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Come on, you know that's funny. ^^

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I'm thinking about...well, STUFF that are not appropriate to be written here.

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What are you thinking at the exact moment you read this?   When I made this post I was thinking about the catchy Equestria Girls theme song.

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They call me Loyalty

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About the stories my grandfather used to tell me during my childhood. And I wanted to say that I retract everything I ever said about him. He was a good man, and an excellent grandfather. But I had adopted the mindset from my mother to blame everyone but herself, and thought there was some dark secret in the family to justify that kind of resentfulness, other than the fact that she may have been adopted because she does not share anything in common with their parents. And she is a resentful person because of that, despite how fortunate she is.

Still, I l always felt like I needed to protect her, so she never gets to know the real world. Telling her stories about fantastic places somewhere far away. Because even to this day. I can see a little girl in her.
Also, to keep her safe from those stories my grandfather used to tell me. About recondite places in the interior of the country, where you could sometimes see strange people with something not quite right about their physical appearance. And some of the brutality that happened in there.
And consider that my grandfather was born in another time. So, perhaps he got to see a different version of the world than myself. But I don't think he was lying, because when I looked at him. He didn't even blink.

But it was the stuff of real nightmares. Things I cannot describe here because of how morbid and violent they are. Predatory behaviour and deranged animalism product from mental illness and developmental problems that were the result of inbreeding, most likely. The kind of stories you hear from psychiatric wards, but in the wild and running free.

Also, I was able to recognize some of these pathological behaviours in me since childhood. So, whenever I start to become unstable, I remind myself of these stories to subdue myself. To scare myself. I do anything in my control to stay as innocent as a little child, for my mother.
Because I know I am one of the wild people, and I am fortunate enough to live in society despite the impairments of this genetic condition. So, I kill the animal inside of me, everyday. And stay at home like an "old person" as long as it lasts. Because I cannot compromise her safety.

I can tell you that your fears are unjustified. I won't become deranged. I have made a promise with myself, long ago. Even if we lose what our family left to us. I am gonna become a homeless beggar and get closer to "god". But I will never compromise my own identity. I am a born butcher. And I know it is "wrong". So, I have sealed myself, until the day I die. That is all you get from me, considering I've been robbed from my own element.

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Right now? I'm thinking about a horrible mistake I made 1-2 years ago about letting people that don't even live in my house go on my account on another pony site and favorite things that I'm not even into, as well as watch tags with stuff I'm not even into, and comment on stuff I'm not even into! All I said was, "Okay, you can be on my device, do anything you want", and now I just realize I never should've said that. Today's gonna be a long day of deleting comments, unwatching tags, and unfavoriting images...

"Yes! I won! I finally won!"

 

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I have a lot of coursework to do since this class started yesterday...yet I want to play some of the new games that are coming out.

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  On 2023-05-12 at 4:28 AM, thecoolerglimmer said:

I have a lot of coursework to do since this class started yesterday...yet I want to play some of the new games that are coming out.

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So what you excited for huh something we can play? :pinkie:
also :hug_day:

                                                                          

  

                                                                               

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  On 2023-05-12 at 4:35 AM, thecoolerglimmer said:

mmmm perhaps. Was there a game you wanted to play in mind?

 

also :hug_day:

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Well i haven’t been playing game’s recently so idk i would have to think :twismile:

                                                                          

  

                                                                               

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about king <3 {yeh bf just nickname king}

What to name an oc of mine and how some people are doing

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