Altastrofae

Behold, social commentary on the American education system, while simultaneously being an educational resource
Is bootiful

After the sun comes up, I'm going to be doing something I have never done before
The sun is not up in my part of the world just yet, but I want to do it during daylight

I don't talk about my interest in the occult here often, but I am going to be putting together a money bowl, and a money bowl is a bowl that you set up in order to get more money. You might throw in some crystals, herbs, write a petition throw that in there, whatever. I have quite a few crystals that are good for this, and I figured why not. I've never done any kind of money spell, and considering I do not have a job, I wonder just how effective it would be. 

Not putting a whole lot of thought into timing. Its a waxing gibbeous right now, I would have preferred a crescent but I'm a few days late on that. However, as of last night, the moon is in Aries, so that is a good aspect for what I'm doing. I have aventurine and tigers eye I will be throwing in. I will probably write a petition. Throw all that in a bowl, with some cash, a few coins, and see where that gets me. I'll probably be small like... I want my money doubled in two weeks. Yeah, I want double what I put in that bowl to be whats left in that bowl after two weeks

I forgot to mention that, confirmed yesterday, I officially have contracted the virus

That sounds like I enjoy it, let me say it is not fun

Also, its kinda weird this was compared to the flu, this definitely feels different from a flu. 
Right now I'm not feeling many of the symptoms, sometimes its alot worse
Just a small headache and sore throat now

But it has been as much as like chest pain, really bad coughs, really bad headaches, stuffy nose
That sounds like a flu listing it off, but actually having it does not feel like a flu. Like when I have the flu I feel like throwing up, and chest pains are never part of that equation. And conjestion hasn't really been an issue
Maybe thats just my case, and other people experience something closer to a flu, but for me, definitely feels like a completely different thing

But yeah now I'm in quarantine until the 18th
I don't have a job so thats not too big a deal, but still worth mentioning

Lelouch from Code Geass:
   [ moves his king as soon as he can in chess game ]
   " If the king doesn't lead, how can he expect his subordinates to follow? "
   [ somehow wins that game ]

Every Chess Grandmaster Ever:
   " That... that's not how this works. Thats not how any of this works. "

Considering updating my old Ponysona


Very androgynous regardless but I feel my sona is due to be updated to a mare. Might put something in Requestria later

I just bought Elder Scrolls III: Morrowind in 2021
Mostly because I've never played it and alot of people think its one of the best elder scrolls games
I also read about what the game is like, and I love the sound of alot of the differences, and have a feeling I'll enjoy it more than Skyrim

Me when crystals

Hey look at my dope head shelf, very aesthetic 

I have not been keeping up with the MLP Fandom
Can someone explain to me why and how people are managing to take a political stance on A New Generation?
No spoilers, I haven't seen it yet
But thats also why I have no context for how My Little Pony can possibly be political

"What is better? To be born good, or to overcome your evil nature through great effort?" 
- Paarthurnax, Skyrim

I want to dissect this because it's one of those things that sounds wise on a surface level, but there's more to it than that.
So the first thing I want to touch on is "evil nature"
This is a subjective statement. One could best define evil in this context as either
A ) anything the individual sees as a fault within themselves
OR
B ) anything that can be objectively argued as harmful to the people and world around you

With that in mind, let us apply this to the "overcome" portion
How does one overcome these things. Suppression isn't healthy, we know this. That's one way of overcoming.
And we know Paarthurnax is doing exactly this, because in another line he says that he constantly suppresses his instinct.

Now Paarthurnax does this because he believes in peace, and other dragons believe in conquest, to destroy in order to gain power, and to ultimately serve the strongest Dovah, in this case, Alduin, who wants to literally destroy the world, his name even means "World Eater"
So this falls under B, it can be objectively argued as harmful for him to act on these instincts

So now we are left with a moral dilemma.
Is Paarthurnax right for suppressing this instinct, or is being born with this instinct indicative of dragons being inherently evil?
In the game you get an option to kill Paarthurnax, and at its core this is the moral dilemma you are presented with. Is a dragon worthy of death regardless of the effort applied to suppress his instinct?

This is why I love philosophy

So My Little Pony actually taught me something today
I watched "Apples to the Core" but from the Japanese dub of the show
And I noticed they don't call their family "Ringo" or Japanese for Apples
They say "Appuru"
And I was like "that's not the word they use though"
So I looked into it, and apparently its used only when its a proper noun, so because its a family name they say "Appuru" and that is also what they call Apple the tech company in Japanese

Which I suppose that makes sense, theres no reason to be translating a family name. I just... I expected it 
But I suppose thats just as silly as to expect Applejack to be called... Ringojakku, but she is also Appurujakku, just the same, because thats her name

Idk for some reason that just made me question my sanity for a moment and I thought it was interesting enough to share

I made a new Picrew
For those who don't know, Picrew is a Japanese web app that allows people to share png-based avatar creators, and use them to make themselves, friends, or OCs

I made me. Not how I look now but kind of how I imagine I look.

I am now Ariel. Because who didn't want to be a mermaid as a kid. Maybe that was just me idk

I... exist
I am existing
Existence is occurring
What is happening here is that I am in the process of existing
In order to describe my state of being at the most basic level, I should say I exist

Hey Leere
I know you probably won't see this
And I know you don't want anything to do with me anymore
But I think I just understood what I was doing wrong. When you were still around I was an inconsiderate person who never really said anything meaningful, and when given an opportunity to, I usually said something selfish or unrelated.

Thinking back, that me can suck it. I can't remember exactly what you said your problem with me was, I really should remember, but I don't. Maybe I didn't care enough to listen. That wasn't right either. But what I do remember I think was something like this realization I had.

But I like you as a person Leere. I always thought you were kinda cool. I think about you alot, and I miss talking to you. I know that feeling isn't mutual. But after this struck me, I felt like I had to apologize. Even if this isn't what I should be apologizing for. I appreciated your company, and I'm sorry I made you feel unwelcome or like I didn't care for anyone besides myself. I'd love to talk again one day, but I think I understand now why you don't.

You can ignore this if you want. You don't owe me anything. But whatever you want to do right now, whatever is making you happy, I hope you get all of it and more. You deserve it, because you were always a good friend, where I was a pretty shit one.

Sincerly,
Astro

 Damn tho

So school ends on Friday and my grad ceremony is on Sunday 

Like damn I can’t even

So remember how I said I’d come out tomorrow? 

Well that was yesterday and yesterday’s tomorrow is today now.

and I didn’t do shit 

because stupid brain 

Update

Didn’t come out today at school like I said I was planning to. My plan basically fell apart and nerves exist and ugh

Tomorrow. I’ll do it Tomorrow. Yes.

So today wasn’t the best

But I’m still on with the plans I have for tomorrow. I’m going to come out as transgender to well basically the whole school

I figure it won’t matter since I graduate high school in a week and my dad already knows, and my counselor knows, and a few close friends know. And the counselor said the school has always supported trans students

And it will be very nice to just be able to be myself for the last few days, and if anyone is mean I won’t have to see them ever again.

And getting it off my chest to that extent will feel pretty good I think 

So I found out I’m not genderfluid

I’m actually trans. A few friends call me Kayla now so that’s pretty cool. It’s been a confusing 5 years or so of gender questioning but here I am. I got there eventually. 

The few people I’ve come out to have been supportive and this week I plan to come out to a few more people at school so things feel less awkward. Hope that goes as well as things have so far.