writing Why am I so cursed

[Sandwhisper 33]

I don't want to lose you... I never do...

 

And you are amazing... I wouldn't act this way over someone if you weren't.

 

Which is why I feel absolutely horrible. I love you! I love you. You know that.

I just... I just... I don't know. I don't want you hurt and I don't want to lose you. I know that as a fact.

[HomuraBL 851]

I'm not exploding, I am trying to use logic.

 

I am stressed out of my mind.

 

When I said that last part, I was meaning it to everyone.

 

...then why did you quote me?

[QueenChrysalis 176]

Just don't even try.

 

If they didn't care then, they won't care now.

 

well i care why because iv know you since day one of my life as a brony i all ways take a look if your online on xbox and read your updates

[Finesthour 7,287]

Which is why I feel absolutely horrible. I love you! I love you. You know that.

I just... I just... I don't know. I don't want you hurt and I don't want to lose you. I know that as a fact.

 

It just feels like... like...

 

With my other relationships, they told me they loved me when they didn't mean it and left me in the dust.

 

I am so afraid that it will happen again...

[Ninja Derpy 343]

I know this isn't a joke, and neither is what I am posting.

 

 

This always seems to cheer me up!!

 

[Finesthour 7,287]

...then why did you quote me?

 

Because the first part was about you.

[Sandwhisper 33]

It just feels like... like...

 

With my other relationships, they told me they loved me when they didn't mean it and left me in the dust.

 

I am so afraid that it will happen again...

 

Well, you know I mean it. And I'm not gonna leave you in the dust.

[Knight Shadrahk 159]

Did anyone say it was a poem?

 

*anypony

 

and did anypony say it wasn't?

[Proailurus 214]

Lol Derpina I don't think that will cheer anypony up...

[Finesthour 7,287]

Well, you know I mean it. And I'm not gonna leave you in the dust.

 

I am just so afraid...

 

it has happened so many times... so many people have said that...

 

I can't lose you Alex. I just can't...

[Queen Cassie 3,057]

Rose, I realize this is a difficult thing to experience right now, but I do believe you will be able to recover from it. You've struck me as a fairly strong person, judging by all I've seen of you. It's not going to be easy. It's going to hurt a lot. But I think you can get through it, and emerge stronger than ever, or at least still going.

[Finesthour 7,287]

Rose, I realize this is a difficult thing to experience right now, but I do believe you will be able to recover from it. You've struck me as a fairly strong person, judging by all I've seen of you. It's not going to be easy. It's going to hurt a lot. But I think you can get through it, and emerge stronger than ever, or at least still going.

 

I have been through a lot of shit.

 

I have fought my entire life.

 

But everyone has a breaking point.

[HomuraBL 851]

Because the first part was about you.

 

Ok, thank you for clearing that up. Now I'm assuming this is about Alex so I'll go with that...It also seems that everything just needs to be discussed between the two of you...I'll leave you two alone...So remember, you can PM me anytime you need to talk or pour your soul. I will take it seriously and try to help you. I'll be there for you remember.

Edited February 19, 2012 by RaccoonBL

[Proailurus 214]

I feel horrible for thinkin that was a joke andI hope you feel better...

[Sandwhisper 33]

I am just so afraid...

 

it has happened so many times... so many people have said that...

 

I can't lose you Alex. I just can't...

 

Gary, listen. I don't want to lose you. I'm not the kind of person to lie and leave you in the dust. I hate those people. If I didn't want to stay with you, I'd be like "OLOL FUCK DAT YOU HAS STUPID EMOTIONS"

But no.

I'm not like that.

I don't wanna lose you, nor split.

[Finesthour 7,287]

 

Why do you think I am hurting so bad?

 

This has happened before... and I am afraid I will lose you forever...

[Sandwhisper 33]

You're not going to!

[Finesthour 7,287]

You're not going to!

 

That's what I want... so bad...

 

But you know my brain.

 

It is trying to convince me that you do not really love me, and that you really hate me.

 

Like the other people I was in relationships with.

[Sandwhisper 33]

That's what I want... so bad...

 

But you know my brain.

 

It is trying to convince me that you do not really love me, and that you really hate me.

 

Like the other people I was in relationships with.

 

And my brain is convincing me I'm not good enough to hold you together through this, and that I'll bring it to an end. But no way in hell am I going to let that happen. I'm not like everyone else.

[Queen Cassie 3,057]

I have been through a lot of shit.

 

I have fought my entire life.

 

But everyone has a breaking point.

 

True. I know that as well as anyone, having been down the path of suicide multiple times.

 

But I don't think this is yours. Not yet. You're tougher than that.

[Finesthour 7,287]

And my brain is convincing me I'm not good enough to hold you together through this, and that I'll bring it to an end. But no way in hell am I going to let that happen. I'm not like everyone else.

 

If anything, it will be my fault if we ever split.

 

Not that I won't go down fighting...

 

but you awoke a very bad side of me that finally died down.

 

I love you Alex, and I am afraid for my self being for once.

[Sandwhisper 33]

If anything, it will be my fault if we ever split.

 

Not that I won't go down fighting...

 

but you awoke a very bad side of me that finally died down.

 

I love you Alex, and I am afraid for my self being for once.

 

It'd be my fault. All this is.

I'm glad as hell you're fighting, because I know if you just let this disappear I'd just come back crying.

[Finesthour 7,287]

It'd be my fault. All this is.

I'm glad as hell you're fighting, because I know if you just let this disappear I'd just come back crying.

 

I'm a fighter, that much is certain.

 

I sure as hell will not my bad feelings win.

 

They haven't yet, and they never will.

 

the same as I fight for you.

[Guest]

I am really sorry, I wish I could do anything to make you even a little happier and more reassured.

 

You're an awesome person in my book, and it is horrible that you have had to go through so much. No one should have to go through any of that. And I know this might sound really stupid, but even though you have been through a lot you have to let the past go. I'm not trying to sound insincere (I really do feel for you) or trying to say that the past doesn't matter, but sometimes moving on is the best thing. Past experiences are valuable to help us know what comes ahead, but at the same time they can weigh us down. It is hard, it is putting yourself out there, but it also helps free you from what troubles you.

 

If I hadn't moved on I would still be going to a pyshcologist fearing that my family and I would die and it would have inadvertently been my fault, my mind used to be a very dark place...

 

You are a special member of this forum and I see you as a friend, and I want you to know I am (along with many others I am sure) here to listen and help.

Edited February 19, 2012 by Guest

[Fox 5,330]

You should always act yourself, because that's how people really experience for what you truely are!

If anything, it will be my fault if we ever split.

 

Not that I won't go down fighting...

 

but you awoke a very bad side of me that finally died down.

 

I love you Alex, and I am afraid for my self being for once.

 

You should always act yourself, because that's how people become friends with one another. They share the same values, interests, and ect.