Skye Starlight

I have many talents: Drawing, Singing, Playing Video-Games, Absorbing Knowledge. And I'm the middle child in my family! Yay! The only reason I can see that I ever got any attention is because I'm the only girl out of 3! But there is a minor problem... My younger brother gets nearly straight A's while I seem to struggle to pass at all. I live in his shadow. He's not even trying and getting A's, whilst I work my little ass off to pass my subjects! He's going to get a letter from the principal which apparently looks amazing on a resume, not to mention he got student of the term earlier this year. The little show off... Mum and dad just talked about marks and stuff, and apparently they're amazed at his marks, and less than happy about mine... They only have my younger brother's marks to compare to mine. My teachers think I could do so much better, but I really do need help with a lot of work and stress... It's hard for me to be motivated, because I know I'm never going to be as brilliant as my younger brother. I know my parents and teachers will always be disappointed in my marks. They complain my marks are all over the place and inconsitent, but there is a pattern! I have showcased my ability to learn knowledge, and my co-ordination is alright, but when it comes to analysing, evaluating and deciding, I struggle. Unless there's been an example given to me, in an Auditory fashion, I'm going to struggle. I've started struggling in more and more areas. People think I'm not trying, and I guess that's partly true, but it's not for laziness, but being unmotivated. People have ridiculed me for chasing my dreams, with 2 possible outcomes: I become a YouTuber, particularly a Let's Player, or I become part of a game dev team! To everyone, they look at me and think I have wasted potential. They see my drawings, they hear my singing, they look at my exam marks and test my knowledge. They stare at me and think, "Why are you doing this to yourself?" I laugh, I smile, and I want to bring smiles to other people's faces any way I can, but I'm shy, easily scared and I don't like crowds. Which is why working on YouTube (where I can work from home and not have to deal with performing in front of a crowd IRL) or developing games in a small team (Allowing myself to become invested in creating something I love) is perfect. I have many talents, but I only have a one passion. Video-games. You'd wonder why I draw Pokemon and Minecraft all the time. In fact, other than cats, marine animals, ponies, Zelda and real life, that's all I draw. And I'll tend to combine these, so I draw IRL minecraft or minecraft cats, or minecraft ponies or IRL ponies... Or MC Zelda, or Zelda ponies... Drawing is my hobby, it's what I do to relax okay? It's really good when I can go down the park or the beach and chill there. My ideal relaxing day: Take my pencil case, drawing book, a bottle of water and whatever money I've got, chill down the beach or in the park and just draw. If I had an ipod I'd take that with me and listen to music, and when I got bored I might get myself a bubble blower and I'd watch them float by. If I could, I'd watch the sun set before packing up and walking home to watch YouTube. But I wouldn't be sitting still all day, no! I might take a ball with me and toss that around a bit. I might make a sand castle (or dig a small hole). Does that not sound like an amazing day? It's the only thing I love to do other than play video-games, and it's much more relaxing! If I was on YouTube, I might vlog on days when I'm not making gaming vids. Take my camera down the beach and show everyone how amazing it is to be me. I'd sing songs, I'd draw, I'd game, I'd live doing what I love. And that's what I really want.

Favorite things: Meeting new people, School trips (like to a coral cay!) and the capabilities to meet amazing people whom I might not online. Least favorite things: Work, stress, emphasis on analysing, people being annoying, bullying... This list goes on and on...

Thank you Lurry! It's been about a year and a half now actually... Which is longer than I've known most of my current set of IRL friends... Even though I haven't always been around, It's always been better with you here! And I'm sure we'll remain friends for years to come!

Tomorrow is my B'day! Yay! But this isn't about tomorrow, this is about today! Which happened to be the athletics carnival at school! So, I forgot my umbrella on the way to school and it poured, but I decided to play it optimistic and kept walking, laughing and singing to myself. "It wasn't that cold!" I said as I trudged through the rain in the middle of Winter without an umbrella or jacket... It had stopped raining when I got to school, lucky me! Next, I watched as people turned up in the craziest costumes. I hadn't dressed up, instead choosing to marvel at the multitude of fancy suits, morph suits and the like. There were 2 monkey and one Pikachu onesies along with a storm trooper and a vast array of tutus. That early optimism had prevented me from being like one of my friends who had also been caught in the rain. I was happy I was at school, even though I could have been at home watching YouTube videos. She was somewhat miserable, understandably. Soon the events started. I wasn't competing, so I waited for the participation events to start. The first one was the Thong Toss! It's not what you think! Unless you think that the "thong" I'm talking about is a flip-flop, in which case it's exactly what you think! It's exactly what it sounds like otherwise. You toss a flip-flop as far as you can. It's the first time I've ever tried it! The second and final participation event was a set of ball games! Over-Under, Tunnel Ball and Captain Ball! Very basic games, and they were quite fun, and I got to talk to people I don't normally. Then I went and got some cotton candy. Yep, my school has a cotton candy machine! I have no idea why, they just do, and they made the most of it today! There was rarely a moment when the girls manning the thing weren't busy, sticking the sweet, sticky strands on the sticks they had. So I sat down and watched the bubbles that someone had brought float by. I had brought my drawing book today, something which I don't normally do because it does contain a few of my secrets. I was so glad I brought the thing because that's what I spent most of the day doing! All the while, music played. I sang along with my favorite songs and enjoyed my day. Then it was time to go home. It started lightly raining, but it was sunny, and as I looked at my surrounding I spotted a rainbow. What a way to top it all off! I spent the rest of the walk home singing my songs and happily contemplating life. What a day! This blog post is a massive mood swing from my last one... Much, much better!

