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- My mediocre social life

- Having Aspergers Syndrome and putting up with people who don't really understand me.

- Figuring out what to do.


All my life needed was a sense of someplace to go. I don't believe that one should devote his life to morbid self-attention. I believe that someone should become a person like other people.

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My biggest struggle would most likely be playing through Dark Souls 1 all the way through. It wasn't the easiest thing I've ever done for sure, nor that hardest, but it was one hell of a struggle. I got stuck on a lot of bosses as well as sections of the game. When I beat the game I was surprised with myself that I endured the whole thing. Ever since then I've always played through games on the hardest difficulty possible right away. Haha. <3


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"We are legion. For we are many." Legion, Mass Effect 2


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OCs: Bittersweet, Masquerade / Silver Tongue (Workin' on this one still)

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Anxiety with girls by far is my biggest struggle. Whenever I want to get close to a girl, I always end up worrying a lot about their desire to be in a relationship with me, or worse yet, whether they even want to be friends with me anymore. That's despite the fact there's no evidence to suggest that she doesn't want to be associated with me in any way. It's something i definitely need to improve if I want to get closer with any woman... 

 

I also tend to get very fearful about my future... How ready am I to live on my own? Can I afford my own living space? What about finding a career for myself? All these questions leave me really frightened sometimes...

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Figuring out my life plans in the last year. Deciding to stop my education (because it was getting me nowhere tbh) to move cross country to live with my now fiance. Stressful situation then, considering all the backlash from my family over it. But, all in all, it was the best decision ive ever made, so far. 


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My biggest struggle was when I was struggling with my faith in high school.

 

I had always been very devout until I started taking religious studies in high school. At one point when I was extremely sick in grade 3, I was 100% fine with the prospect of death. Then I learned about the crusades, the Spanish Inquisition and the unpleasant bits. It didn't make matters easier that my school was "faith based" too.

 

I tried seeking advice from one of my teachers, but he basically told me to stop being a "rebellious punk." I couldn't turn to my family or friends because they were all religious too and I didn't want to be hurt. After weeks of holding it all in, I eventually confided my feelings with my best friend. Thankfully they were supportive and listened with open ears; I felt isolated and helpless until that point. This might sound crazy to a few of you, but god was as real to me as the planet itself. Even as I finally turned away from my faith early on, I was more an anti theist because part of me still believed.

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a certain class in school(right now)

literally impossible.

no more than two people are going to be able to attend the test.

 

 

other than that, my personality.

 

i feel like a peeled potato sometimes.

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I'd say my years in school was my biggest struggle. Academically, I was fine- pretty good, actually. But I always felt like an outsider there, around people that I couldn't help but hate, caught in the crossfire in the battle against teachers and students (I didn't talk in general, so I never really got involved in them...) It upset me so much being there, that when I was moving from Year 6 to 7 I believed and hoped that I'd die before the new year. Through my time there, I've had urges to self-harm and even went dangerously underweight out of addiction to exercising (the only way I had to raise my mood at the time). I'm just glad that I'm free from the system now; learning at home on my own is much more contenting. :)


 

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I'd say my two biggest struggles are the physical pain of my back/right knee (that no Doctor has proven is real) and the mental/emotional stress of being polyamorous.

 

The physical pain is from, as best I can guess, when I was roughly 8 and was slammed into the floor onto my back. My mother was attempting to cut my hair (A month in beauty school means you on par with the best in the nation, according to her), and naturally resisting to try and get my hair long for once, I decided I would hide in my closet, and sit on my storage tote until she gives up. Unsurprisingly she finds me, and after yelling at me, and trying to pull me out forcibly, decides to just pull the tote onto it's side. The tote, rectangular, flips onto it's short side and I fall to the ground on my lower back, sideways, curled up in a ball against the wall and floor. 

 

Fast forward about 5 years, I start getting a pain in my lower back, and my right knee, places that I hit on the closet floor. Another five years, I sometimes get my cane out to help me walk, and have some pretty decent back problems. No X-ray or doctor can confirm any damage though :/

 

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The polyamorous stress is more easily explained. I see nothing wrong with dating multiple people, and somewhat encourage it to my current girlfriend. Not a very popular opinion, of course, since it basically is swinging but without the focus on sex, and more on actual emotions. More than once I've pushed the limits and tried to get a second partner. Needless to say, I've failed each time (to the point of further mentally instability).

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