Hibiscus, Rosehip, Apple and Raspberry Tea.
I've been feeling worse for the past few months. This job is killing me. The plant has burned out almost all my feelings. I haven't felt much in the past few months. There is another reason besides the plant why this is happening to me, but I won't tell you about it, it's a top secret. You may have noticed that I haven't been writing much on the forum. It's hard for me to write or communicate now.
Today I went to a bookstore and found two books on psychology that seemed interesting to me, I think I should buy them. They could help me figure out everything that's happening in my life, I guess, I'm not sure.
I recently started reading Brian Tracy's book and it talked about believing in yourself and positive thinking. Then I realized that I have no faith in myself at all and weak positive thinking. I need to develop this. Maybe I need to write down what qualities I need to develop in myself and how to achieve this. I need to make a plan, I like making plans like Twilight. The main thing is to fulfill this plan. I want to develop and become better. I have to get out of this hell. I need to figure this all out and understand what the reasons are for all this and make it so that I can get out of this hell and become better. I wonder if I can feel the way I felt before, a long time ago?