Count to a million

[lomk 20,666]

302xxx

 

You okay?

 

Sorry. I'm trying to balance being here and looking busy.

[Deae Rising Shine~ 57,329]

302.307

 

?

[DasCapschen 7,775]

302.308

 

lol woona

 

sry, I just can't stand seeing this thread standing still, I had to post ._.

Edited June 12, 2015 by CAPTNCTAM

[Deae Rising Shine~ 57,329]

302.309

 

come on, whats wrong?

[DasCapschen 7,775]

302.310

 

I don't wanna talk about it...

It's nothing about you guys, and I am not doing anything stupid, so don't worry...

I just need time to think, I am such an idiot...

Edited June 12, 2015 by CAPTNCTAM

[lomk 20,666]

302xxx

 

Well there's nothing to do at the office right now lol

 

I'm trying to look busy so my boss doesn't give me something to do lol

No. You're not. Don't you DARE do that, Cap.

[Deae Rising Shine~ 57,329]

302.313

 

okay ... *Hugs*

[DasCapschen 7,775]

302.313 

 

Thanks *hugs back*

 

 

 

No. You're not. Don't you DARE do that, Cap

Wat? first you say I am not an Idiot and then you say I shall not dare to think? ._.

What side are you on?

Edited June 12, 2015 by CAPTNCTAM

[Deae Rising Shine~ 57,329]

302.314

 

Is this a new trend by the way? Everytime somepony is sad they write in annoying small letters?

[BastementSparkle 20,334]

302315

 

*Hugs  CAPTN  too*

[DasCapschen 7,775]

302.314

 

Is this a new trend by the way? Everytime somepony is sad they write in annoying small letters?

sry, I fixed it

Edited June 12, 2015 by CAPTNCTAM

[lomk 20,666]

302xxx

 

You're not an idiot.

 

Don't call yourself an idiot. I take beating yourself up very seriously because I did it for so long and it got me nowhere but deeper in the hole. And as one of my best friends, I don't want to see you doing that. If you have something on your mind, please talk to us about it. It won't do you any good to call yourself an idiot.

It's because when I was a teenager, I hated myself. I called myself an idiot when someone else wasn't. I wanted to off myself on so many occasions, I'm not proud to admit it. Nobody deserves to live like that.

[Deae Rising Shine~ 57,329]

302.317

 

Thanks. I mean, I understand if you guys are sad and all, but it changes nothing if you stop the straight reading trough posts with sudden mini-letters. Your mood wont show stronger trough smaller letters, its just irritates while reading, when used to a specific size. Samefor bigger ones, toughthose are better to read. Just saying, no need to do it

[SparklingSwirls 21,560]

302316

 

[lomk 20,666]

Unless they are Hitler or bin Laden.

[Deae Rising Shine~ 57,329]

302.321

[DasCapschen 7,775]

302xxx

 

You're not an idiot.

 

Don't call yourself an idiot. I take beating yourself up very seriously because I did it for so long and it got me nowhere but deeper in the hole. And as one of my best friends, I don't want to see you doing that. If you have something on your mind, please talk to us about it. It won't do you any good to call yourself an idiot.

I am one of your best friends?

I can't believe that... I am not here for a tenth as long as the others... and no one, who really knew me, ever liked me...

Also, I am an idiot... I always lose every discussion, I not good at anything, I am never well informed about anything, apparently all I ever believed in is wrong and I managed to scare yet another person away from me...

[BastementSparkle 20,334]

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No one ever liked you?

 

We sure do have a lot of no one here in CTaM then, cause we do.

 

I think you are a pretty good friend CAPTN.

[DasCapschen 7,775]

302.324

 

Thanks base

[BastementSparkle 20,334]

302325

 

No problem.

[Deae Rising Shine~ 57,329]

302.325

 

I have barely people who like me in real, sometimes I think even parts of my family from time to time. I'm a no one, only able to annoy people it seems ... and still, here, I have friends, guys and girls I never met in real, they like me. And your part of it.

[DasCapschen 7,775]

302.327

 

Thanks Rising

[Raritas 6,820]

302'328

Edited June 12, 2015 by Raritas

[DasCapschen 7,775]

302.329

 

I already feel way better guys, thank you so much

Edited June 12, 2015 by CAPTNCTAM

[Deae Rising Shine~ 57,329]

302.328

 

I done shit in my life already, may it here or in real. That happens to everyone sooner or later. There will be days, that push your mood to the ground and under, but if I would leave her for everytime I'm mad or sad, I wouldnt be able to post here ever again. I'm an always wreck to be honest. I get annoyed by the stupidest reasons(That caused already 2 bans ......) and it always seems like the life just want to kill me trough my annoyance(As showed today on my way back home. nearly all trains came later, needed longer, where overfilled and a bus that only comes in 7 minutes at the end). I sure could run into a corner and cry forever or worse. But I don't. Life tries to make life as worse as possible by a lot of people, you must be the one, who kicks it in his flank and stand up. I dont know what happened but now suffering something that is now already past helps for some time, to get your feelings out, but will just damages if yu keep suffering over that time. Here are a lot of people who enjoy you having around, me included. Yes, I may be sometimes a bit annoyed trough your speedposting from time to time. But that is no reason for me to hate you, there is eough I like on you, your friendly, kind and fun to talk with(And your german, jk XD)

 

Let it out, but dont let it push you out, kay? *Hugs*