Count to a million

[Grepper 3,192]

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(Only 699020 to go!)
 

Well, the status page still says some systems have issues.

http://status.poniverse.io/

[BastementSparkle 20,328]

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Hey Smash, that really sucks.

 

 Hey Grepper, not surprised.

[Grepper 3,192]

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(Only 699017 to go!)
 

[Overdrive 5,366]

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Best Buy's system was down. I'm going back tomorrow.

[Kawaii Besu 28,011]

300985

 

Hai Smash!

 

That's too bad.

 

[lomk 20,663]

300986

 

Bleh. 

 

I really do not want to go to work tomorrow lol Mostly because I won't be around here much. 

 

Meh. 

I'm pretty excited for Smash's new computer :3 Not a huge fan of HP products, but it'll be nice to see him with a good computer

[BastementSparkle 20,328]

300987

 

Getting kinda tired of talking about my "Problems", since I'm not even sure if what I'm saying is what I'm even really feeling. Though now I can't seem to stop.

 

 I confuse myself.

[1111 1,284]

300988 i feel that way too sometimes

[lomk 20,663]

300989

 

You're what? 19? ish...?

 

It's a part in your life where a lot of things can change and in a big hurry. 

[BastementSparkle 20,328]

300990

 

Close enough to my age. I've heard that one a lot.

 

 All the time since Elementary. It's always confusing, it's always changing. It's always the same "You'll figure it out!"...Yeah, I haven't yet. I was confused when I was 5, when I was 10, when I was 15, I'm confused now.

 

I don't even think my life is bad, it's just that any of it spent outside of my house can either be defined as "Boring, "Confusing", "Stressful", or all three.

[Overdrive 5,366]

300991

 

Well, I have another issue. I don't know if I want to buy a computer, or a cheap car to learn how to drive a stick on.

[lomk 20,663]

300992

 

Well my life is boring, confusing, stressful, and a myriad of other things. I don't think there is anyone at our ages that isn't bored, confused, or stressed in any way. 

Oh, stick is easy! Takeoffs are really the only tricky part. Shifting is a cakewalk, though. :3 Anyway, I'd be kinda wary with cheap stick shift cars. Especially used. Because who knows how hard the previous owner was on that clutch? What if he rode it? What if he kept the car in gear at long stoplights and held the clutch in the entire time? .-.

[BastementSparkle 20,328]

300993

 

But it's been like this the whole time. I feel very...disconnected, like I'm two steps to the left of everyone else, but I can't get in line.

 

 It's just...weird. It's all weird, and mildly unpleasant. Life is, I mean. My life isn't bad, I just...don't want to do much with it, don't know what to do with it, have no idea how to do anything with it, and am completely and totally baffled by it. Everyone around me in reality seems to...function. I don't feel like I've ever really "Functioned".

[lomk 20,663]

300994

 

I had no idea what I wanted to do when I got out of high school. I'm still confused to this day about my career choice. Did I pick the right one? Can I really see myself still enjoying this in 40 years? Should I have chosen something in a different field? Engineering? Medicine? Automotive? I don't know, man. I might rub off like I've got it all figured out, but I don't. I've got so much going on right now keeping everything paid for, keeping up with family and friend, keeping up at work, trying to manage my ADHD unmedicated, adjusting to all the changes that never seem to end. Yeah, I might rub off as having it all figured out, but I'm so fucking confused at this point. I'm more confused than I was when I was in high school. I feel like when I chose my major, I just kinda picked something, saw if I liked it at least a little and I was good at it, and just did it. Then I saw all these other students who were so much more dedicated to it and whatnot and they're doing amazing things with their lives and I'm just stuck here. Going nowhere. Spinning my wheels. 

 

I really wish I could help you out, but your questions are ones you'll have to answer yourself. They're not easy questions either, especially if you're unsure of what to do. :/

[BastementSparkle 20,328]

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Eh, I'm not really trying to describe too much of a problem right now, just how I think. 

 

 I think the thing is that frankly...I just "Don't want" to do much. It's not like a "I don't want to, but I have to, and it'll be worth it!" more like a "I just really, really don't want to." kinda thing. In terms of my life goals...I'd like to be able to talk to my friends, have a comfortable house, have a pet or two to keep me company, be able to keep myself entertained, healthy and happy, and do let's plays as a hobby.

 

 That's it. It's not even really a goal. I don't really want a career, or marriage, or kids, or cars, or tons of money I might not even use, or...whatever. I'd just like a simple, comfortable existence, where I can still experiment and try some new things so I don't get too bored. Not confusing, not stressful, not boring.

 

 I'm sick of those last three things, I'm very sick of them.

[Overdrive 5,366]

300996

 

I'm a mechanic. Do I really look like I'm worried about a clutch?

[JonasDarkmane 19,788]

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Goodnight 

 

[BastementSparkle 20,328]

300998

 

Am I coming off as depressing right now? Not too sure, probably kinda am.

 

 Which is funny, since I'm actually in a good mood right now, despite it all. It's dark, quiet, cool, I'm mostly alone right now, I'm talking to people in a way I'm comfortable with...I'm really relaxed.

 

 Don't want to bring anyone else's mood down.

 

 Goodnight Jonas!

Edited June 10, 2015 by BasementPoneh

[lomk 20,663]

300,998

 

Night Jonas. 

[Kawaii Besu 28,011]

300998

 

*hugs Base*

 

Night Jones!

[lomk 20,663]

301.001

 

First thousand in 300K complete!

[BastementSparkle 20,328]

301002

 

*Hugs Filly back* Hooray for new thousand!

 

 To put my "Issue" in perspective...I feel like a cartoon character, except I'm in the Matrix, and I blatantly just outright don't fit in with everything around me, and the audience is probably even more confused than me. Though probably at least a little bit more amused.

[1111 1,284]

301003 still know how you feel

[lomk 20,663]

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:/

[BastementSparkle 20,328]

301005

 

I've figured out what my problems is: The audience.

 

 They're eating all the damn popcorn, and I'm not getting any.

 

Jerks.