MManny23

The biggest mistake I can recall was not telling the girl I've been in love with how I really felt. I'm 21 and I've never actually been in love or had that butterfly in your stomach feeling. I met this girl at work last year and she was always really nice to me but I don't like when girl are really nice to me cause I assume they like me which I know can't be case seeing as how I have low self esteem. My low self esteem derives from my personality not my physique. I'm not a large person or anything I just think I'm not worth people's time. Anyways, she would always greet me with a smile and I would always find a way to push her away but even after all that she would still be nice to me and would want to talk to me. I suddenly found myself in love with her. Maybe it was because after all the times I've ignored her and all the times I tried to deny her kindness she still wouldn't stop greeting me with a smile at me. I always assumed she was only nice to me because she wanted me to do her work ontop of mine. I thought she was a lazy person and I did call her that to her face. After I told her that she would still smile at me and would say "Hi Manny!" I also noticed how she would struggle to do her job since she was small and weak. I felt so foolish and after I realized that would always help her even when she never asked me help. She then moved from night shifts to mornings and in turn demanding morning just so I could hear her voice again. That may sound pathetic to most but she would always make my day. I finally got the courage one morning that I was going to invite her on a date as friends to hang out but I saw her sitting with a co worker after her shift ended. And when once I clicked out she was stil talking to him. He was way better looking than me so it didn't really bother me as long as she was happy and could still see her. Unfortunately, the next day she quit. I was so heartbroken. I didn't have her number or any way of contacting her. So I would be the last I would hear from her or so I though. A few months went by and I saw her again right as soon as I was walking to my car. She parked next to me with a guy. I was on the phone and I heard the words "hi manny!" Then suddenly I froze up. I couldn't move for a second. Right after I pretend like I didn't hear her and again she yelled out my name even louder. I had no choice but to wave and smile back. Without hesitation I drove off in my car before she could even get off. I cried the way home and still regret not telling her how I really felt. I regret not asking her out the day before she left it still haunts me to this day as the biggest mistake I ever made. Only time can heal a broken heart I guess

I love Bleach. I'm still reading the current manga. still waiting on the new episodes... Someday </3

Thanks everypony for the warm welcomes I'm confident i'll be making some new friends now

Watching the filli vanilli episode when flutterguy was singing for big mac and miss cheerlii faints. priceless

I really like the starscream vs rainbow dash death battle. "Wait! ill join the herd i'll be a good decepticon i swear!" oh Starscream x)

Thank you guys you're too kind I just want to point out that I'm not looking for sympathy in my story. I just wanted people to know the real me before considering being my friend and it's a lot easier to talk about who you really are behind a screen. Don't want to sound like a coward either but talking about stuff like this to people in public isn't very easy

Hi guys, I have very low self esteem so I don't have many friends. I've never been bullied or anything like that but I've grown to be very comfortable being alone since my mom is always working. I have only 3 close friends and 1 of them lives far away. After watching mlp I was worried they wouldnt like me anymore but after I told them they still loved me I was so releived. Out of those 3 only 1 of them decided to watch it with me. He likes it but is by no means a fan like me. He still watches it but only when I offer to watch it. He sent me a link to this website to meet fans of the show like me to make new friends. He really is a true true friend I work and go to college part time. Don't know what I want to be yet but I'm 21 so I should decide soon if I ever plan on moving out and supporting myself. I have a dog that I love named Jake, he's a German Shepherd. I love him very much and is always there when I need him. My mom doesnt let him come inside the house so I go to my backyard a lot and play with him. He ripped one of my mlp drawings I showed him :okiedokielokie: but I still love him. I like watching netflix and watching anime sometimes. I really like watching indie and romance films. I also like playing video games from time to time. I also don't like nice girls because I always think they like me but then I reassure my self that I'm not worth their time so I try to not talk to them so they'll leave me alone I finally fell in love about 5 months ago. It felt really wonderful but I could never tell her how I feel because even though she was nice to me I knew there were guys way better suited for her than me. She would always smile and say hi to me at work when she saw me even though she hated working at Jason's Deli. I almost had the courage to hang out with me after work but then I saw her talking to another guy who was 10x better looking than me so I just clocked out and went home. Next day she quit which made me sad but I got over it. after about 3 months later when I was walking to my car from work she showed up with a guy and his friends parking right next to me to go eat at Jason's Deli. I was on the phone with one of my close friends and she yelled hi to me with a big smile like she use to, I froze up. I hung up the phone and quickly smiled back and yelled hi. After that I quickly got into my car and cried a bit on the ride home. My friend cheered me up after I told him why I abruply hung up on him. Sorry for telling everypony about my life story I hope I didnt bore you I sort of got carried away talking about myself. I hope I don't come off as narcissitic. I'm really honered to be a apart of this site and I hope to make some pony friends I can talk in depth about the show.