I’m always down for friends I have stuff in common with to talk about.
I’m also however seeking people I can talk to about myself fully and what I’ve got going on. To counter act the free therapy sessions I seem to be giving with my family and some individuals on my discord list. Before anyone asks, thinks or even tries to witch hunt this individual I’m about to refer to I know from school. I check my discord daily. I got 40 unread ones from her in a row. Last night I had 21 from her. Thats just one of them. Plus in my role at work now I can’t have bad days with people even when I want to. I’ve got an image. Even though on the inside everything could be on fire. I’m known as the person who can handle anything. I had that mentioned to me as recently as last week during a meeting in front of people. How flustered they get when things come up but how calm I am about things. It has me like yeah. That’s because you don’t know what’s going on on the inside right now 💀
However here’s where the kicker comes in with wanting this though. Which this is 100% on me.Its a me thing. I don’t feel comfortable really letting people get that close to me to know what I’ve got going on. Actually give details. When people start to get that close here’s a wall. Now I’m going to go do mental gymnastics and drive the conversation away from me or walk away from the conversation for a bit.