writing The darkness inside of me

[Finesthour 7,287]

There is a monster inside of me.

It wants to be free.

It wants to roam the outside of me.

It wants to murder me.

It wants my sadness to rule.

It wants my happiness to be gone.

I can feel it, squeezing me in it's deadly grasp.

Working it's claws down my very soul.

I try to keep the demon down.

But he constantly wants to rise.

That demon, you see, is me.

There are two parts of me, one that is good, the other bad.

The good side is the one i show to everyone.

Flashing it around as I love to see others happy.

I keep him out at all times.

The other side of me I keep down inside.

He wants me to inflict pain.

He wants me to bleed.

Within the past year, he has begun to rise.

His bubbling hatred flowing into mine.

As hard as I try to keep him down.

He finds a way to slip past my defenses.

I try to be happy.

He destroys it.

I fool myself into thinking I am truly happy.

He destroys it.

I think I almost find true happiness?

He destroys it.

I can only hope this darkness resides some day.

I hope a ray of light will someday come.

I want that ray to kill the darkness.

I want the darkness to feel what I want to feel.

That ray, you see.

Is love.

[Fghik 360]

I feel like this like every day a lot sometimes. But I'm glad everyone in these forums have been so welcoming to my flaws and my far-to-obvious depressed side. But the more I'm on these forums, the more easy it is to bottle up my hatred for the world.

 

You're awesome, and don't ever forget it!

 

I love you Just not in a creepy way.

[Inkfeather 597]

Awesome.

 

This calls for more poetry!

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It's a beautiful poem. You're really good at writing them.

 

I don't quite know what to say.

 

But keep writing.

[Finesthour 7,287]

I rather enjoy writing these.

 

Getting my feelings out seem to help.

[Inkfeather 597]

I rather enjoy writing these.

 

Getting my feelings out seem to help.

 

That's why I became a poet. I'm here for you if you need me, you know that.

[Anonymous~ 591]

Yet again I say that you sir are a great writer/poet. And I can see this one is a bit shorter than your previous one, but it's still as awesome (or even better) as your last one.