Clod

Oh man. It's been a while.

Just kinda here because I went on an old YouTube account of mine and saw some nostalgic pony stuff. Then I remembered this place. The good times. The less good times too. Nights lying awake in bed on a shitty old iPod Touch here. Wishing I could go to Bronycon. Apparently that's gone now. Dang. And just loving MLP more than... pretty much anything.

I... almost miss it? I know I can't go back. I don't think I miss what it was anyway. I miss how it all felt. Being excited for new episodes. Talking about pony. Finally finding somewhere I felt like I fit in. But if I tried now, it just wouldn't be the same.

I miss this place, the friends I'd made. Most of them are gone. The people I did have by the time I left didn't care for me much really. At least, it didn't feel like it. I wasn't exactly doing so well, so I apologize if I'm wrong.

And now I'm not even caught up on the newest season. I think I only watched the first three episodes. I keep saying I'll watch them, but it feels almost... wrong. Like I'm trying to force myself back into something I just don't do anymore. In reality there's nothing wrong with watching it. I want to finish what I started. After all, that's how I got here in the first place. Finishing the first episode and telling myself I couldn't leave it unfinished and going onto the 2nd part. "I can't just leave a story unfinished." That's what I told myself somewhere around February 2013, laying in bed in my old house refusing to admit I'd liked an episode of a cartoon for little girls. I was a teen boy (almost), there's no way I could've been into this stuff. And then I was.

But I can't really look around too much due to my fear of spoilers. What I have seen, however, has been nothing but nostalgic.

Sometimes I think maybe I could use a little bit of the innocent pony show in my life again. Sometimes I think there's no point. Either way, I'm grateful for what it did for me in the past. In the worst times, it was there. This forum was there. The fandom. It was the light in my dumb dark mind. I'll never forget it. 

Now... I wonder how the Banned Game is doing...

Fluttershy is still best pony btw

Edit: Do I click it?