*Mature Themes - 15+ preferably* I think the whole idea of school is a horrific attempt at making us robots. but in this blog post, there's a few points I'd like to bring up- Assessment Stress Loneliness Bullying Gossip Peer Pressure Emotional Warfare Geez... That's a lot to cover... Well, better get started! Assessment Stress: Why must we be assessed on things? Because they need to ensure we've learned these skills... But why do they have to do it in such a way as to create so much unneccesary stress for the students? I mean seriously? The stress of Senior Year is literally driving me insane. I can't properly relax, leaving me with MORE stress. I'm one of those not-so-rebellious girls, so I don't drink, smoke, do drugs, etc.This results in having fewer ways to releive stress. It doesn't help my home isn't exactly a restful place... Emotional Warfare: (essentially all the other's summed up into one!) Well, I've been feeling a bit lonely lately... I really need a hug from a friend, but I'm not good enough friends with anyone at my new school yet. This is messing with my emotions. What am I supposed to do about that? Recently, me and a few of my friends have had to deal with a slight bullying problem. This also caused stress for me... The bullying problem should soon be resolved though, so I'm beginning to relax... A bit... Which brings me to my next topic, Gossip! I hate it! The bully essentially called EVERYONE a b*^@# behind their backs. She's emotionally unstable and, even though I thought she'd be trustworthy, she's proven herself otherwise. She even makes up stuff to make herself look like the victim in all this. It's hurt her relationship with many of her closest friends. And lastly, Peer Pressure. I'm one of the few people who can stand up against the odds... If I don't think it's a good idea, I'll say it, and I'll not be convinced otherwise without logical proof. I'm not easily swayed, despite keeping an open mind. But others don't have as thick a skin as I. If everyone is doing it, then they're going to be swayed. I worry for their health, what with all the "hip" things to do like drink, smoke, have wild sex... You know, those things that can result in injury, illness and death? I can't beleive it... All of this adds up to unneccesary drama and stress... Stuff that a teenager, in the final stages of identity formation, shouldn't have to deal with. Of course, school is a great way to meet new people and gain a variety of friends. Who knows whether one of them will become a doctor, a teacher, a game dev or a star, and such a variety can be good for ones ability to understand other people. However, the pressure put on students, in my personal opinion, is just too great. There is a reason that mostly young adults have mental disorders such as depression or anxiety. I don't have any experience in the real world, so I wouldn't know how you all feel, but I've been listening to a lovely girl on YouTube called Zoey Proasheck, and she recently said, "High school won't define the rest of your life, what you do now will." Coming from a girl with anxiety, who's happily making YouTube videos and has a girlfriend now, that's a lot. She claims to have copped it in high school, and I can't say I wouldn't have expected that. She's got a lot of unusual things about her, but that's why her fans love her, because being normal is over-rated, and she exemplifies the amazing capabilities of the human race. What hasn't killed her, has made her so much stronger, so much more determined to be an amazing person. And now she's working with people millions of other's would love to simply meet. She's part of the Yogscast, and she possibly has the most loyal fan-base of them all! Also, motivational media recently presented at my school. The message? MAD for life. MAD standing for Make A Difference. You can be MAD for life at any time, in any situation. If you really try and take life by the horns, you can go where YOU want. Yay! Now I'd better get cracking on this assignment I have due tomorrow... I'm just struggling to do anything analytical at the moment, don't mind me... Or my misery and stress...

I am not talking about the magic in fantasy. I'm talking about the magic that touches all of us! The magic present in the real world! The innate magic of beauty and love. Stars are beautiful. Tiny flecks of light scattered across a deep indigo sky. There's something magical about just staring up into them. We are filled with awe, passion, inspiration or hope when we see them. But it isn't always like this for people. I was once afraid of the night sky, afraid of the stars, the moon, and the shadows between. I had an overactive imagination, I still do, but I wasn't taught about the spiritual side of stars. I was told they were great balls of burning gas, just like the sun. I was told that when certain stars die, they become black holes. I was told that black holes indiscriminately sucked in everything, including light. I was told black holes could destroy the world. But it was never mentioned how rare black holes were, that I never had to worry. I lived in fear of the night sky. I could never look up without thinking about this, and it limited my life. Do you know how hard it is to live in fear of the night? Luna would not be happy... But nowadays I love the stars. They are a beauty to behold. The moon is a gorgeous orb of light. The night is just as amazing as the day. What sparked this change in me? The simple idea that stars might be more than just flaming balls of gas. Stars shine bright in the darkness. They are a metaphor for hope. Their beauty leaves us in awe. They inspire us to do better (well, they inspire me anyway). They're a perfect setting for romance and passion. They soothe the soul. They bring us together. They truly are magical. I have been contemplating this kind of magic. It is in love, friendship, and all things in this world that are beautiful. Waterfalls, rainbows, stars and the moon. The sun on your back on a cold winters day, the sweet smell of flowers in spring, the cool splash of water in summer, the fallen leaves in autumn. It is in everyday life, in those moments of joy. It is in all that is good in the world. But that doesn't stop it from succumbing darkness. Jealousy is often born of love. Narcissism, born of self beauty. It is an unfortunate side effect of living in a world with both light and darkness. So... what are your thoughts on this kind of magic?

