Count to a million

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Thought it was odd I was on evens 🤔

Sorry

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[Dawnchaser 🌄 8,092]

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[DasCapschen 7,766]

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[Dawnchaser 🌄 8,092]

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[BastementSparkle 20,326]

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Edited January 10, 2018 by BasementSparkle

[Dawnchaser 🌄 8,092]

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Hi Base

What's convinced you that everyone hates you?

Edited January 10, 2018 by Dawnchaser

[DasCapschen 7,766]

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BASEY

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[BastementSparkle 20,326]

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Because I really hate myself, and the only person I really talk to anymore often is Rising, and I pretty much end up ruining his mood every day by being negative about myself and worrying if he's sick of me or not yet, and I feel like I'm ignored on the forums now, and I can't talk to my parents about anything anymore because they're already stressed and just remind me of how I stress people out every time I try to talk to them.

 Also, Hi Dawn. Hi CAPS.

Edited January 10, 2018 by BasementSparkle

[DasCapschen 7,766]

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Hmm, that't not nice :/

Why do you hate yourself though?
Not a psychologist or anything, but I think unless that changes nothing ever will

[Dawnchaser 🌄 8,092]

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Difficult to get yourself out of a rut.

Feels bad about weight, comfort eats, makes problem worse :c

[BastementSparkle 20,326]

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Dunno the real answer to that, it's been an ongoing problem since I was a kid. It doesn't seem to be tied to anything in particular, just a whole bunch of different things. If I try to change my situation, my brain will just pick on something else to make it happen. It ends up in a loop though, cause I think I'm awful and terrible, and then cause I feel so bad I do something, like ruin a friends day with overwhelming negativity, or fail to do something, and then it just get's worse, which makes me more tempted to do more similar stuff, which again, will feed into it.

 It's hard, because sometimes literally nothing will stop it. I can have a great day, play my favorite game, watch my favorite show, even actually be productive and get something done for once...and then I'll feel bad anyway, and feel even worse because it's like all the stuff I did just means nothing, what's even the point of doing anything if I just feel bad anyway?

 It's exactly like that Dawn.

Edited January 10, 2018 by BasementSparkle

[DasCapschen 7,766]

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Stupid positive feedback loops :/

[BastementSparkle 20,326]

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Indeed.

[Dawnchaser 🌄 8,092]

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Just need something to break the cycle

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