Eathlin

In high-school my GPA was 1.34 (F+ average) for Freshman Year. Had depression and therapy. Sophomore I had a 1.48. About the same for the rest of highschool. It's hard to care when several of your friends commit suicide and your school district is one step above hellish.

I was going to message you, but I did not have any available messages. Despite never having used one.

I just swear, I am a sailor. The metaphor is literally, "You swear like a sailor." Just upholding cultural norms here, no need to thank me!

Last time I cried was in RTC, I earned a call home. First time I heard my mom's voice in over a month. It was my first time away from home. I got teased a bit but I didn't care. They got orange carded for laughing at the AROC, and I got to call cadence. (A song you sing in the military whilst exercising or marching to ensure all participants are working at the same pace.) Be proud of who you are, but accept no compromises. The only person who's opinion matters to you fully is your own. You owe yourself a life. Don't give it to someone else to run, they have their own.

Ya'll have nothing. Like those of you saying you're 90+ out of 100. Yeah no. I'm a solid 63 on that scale and I'm more messed up than all of you combined. I went through basic training and was tossed into RCU and SEPS-Bravo for a bit before I shipped off to my station. I was staff there. Let me tell you the stuff I saw there messed me up to the point that I had to get therapy. I would tell you stories but I signed a NDA. I still cry myself to sleep some days thinking of what I saw. Just keep in mind you lot. You are better than you believe, smarter than you think, and stronger than you hope. Those kids are fine now and they were in some dark places even demons would fear to tread. Talk to your friends. They know you better than you think they do. Then talk to your consolers at school, or a favorite teacher. You aren't alone and you never were. I'm a nineteen year old Sailor of the United States Navy, I have a Disney quilt and a Winnie the Pooh Blanket. The DvDs on my shelf are the Tinker Bell movies, and Looney Toons. Be proud of what you love. It's your life to live.

I don't. God won't let me in, and I've already been to hell.

I'm asexual, I don't have an orientation, I just don't care. I don't like males, I don't like females.

I would like to be left alone and forgotten now. Hence why name username is more like my user identity. It's my job, and my home together. Honestly just toss those on a grave, give me a noose and I'll be set.

I went to basic training, Great Lakes LLC RTC, a guy can put a gun to my head and I wouldn't care at this point.

"The Sun chars us- -Like the hope we are cursed to hold."

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I would like to make a commission, or rather two, but first I must ask; do you do militaristic things? Not a battle or anything, just ponies in uniform.