(C)PTSD from a vast number of unfortunate events and I don't deal well with social situations well, I tend to dissociate around people I don't know very well. Which can also manifest in strange ways.
With terrible formative years at school and a family that only taught contempt for one another, my social skills are completely shot.
I also have severe dyslexia (and I suspect some form of ADHD but unconfirmed) and while it's not a 'mental illness' by itself being undiagnosed until I was already well into adulthood without any support or understanding has left me with a lot of unjustified self-hatred over how well I perform at certain tasks.
Oh yeah also a good point, putting it somewhere in Beyond Equestria would definitley give it more visibility. I know when I first looked for user asks I had some trouble finding them in the Roleplay area.
Come to think of it I have too been the one to disappear. All those people who were blocked during depressive periods long ago that never became unblocked.
Mackerel plaki with round potato and tomato, cooked with olive oil, white wine, salt, pepper, oregano, rosemary and lemon. Also the same tomato and feta salad with olive oil, balsamic, oregano and sumac as before.
Argh mine too, my poor compound bow and crossbow are just sitting at my mum's place, wasting. The people at the club were just too insufferable to keep going, we need to find better places. My air rifle hasn't seen much use recently either, used to go out night hunting with a former friend but I had to cut contact a few years back.
And also my motorbike, which since switching to night shifts last year hasn't seen much use, I miss it.
I echo the hiking boots, I don't wear regular shoes anymore - they just don't provide enough support for anything except the most pristine of sidewalks. I randomly just decide to go walk in a nearby woodland sometimes if I feel like it so boots are just the natural choice.
The Gift of Fear by Gavin de Becker is a good one for this. You must give yourself some credit as well as you say you felt uncomfortable talking to him, you just need to get in touch with why it made you uncomfortable, the gut instinct is important here.
If I get a bad vibes from someone I stop until I figure out why, saved me from a lot of trouble from people.
Up on tonight's haunted hospital excitement...
3 workers from a ward and I head outside because several of them swore they heard moaning coming from the fenceline, we found nothing.
Hah I feel this. I can remember conversations almost word for word from 15 years ago but ask me where I put the thing I was holding 20 seconds ago and it's
I didn't at first because I imagine they wouldn't have had much to say about an injured finger, though if the pains don't subside completely in the next few weeks I should probaly have someone take a look.
Got hit by 3 teenagers on a bike the other week which sent me flying, my hand/pinky must've taken the majority of the fall because it'd been feeling fucked up since. Hopefully this is it starting to heal.