There's a lot. 1. Zoey and Rythian. To those that don't know these 2, they're part of the Yogscast. If you don't know who the Yogscast are, you live in a hole. Rythian is from the Netherlands. Zoey is from the UK. Together, they've created an epic story! With revenge, romance, deaths, betrayal, war... And a Dinosaur! And it's all played out with Minecraft Mods. Here's the best bit. They're acting as their characters, so none of it is real. Everyone in the Yogscast are friends and simply enjoy acting as enemies. They started in Tekkit, but it's recently changed to FTB. Zoey is actually pretty awesome in doing this as she has Anxiety disorder. And she's making videos on YouTube where all the haters lurk, whilst dealing with this. It shows that you can overcome anything to do what you love, and I'm sure she loves it. She's doing what a lot of people dream of, working with the Yogscast! And of course, I've come to adore the shipping, which was originally brought about by the fans, then canonized by Rythian and Zoey in their story, and now there's more shipping than ever. You eventually become so enraptured by the story that when Rythian and Zoey design a minor tragedy you can do nothing but feel for the characters! And so, that's been on my mind a lot... 2. Okay, so a tiny IRL thing here. My real name is Steph... Out of all the people I've heard of that share my name, 3 (including myself) are Gamers. Kaeyi Dream (inthelittlewood's [Martyn's] GF believe it or not) and Hex of the show Good Game that shows here in Australia on the ABC. Yeah, the government pays Hex and Bajo (Who's name is Steven of all things!) to play games and review them... It's possibly the most popular Australian program on the ABC. I know like, 9 Stephs, so that's over a third of all Steph's I've heard of... This blew my mind... Of course, because Martyn Littlewood works with the Yogscast, it might be confusing if I ever worked there... One Steve limit people! Wait... Steve means the same as... Really? Why must I be cursed with such a common name! 3. Zelda. I've been working on that a lot lately... I've nearly gotten 100% for the second time in Spirit Tracks... It's kinda self explanatory. 4. A rainbow of gamer girls. So, including Hex, Kaeyi and Zoey, and adding Hannah (another Yogscast member), Donnabellez, Dodger and Lucahjin, I have 7 gamer girls I'm a true fan of... Let's organize them by color shall we? Lucahjin has dark red hair, Zoey's minecraft skin has lighter reddish orange hair, Hannah's blonde, Dodger currently has green hair, Hex has dark hair so I'll put her at blue, Donnabellez has brown hair but loves purple so she's Indigo, and Kaeyi has pink hair, so she's Violet... It's a rainbow... When I noticed I'm like "WTF?" and I laughed at the randomness... Of all the things, I have to have a rainbow for the girls I aspire to be like! Rainbow Dash would be proud! And that's all I've really been thinking about for the past week! It's been a peculiar week...

I've finished it now... The train on the mountain huh? With the Flutterphants (flying elephant creatures) or the armored train whilst transporting the ice? Either way, it's not that hard... 1, you just whistle short then long (like a train whilstle) or 2, you just avoid them until you can get enough ice there, similar concept to the underwater one.

Yeah... I really want to be in a ball pit again. I love them!

So I realized I haven't been on at all for a few days. Figured I'd explain why. 1. I'm at my dad's and he has 1 computer to share between 3 kids. (me and my brothers) 2. Nintendo Why I'm actually in a good mood: I've nearly gotten 100% in The Legend of Zelda: Spirit Tracks. I just need to beat the final boss and I'm done. It will be the first time I've ever gotten 100% in a game, and the first time I've completed this particular game. That's right, I've never beaten the final boss, but I've gotten everything else in the game now. Rabbits, Stamps, Force Gems and all. Well, except the legendary train, but I'll have that in less than 24 hours. Just missing one treasure and it's the first place prize in the draw today. About 4 hours until midnight when I can receive it, so it's not far off now. Then I'll go for the boss! I'm also enjoying Pokemon Heart Gold version. Again. It's nigh impossible to 100% that one though, but I had defeated Red. I'm also acting as a breeder for my older brother who's working on his Pokemon Black team. So I'm supposed to be hatching a Ferroseed with a relaxed nature, then give it Pokerus (which is the easy bit because I have it). He's then got to EV train, which is something I'm not well versed in. I'll just direct him to a video I watched that gives the basics of it. He'll then have a competitive battle Ferrothorn. And then I'll help him get all the other Pokemon he wants. Sesmitoad and Chandelure are the other two he's decided on. He's then gonna get a flying type and an ice type? He'll have space for another wild card too, that I know! He'll have type coverage. Also, Let's Players. I watch Nintendo a lot. I also watch some other games but that's beside the point. I'm distracted by the Nintendo. Also, if you want to trade anything, I have White and White 2 as well as most of the Black and Black 2 exclusives. Also, I want more games. I really want a PS4 now, so when I've graduated I'll aim to improve my life by getting one... Less than 6 months until I graduate too! Also, I don't have a 3DS to play Pokemon X or Y on. I'm hoping my mum picked up on the hint and gets me one for my B'day (in a few weeks!) and then I can get X or Y a few hours before all you people in Europe and America! Releasing on the same day is difficult when the world has time zones! Go early birds! *happy dance* Skystar

