To this day I still wish I never got into this/these careers. It'll have left me in last place, and in an industry where everything is seniority-based, I'll forever be stuck in that place, and I can never satisfactorily accept that. But, I have no better choices or desires. It's a love-hate relationship that I sometimes hate a little more than I love. Just wish I had something to COMPENSATE for it. Something the new guys could have that everybody else didn't. Reserved for me who's suffered/invested/worked harder than anybody else ahead of me ever had to.
Should've gone civil. They'll hire you anywhere right away.