told that I was going to get a call back to schedule an appointment. It had been an month already by March 23, and I tried calling them on that day and they were so busy with appointments, that even though someone answered the phone, I was redirected to another number. I've also left a message that day, and they still didn't get back in touch with me. I've also called last week and did the same thing, left a message and still, nobody got back in touch with me. Then I finally called them yesterday, and I finally scheduled an appointment on Friday, May 6. But if there is any cancellations from other patients between now and March 5, I requested to get a call back to reschedule my first appointment earlier on the other patients cancellation date. What a waste of time to schedule an appointment. I wish I would have called them at least a few days after my PCP sent the referral, but lesson learned, if you need special care at a special clinic as soon as possible, and after you're PCP sends a referral and tells you you'll get a call back from them as soon as possible, sometimes you have to call them yourselves just to schedule an appointment. If I would've called at least a few days after my PCP sent y referral, I possibly would've already been starting MTF HRT by May 6, or possibly would've already started it by now. Now It's possible I won't already be on HRT by my 22nd birthday, but I hope at least I already have my legal name changed and my gender marker changed by then. 

[Twilight Sparkle97 402]

My appointment to UVA health Family Medicine Specialty Care Crozet is today at 1:30pm. I recently got my legal name changed to Zara, have already updated a few documents and closed my old bank account that was opened in NN back in September 2021, and just recently opened a new account here where I live. I was supposed to receive my updated Medicaid cards in the mail within 8 - 10 business days since I called to update it. But get this, I called them back on April 21, and they told me I should already have received them by today's appointment. But I still haven't received them. I hope they already have my legal name updated in their system. I hate to go their and find out it's still listed on my former name. 

 

It's supposed to rain all day tomorrow where I live, and I got to drive all the way to Charlottesville and back in the pouring rain. 

 

Anyways, later this evening I'll post about how my appointment went, and how long the wait list would be to start MTF HRT. 

[Twilight Sparkle97 402]

A bit later than I was originally going to posts about my appointment last Friday. 

 

Anyways, at my appointment, I had gotten my weight and blood pressure checked, and I did a medical family history review, and I had my blood drawn.

 

But get this. For a typical average person, they do all the stuff I mentioned above, and then they come up with their best method for HRT. Then within a week later, they get their prescription. But because they saw how nervous and anxietized I was, I told them I have autism. I do get nervous when I'm doing something I've haven't done before. They did recommend me to a Psychologist to see if I really am gender dysphoric. Just to let you know, I do still feel dysphoric, but slightly less since I've already gotten my legal name changed, updated some of my documents, and already wearing women's/juniors clothes both in and outside home. But in my view, it's still not enough for me to be considered a female at least without HRT. 

[Twilight Sparkle97 402]

Ok so it's been about a month and a half since i last replied, but I still haven't started HRT yet. I was told back at my initial visit that I was supposed to start HRT by early June, and I would get a phone call shortly after my initial visit to schedule an appointment with a psychologist. But they were short of a couple of staff, which resulted in me not starting HRT by early June. Although I did recently have an appointment with another psychologist last Thursday which was due to short of staff. This is the second time I'm told this is what or when by a medical professional, but it ends up negative. I'm now feeling even more dysphoric because of that. I've been feeling dysphoric about my gender for nearly 20 years now, and most of that time I didn't even know there was a way you could actually transition to the opposite gender via HRT/SRS. I've had enough with Doctors lying to me and telling me this or that, and it don't happen. I've lived where I'm at since last October, and I still haven't even started HRT. You'd think that from the time I got approved from SSI, to the time I got my insurance, to the time I had my first visit with my PCP, and to the time I was referred to UVA Health to start HRT. All that time should've been like 3 - 4 months, and I would've started HRT sometime in march or April. But all that time got wasted because of that. But on the positive side, I'm somewhat able to pass as a female, even without makeup or HRT. 

[Twilight Sparkle97 402]

As of yesterday, I've finally started HRT, just in time for fourth of July.  Yay! Was a little nervous but Its going great so far, and the pills taste similar to previous medications I used to take. 

[Verdant Shy 950]

Hello there my fellow Trans folks!

On 2022-07-04 at 1:07 AM, Twilight is back said:

As of yesterday, I've finally started HRT, just in time for fourth of July.  Yay! Was a little nervous but Its going great so far, and the pills taste similar to previous medications I used to take. 

Congrats!! *Sending hugs* (\*/) 

[Twilight Sparkle97 402]

On 2023-07-13 at 3:29 PM, SunIsLost said:

Hello there my fellow Trans folks!

Congrats!! *Sending hugs* (\*/) 

That was a little over one year ago I started. 

 

Anyways, Thanks for the hugs

Just to clarify on my HRT progress. Everything is going smooth and in the right direction so far. 

[Verdant Shy 950]

7 hours ago, Twilight is back said:

That was a little over one year ago I started. 

 

Anyways, Thanks for the hugs

Just to clarify on my HRT progress. Everything is going smooth and in the right direction so far. 

That's good to hear^^

[Antiyonder 1,148]

Not trans, but I fully support trans rights and hope all of you and others get in time if not soon.