Face it. Humans aren't going to be the greatest beings in the universe. We fight, a lot. If we find life on another planet, we'll probably want to study it. Kill a few of each species to dissect them, study the others and possibly not realize the creatures are intelligent because they speak another language. On earth, it took us thousands of years to spread and reconnect. These creatures may look extremely different to us. I know that even though I try not to be racist, I don't tend to trust people who don't look anything like me. How would we react to an entire species which may not be able to speak like humans, and humans unable to speak their language. It would be nigh impossible for us to connect, and they might decide that we're a threat to their lives and declare war on us without knowing... There are a lot of ways things could go wrong when dealing with life on another planet.

I'd not heard of Bronies. Instead I was searching for MLP gen 3. In particular, Rarity. Why? Nostalgia. Same reason I still adore Pokemon and play with dolls occasionally. Don't judge, I'm a girl! But I didn't find the pink rainbow princess. I found what I thought was a stereotypical girly-girl unicorn who looked completely different from the innocent adventurous and unruly one I grew up with. I was stunned, then outraged. I eventually cooled off, and spotted something unusual. One of my friends had a pony for his Facebook pic. This piqued my curiosity. I figured that this new Rarity wouldn't be the only character, so I gave it a shot. I adored Twilight and Fluttershy. Pinkie and Rainbow Dash soon caught my attention and I liked them too. Rarity and Applejack are still bottom of my favorite ponies lists, but I've found them good foils to other characters, and their characters are dynamic. Eventually, ponies drew me in. I found bronies through watching MLP. I fell in love with the fandom. I've never left. Well, never intentionally, but I've taken breaks. Nothing wrong with the fandom or ponies, just IRL getting in the way.

Well, here I am, about to tell you the hilarious acts of everyone but me... And my teacher who acted as MC for the night. I get performance anxiety okay! Okay, maybe it's more than performance anxiety, but I have never been to psychiatrist so I don't know just how bad whatever is plauging my mind is... Whatever it is, I'm able to function socially and mentally, so it can't be that bad... Well that was a tangent. On with the hilarity! We started with safety, in case anything went wrong... So one of the teachers made sure that there were 2 buckets of water, which he slowly spilled. He then tripped with one of the buckets and dumped the contents on one of the girls. There was nothing left in it, and past the first squeel of fear laughter broke out. It was a nice way to set the tone for the night. Now the order may not be what it was, but I assure you it doesn't really matter from here on out. So a group of girls went first, with a dating game! You remember those old game-shows where a girl would ask questions to a group of guys and at the end she'd pick the one she liked most? Yeah, that was that. So they chose 3 guys, all hot stuff, including the crush I mentioned in the last few blogs. The girl was voiced by one of the many international students on the trip. She asked questions and everyone was giggling at the responses and her reactions. In the end, she chose guy 3, who wasn't my crush. They blindfolded him and brought out the 'girl'. I said she was voiced by the international student. However, 'she' was one of the male teachers dressed up as a girl. When he walked out, everyone cracked up. The teacher went up and slowly caressed guy 3's hair before taking off the blindfold, at which point guy 3 looked behind him and nearly fell over as he tried to get away. Laughter filled the air by this point. So the next group was the "Alpha" group who basically said what each letter stood for and everyone was kind of "meh" about it. Then 2 teachers stood behind a screen covering them from the waist down. They took it in turns to kneel down behind the screen. Here's some of what they said: "Oh, it's so warm!" "It tastes so good!" "It's so milky!" They then lift up 2 coffee cups and say: "What? What were you thinking we were doing? It's just coffee!" Next was the group that I would have gone in had I not been incapable of performing. What did they do? Well, let's just say that waiting for a bus had never been so hilarious. Can you imagine an alien skeptic, mute girl, a girl in a tutu singing "I'm a little teapot", a girl in a morph suit, a germ fearing freak and a slob taking it in turns to freak eachother out? Only ever 2 on stage at a time, and yet it remained hilarious. A few stories were passed on by other teachers, but nothing important. There was the slightly offensive sketch about "the arabic alphabet (A is for Arab, G is for Grenade)" and a group of girls (badly) sang the German National Anthem... Not too impressive. Of course there was one more group. The popular girls who decided on a song and dance medley. It included twerking and unreachable high notes. It wasn't funny, but it was still good. All of the student performances were judged and scored. At the end of the night, they announced the winners! 1.Song and Dance Medley 2.Bus Stop 3.Date Show 4.German National Anthem 5.Alpha 6.Arabic Alphabet 7.Me. Cause I didn't perform and as such I got a score of 0. People seemed to understand though and no-one pressed me about it. It was a decent night overall, but I felt bad for not performing like everyone else. I always hear about how "Everyone can do it, so can you!" but... I can't... I hate people who say that. Just because everyone can do it doesn't mean I can... I can't even ride a bike, one of the main reasons why I walk 3km to and from school whilst my younger brother rides. That's 6km (3.728227153422 miles) a day. Also, don't you dare say I don't get enough exercise!

