Altastrofae

Fuck my life

You ever just get depressed, like super depressed with no idea of what triggered it?

I mean, I guess I've been depressed all day, but for the first half of the day I busied myself with getting my discord ban repeal stuff out of the way

Then I busied myself with Minecraft

Then I felt super depressed and took a nap

And now I feel worse.

Then I realized I only ever have chronic depression like this towards the end of a school year, but I'm never depressed *about*.school, just like, after fall I tend to be more depressed

Why is that? No clue. All I know is, my schoolwork usually suffers because of it, and that doesn't help the depression.

Right now I just want cuddles. Normally I hate close contact with anyone I don't completely trust. In fact I don't like talking to people I don't completely trust.

But back to the point, everyone's voice is pissing me off right now

I want to go into a small room that's so dark it's blinding, and completely sound proof, and just sit there. Maybe have a small light and some paper.

But no, I can't draw when I'm depressed like this. My poetry is pretty good at those times, but eh

You ever just wish there was one person who could read your mind and know exactly what you want at that moment. I wish that right now. I wish someone would voluntarily give me encouragement. Tell me I'm not a failure. Understand when I cry

Idk, I'm being too emotional

I'm gonna regret posting this. I'm so stupid