Depression, anxiety. I know the feel, been fighting with it for about a year now. Just now been getting better. It had started me smoking again. If i had anyway to get drunk, i would. Friends abandoned me, brothers locked up, abusive abusive stepparents, chitty house. there have been times in the last year i havnt slept or ate for days, a week at most. I have had a harder life then most, but it could be worse.
My real dad was an alcoholic, it is no way to live your life. he died a couple years ago, due to heart failure from drinking.
So if you ever want to talk about anything just pm me.