Friday, 31st May - Sunday, 2nd June So, no-one know's me, huh? Okay... I'm a little disappointed, but relieved too... The next few days was a bit of a blur, so it might be out of order. We were introduced to our assignments, the reason we were on the island. We separated into groups and planned our feild work. There was a walk around the island, which only took an hour, and another snorkel which I didn't get to participate in! So uh, there was also the fish dissection, boating which was ruined by a sudden dousing of rain, and another snorkel which I didn't participate in. That makes 3/3 snorkels I've not participated in! There was only 4 snorkeling sessions on the trip! I also began to lose my temper with my group... I don't normally lose my temper, but being unable to spend much time apart inhibited my ability to control my temper. I also grew closer to my crush, but someone was growing even closer... It was subtle though. Also... BABY TURTLES!!!!! That was the reaction of everyone when the guys found 5 little cuties breaking their heads out of the sand during the day. They were late and escaping the nest at the wrong time of day, so we put them in a box with wet sand for release later that night. We named them: Flyrtle, Myrtle, Squirtle, Purple, and Turtle... Yes, we named a baby turtle "Turtle" We ran out of names, okay? Monday, 3rd June Field work and arguments... And then we did the write up for the dissection... We had 4 hours and could use any low-tech resources we had brought. We didn't have any internet access on the island anyway, so it was pretty hard to cheat. We could talk to each other, we could eat, we could drink, we could do anything we wanted to, as long as we put in what we had at the end of the 4 hours. Was a very short 4 hours, to say the least... Our minds were fried. Tuesday, 4th June. Field work and the final snorkel... Which was only for those that had finished their field work... Which I hadn't. Yay for not getting to snorkel for the entire trip! Well, there was another argument, which a teacher interrupted and realized that I (the minority) was right... Lesson: Just because the majority thinks the answer's correct doesn't mean that it's correct... Wednesday, 5th of June. We packed up! My group took forever... We did it though, and soon everyone was on the beach chilling, waiting for the barge back to the mainland! And I overheard something... "It looks like things are going great!" "Will you're parent's let you have a boyfriend?" "Yeah... I hope so..." I had no doubt of who they were talking about... I stopped for a moment, and decided on my plan of attack... Or defense, seeing as, instead of getting under them and trying to break them up, I've decided to step down and let them play their relationship out. Put a shell up and relax, let her have her fun... These things don't normally last long, especially with his reputation as a player. He even got an award on the island for almost always having a few girls chasing after him... There was, of course, myself, the girl who actually snagged him, and another girl who I thought at first was going to snag him... What? He's obviously an ideal mate... He's normal, confident... He's got hidden depths of sensitivity, disguised by his athletic exterior... He's intelligent... He's got a sense of humor... What's not to like? And no-one IRL knows of this normal part of me... I tend to stick to the "I'm different and I know it!" idea, and I tend to avoid popular things among "normal" people... Barge ride back: Remember how I said that I couldn't rest after 1 sea-sickness tablet? Well I took 2 this time... They have the unfortunate effect of making you drowsy, something I knew about before hand. After packing stuff back onto the barge (we were the last group on the island) I went upstairs, lay down on the floor (like everyone else) and fell asleep within 20 minutes of getting on the barge... I woke up 40 minutes before we arrived at the mainland. After unpacking the barge and collecting all my stuff, I went to McDonald's before going home, having a shower and going back to sleep... And that was my trip to a coral cay! ... AHH! I forgot something! I FORGOT RED FACES! HOW COULD I FORGET THE BEST NIGHT OF THE CAMP!? It's basically a talent show where everyone gets into groups and does an act... I'll post it in my next blog! Also, don't expect me in it... I have performance anxiety, to the point it interferes with some assessment... Why would I want to perform in front of people when It wasn't even important? Be prepared for LAUGHS! EDIT: I made a lot of spelling errors... I've fixed 'em all up now!

Lavender Leads? Violet Scoop? Flower News? I don't have a clue as to what to name her... I'm just going off what she looks like and the journalism stuff...

This is another multi-part series entailing my life! Except it details only a week of my life... A really eventful week... So, a bit of back story on this: Wednesday, 29th of May, 2013. I say my farewells to you all here and hop on a barge heading to a coral cay in the afternoon. Why was I going to a coral cay? Beyond the fact that it's a coral cay and is, therefore, gorgeous that is. My school decided to take me there to do some field work! But I'll detail that later. The barge trip: I take 1 sea-sickness tablet, and it's not quite enough. I feel sick. Too sick to rest, not enough to throw up, unlike the 6 other students beside me...thankfully... I just sit there and watch the waves as they toss the boat around. Thursday, 30th of May 2013. Oh, hi there! I still haven't slept at this stage! We unload the barge, load the group leaving and set up camp. And then we sleep, at about 3 in the morning... Day 1 on the island! I'm having personal issues that make really unnerved. We're supposed to go snorkeling today, but I can't. The teachers understand and I end up helping someone with her flippers. We're also introduced to all sorts of safety information. The sun sets, and we're introduced to the "awards" given out nightly. "Care Bear" which is not actually a care bear of Hasbro's creation, is a bear given to people who do nice things for others. Remember how I helped someone? Guess who got this? This was my first trip with this school, and, as such, my first chance to get care bear! Either I'm really lucky, really good at creating positive things out of bad situations, or it really says something about my strong sense of kindness. Or a mix of those reasons, that could work. One of the other awards was "Princess" which was given to people who squealed, screamed or whined about something. Like not having mobile coverage when we were told there wasn't going to be any. Or knowing there's only one mobile service that can work on parts of the island, and then going and buying a brand new, expensive phone with that service. Or a guy, squealing like a little girl after other guys had scared him. Or someone getting the tiniest cut on her foot and limping and wincing when it wasn't even bleeding! You can imagine the laughter when people were nominated for this award. The other one was Grumpy Bear/Gorilla/Yeti. It was also known as Duck Up. It's basically for anyone that screwed up. So what things were people nominated for? Spilling their dinner on themselves 3 times, having a voice crack in the middle of role call, nominating oneself for this award... I'm serious, someone nominated their self for this award. Multiple times, in fact. He actually managed to get all 3 awards! Insane, right? Well... That was the first installment of this! A note: I have a crush, who was also on this trip. He will be talked about in this blog. If he's reading this... Well, I haven't mentioned anything about him yet, so he wouldn't know... Please don't read on if you think you know me IRL. I doubt anyone does, but I'm just making sure. I prefer to keep online and IRL separate. However, if you think you know me IRL, PM me! We can talk about it!

Well, most would argue having the ability to fly is way cooler than the magic of the unicorns... Unless you count the spell that gives you wings. Plus, you have the ability to manipulate things with magic rather than having to resort to hooves or mouths.

I might as well tell you "I told you so" now... Why? Because the thing looks even better now that a second trailer has been released! Also, spoilers. This blog post will contain lots of spoilers. I'm not even gonna mark them because I've warned you. There is no way I can discuss the second trailer without spoilers so, here goes. Well, Twilight has her crown stolen in the middle of the night by what appears to be the previous student of Princess Celestia herself, Sunset Shimmer, Unicorn horn and all. So Twilight tries to fight of this unicorn and they end up having the crown fall into the portal. It wasn't taken through, it fell. And then we find out that the Elements of Harmony are useless without it. And the Elements of Harmony are also the best means of defence for Equestria. That's BEFORE she enters the portal. And then comes the funny little quotes: Twilight: "What does the rest of me look like?" Spike:"I don't think that's how the new you is supposed to..." *Twilight stops galloping on all fours and stands up as a guy looks at her weirdly* Twilight: "Looks like if I want my crown back I'll have to become princess of the Fall Formal!" Spike: "How exactly do you plan on doing that?" Twilight: "I have no idea!" Spike: "Those are my girls! Woohoo!" Random: "Did that dog just talk?"?" Spike: "The talking dog is the weird thing about all this Definitely Present: Trixie, the CMC, Vinyl Scratch, Photo Finish, Snips and Snails. Also a bunch of BG ponies. I'm actually excited now! And since I've read up on stuff (aka, the rivalry between Mattel and Hasbro, which can be found on EQD) and I've taken into account that MLP's target demographic is still little girls (no matter how large the brony fandom gets) I've decided that it might be one of the best movies of the year! All hail our Equine overlords!

ISNP that is my personality type: You can find the test, the personality types of other users, and which pony it correlates to here: http://mlpforums.com/topic/1970-mbti-personality-test/ A quick overview on what the personality types are and what they're composed of. Firstly you can be an Extrovert or an Introvert. Now you might think this means "Oh, extrovert means being social and introvert means being antisocial/shy" Well, you're right, and wrong. It really determines where you get your energy from, the outside (extroverted) or the inside (introverted). When you get your energy from the outside, you tend to prefer to be around other people and feel uncomfortable on your own. You work better in a team, and have large social groups. That's not to say that introverts can't work well in teams or have large social groups. Introverts just get tired out when around lots of people for extended periods of time, and they tend to be a little more thoughtful. They don't crave social interaction, most of the time... Next, you're either a Sensing or iNtuitive person. Yes, that N is supposed to be big... This is basically how you perceive the world. Sensing people tend to be more down to earth, realistic. They perceive the world around them. They also tend to plan all the little details. Intuitive people tend to day-dream a bit more and jump to conclusions. They see the big picture and struggle to plan. Thirdly, people judge the world through one of two ways, either Thinking or Feeling. Thinkers are logical, honest people. They trust in logic and tend to stop and think. It's harder to tug at the heartstrings of a thinker. Feelers, on the other hand, trust their feelings and values. They tend to be overly empathetic. This doesn't mean that if you're a thinker you disregard other people's feelings, or if you're a feeler that you won't hurt a fly. In fact, if you're a thinker, you may just go about doing good things logically, because people will like you more if you do, and if you're a feeler you might be swayed to think that certain people should die, and that it's you're responsibility to ensure they do. Lastly, you can be good at either Perceiving or Judging. If you'd note my use of Perceive in the Sensing and iNtuition paragraph and Judge in the Thinking and Feeling paragraph. This basically represents which of the two personality indicators above suits you best. Judgers have the tendency to use their thoughts or feelings more in everyday circumstances. Perceivers on the other hand, use their senses or intuition more. Judgers tend to be a little more vocal, even if introverted. Perceivers tend to be quiet and observant. That took 2000 word to explain, but anywho! Now it's time for MY personality type, and my pony! I am an ISNP... Barely, seeing as I'm really balanced between sensing and intuition. So what does that say about me? Well, the answer is going to be copypasta from here: http://typelogic.com/ ISFPs are the first to hear the different drummer. Many eagerly plunge into new fashions, avant garde experiences, 'hip' trends--some even setting the trends. More in touch with the reality of their senses than their INFP counterparts, ISFPs live in the here and now. Their impulses yearn to be free, and are often loosed when others least expect it. The ISFP who continually represses these impulses feels 'dead inside' and may eventually cut and run. (One ISFP friend has become nonambulatory within the past few years. He will still, on impulse, leave home in the middle of the night and go to Las Vegas or wherever, regardless of the difficulties of his physical condition.) ISFPs may be quite charming and ingratiating on first acquaintance, flowing with compliments which may (or may not) be deserved. On other occasions, the same individual may be aloof and detached. Some ISFP males are fiercely competitive, especially in sport or table games, and may have great difficulty losing. This competitive nature, also seen in other SP types, sometimes fosters 'lucky,' 'gut' feelings and a willingness to take risks. Organized education is difficult for the majority of ISFPs, and many drop out before finishing secondary education. Their interest can be held better through experiential learning, at which many excel. ISFPs will practice playing an instrument or honing a favored skill for hours on end, not so much as practice as for the joy of the experience. I chose to bold the things that really, really stick out to me and reflect me. However, I figured it might be nice to point out that I'm not entirely ISFP. I'm part INFP, so here's what that says: INFPs never seem to lose their sense of wonder. One might say they see life through rose-colored glasses. It's as though they live at the edge of a looking-glass world where mundane objects come to life, where flora and fauna take on near-human qualities. INFP children often exhibit this in a 'Calvin and Hobbes' fashion, switching from reality to fantasy and back again. With few exceptions, it is the NF child who readily develops imaginary playmates (as with Anne of Green Gables's "bookcase girlfriend"--her own reflection) and whose stuffed animals come to life like the Velveteen Rabbit and the Skin Horse: INFPs have the ability to see good in almost anyone or anything. Even for the most unlovable the INFP is wont to have pity. Their extreme depth of feeling is often hidden, even from themselves, until circumstances evoke an impassioned response: Of course, not all of life is rosy, and INFPs are not exempt from the same disappointments and frustrations common to humanity. As INTPs tend to have a sense of failed competence, INFPs struggle with the issue of their own ethical perfection, e.g., perfo rmance of duty for the greater cause. An INFP friend describes the inner conflict as not good versus bad, but on a grand scale, Good vs. Evil. Luke Skywalker in Star Wars depicts this conflict in his struggle between the two sides of "The Force." Although the dark side must be reckoned with, the INFP believes that good ultimately triumphs. Some INFPs have a gift for taking technical information and putting it into layman's terms. Brendan Kehoe's Zen and the Art of the Internet is one example of this "de-jargoning" talent in action. That was longer than expected... I may also need a quick look at the INTPs and ISTPs, because, truth be told, I've got elements of the Thinkers too! So here's both of those: INTPs are pensive, analytical folks. They may venture so deeply into thought as to seem detached, and often actually are oblivious to the world around them. Precise about their descriptions, INTPs will often correct others (or be sorely tempted to) if the shade of meaning is a bit off. While annoying to the less concise, this fine discrimination ability gives INTPs so inclined a natural advantage as, for example, grammarians and linguists. INTPs are relatively easy-going and amenable to almost anything until their principles are violated, about which they may become outspoken and inflexible. They prefer to return, however, to a reserved albeit benign ambiance, not wishing to make spectacles of themselves. A major concern for INTPs is the haunting sense of impending failure. They spend considerable time second-guessing themselves. The open-endedness (from Perceiving) conjoined with the need for competence (NT) is expressed in a sense that one's conclusion may well be met by an equally plausible alternative solution, and that, after all, one may very well have overlooked some critical bit of data. An INTP arguing a point may very well be trying to convince himself as much as his opposition. In this way INTPs are markedly different from INTJs, who are much more confident in their competence and willing to act on their convictions. Mathematics is a system where many INTPs love to play, similarly languages, computer systems--potentially any complex system. INTPs thrive on systems. Understanding, exploring, mastering, and manipulating systems can overtake the INTP's conscious thought. This fascination for logical wholes and their inner workings is often expressed in a detachment from the environment, a concentration where time is forgotten and extraneous stimuli are held at bay. Accomplishing a task or goal with this knowledge is secondary. INTPs and Logic -- One of the tipoffs that a person is an INTP is her obsession with logical correctness. Errors are not often due to poor logic -- apparent faux pas in reasoning are usually a result of overlooking details or of incorrect context. Games NTs seem to especially enjoy include Risk, Bridge, Stratego, Chess, Go, and word games of all sorts. (I have an ENTP friend that loves Boggle and its variations. We've been known to sit in public places and pick a word off a menu or mayonnaise jar to see who can make the most words from its letters on a napkin in two minutes.) The INTP mailing list has enjoyed a round of Metaphore, virtual volleyball, and a few 'finish the series' brain teasers. INTPs in the main are not clannish. The INTP mailing list, with a readership now in triple figures, was in its incipience fraught with all the difficulties of the Panama canal: we had trouble deciding: whether or not there should be such a group, exactly what such a group should be called, and which of us would have to take the responsibility for organization and maintenance of the aforesaid group/club/whatever. Like their fellow SPs, ISTPs are fundamentally Performers (note the capital 'P' ), but as Ts their areas of interest tend to be mechanical rather than artistic like those of ISFPs, and unlike most ESPs they do not present an impression of constant activity. On the contrary, they lie dormant, saving their energy until a project or an adventure worthy of their time comes along--and then they launch themselves at it. The apparently frenzied state that inevitably ensues is actually much more controlled than it appears--ISTPs always seem to know what they're doing when it comes to physical or mechanical obstacles--but the whole chain of events presents a confusing and paradoxical picture to an outsider. ISTPs are equally difficult to understand in their need for personal space, which in turn has an impact on their relationships with others. They need to be able to "spread out"--both physically and psychologically--which generally implies encroaching to some degree on others, especially if they decide that something of someone else's is going to become their next project. (They are generally quite comfortable, however, with being treated the same way they treat others--at least in this respect.) But because they need such a lot of flexibility to be as spontaneous as they feel they must be, they tend to become as inflexible as the most rigid J when someone seems to be threatening their lifestyle (although they usually respond with a classic SP rage which is yet another vivid contrast to their "dormant," impassive, detached mode). These territorial considerations are usually critical in relationships with ISTPs; communication also tends to be a key issue, since they generally express themselves non-verbally. When they do actually verbalize, ISTPs are masters of the one-liner, often showing flashes of humor in the most tense situations; this can result in their being seen as thick-skinned or tasteless. Like most SPs, ISTPs may have trouble with rote and abstract classroom learning, which tend not to be good measures of their actual intelligence. They tend, sometimes with good reason, to be highly skeptical of its practical value, and often gravitate towards classes in industrial arts; part-time vocational/ technical programs can be useful to even the college-bound ISTP. In terms of careers, mechanics and any of the skilled trades are traditional choices, and those ISTPs with strong numerical as well mechanical gifts tend to do extremely well in most areas of engineering. Working as paramedics or firefighters can fulfill the ISTP need to live on the edge; they are at their best in a crisis, where their natural disregard for rules and authority structures allows them to focus on and tackle the emergency at hand in the most effective way. ISTPs with more sedate careers usually take on high-risk avocations like racing, skydiving, and motorcycling. While aware of the dangers involved, they are so in touch with the physical world that they know they can get away with much smaller safety margins than other types. So there's much less in the T's than the F's when comparing them to myself... It's an interesting concept though. You can see me, timid and shy sometimes, whilst reckless and adventurous other times, with an interesting range of talents regarding both Thinking and Feeling techniques. But there's one thing in the Sensing types that stood out. A difficulty with organised education. It doesn't work for the 4 personality types. These 4 types are rarer than others, but they're the people who don't get good grades because it's not assesing them on what they do best. These 4 types seek adventure and experiences. So how do I satisfy this hunger for adventure whilst still being timid and shy? Games, duh! Finding new things, experiencing the failures and successes, all without having major impacts on my safety! TL;DR ... You need to read at least most of it to make sense of it... So I don't blame you if you didn't read this over 10000 character blog entry...