mega thread What are you thinking?

[Woohoo 34,355]

2 minutes ago, Sparklefan1234 said:

 

I think that might mean you're a creative person. 

Problem is I have NO ability to write them out. 

[Sparklefan1234 172,287]

7 minutes ago, Woohoo said:

Problem is I have NO ability to write them out. 

What about drawing them? I think that's another way you could let your creativity out. 

[They call me Loyalty 1,948]

About the stories my grandfather used to tell me during my childhood. And I wanted to say that I retract everything I ever said about him. He was a good man, and an excellent grandfather. But I had adopted the mindset from my mother to blame everyone but herself, and thought there was some dark secret in the family to justify that kind of resentfulness, other than the fact that she may have been adopted because she does not share anything in common with their parents. And she is a resentful person because of that, despite how fortunate she is.

Still, I l always felt like I needed to protect her, so she never gets to know the real world. Telling her stories about fantastic places somewhere far away. Because even to this day. I can see a little girl in her.
Also, to keep her safe from those stories my grandfather used to tell me. About recondite places in the interior of the country, where you could sometimes see strange people with something not quite right about their physical appearance. And some of the brutality that happened in there.
And consider that my grandfather was born in another time. So, perhaps he got to see a different version of the world than myself. But I don't think he was lying, because when I looked at him. He didn't even blink.

But it was the stuff of real nightmares. Things I cannot describe here because of how morbid and violent they are. Predatory behaviour and deranged animalism product from mental illness and developmental problems that were the result of inbreeding, most likely. The kind of stories you hear from psychiatric wards, but in the wild and running free.

Also, I was able to recognize some of these pathological behaviours in me since childhood. So, whenever I start to become unstable, I remind myself of these stories to subdue myself. To scare myself. I do anything in my control to stay as innocent as a little child, for my mother.
Because I know I am one of the wild people, and I am fortunate enough to live in society despite the impairments of this genetic condition. So, I kill the animal inside of me, everyday. And stay at home like an "old person" as long as it lasts. Because I cannot compromise her safety.

I can tell you that your fears are unjustified. I won't become deranged. I have made a promise with myself, long ago. Even if we lose what our family left to us. I am gonna become a homeless beggar and get closer to "god". But I will never compromise my own identity. I am a born butcher. And I know it is "wrong". So, I have sealed myself, until the day I die. That is all you get from me, considering I've been robbed from my own element.

Edited May 10, 2023 by They call me Loyalty

[Woohoo 34,355]

17 hours ago, Sparklefan1234 said:

What about drawing them? I think that's another way you could let your creativity out. 

I'm no drawer either. 

Currently thinking what I'm going to do this weekend.

[Player the FNFL Boi 123]

Right now? I'm thinking about a horrible mistake I made 1-2 years ago about letting people that don't even live in my house go on my account on another pony site and favorite things that I'm not even into, as well as watch tags with stuff I'm not even into, and comment on stuff I'm not even into! All I said was, "Okay, you can be on my device, do anything you want", and now I just realize I never should've said that. Today's gonna be a long day of deleting comments, unwatching tags, and unfavoriting images...

[ZiggWheelsManning 10,874]

Thinking of attending a TV downstairs  

[Lunaholic 921]

Friendship is magic, it truly is... ✨

[Sparklefan1234 172,287]

31 minutes ago, Lunaholic said:

Friendship is magic, it truly is... ✨

 

...Line!?  (Thinking to myself. )

[Longhaul 6,932]

Just thinking about what tomorrow's gonna be like at work.

[Brony Number 42 10,072]

I wonder why the normal distribution in the jstat.js package is not normalized. 

[Cash In 22,479]

3 hours ago, Lunaholic said:

Friendship is magic, it truly is... ✨

[ZiggWheelsManning 10,874]

A song on YouTube that entered my thoughts  

[Savy 5,086]

Thinking if that storm is supposed to roll in tonight.

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I have a lot of coursework to do since this class started yesterday...yet I want to play some of the new games that are coming out.

[Old Accnt. 3,149]

4 minutes ago, thecoolerglimmer said:

I have a lot of coursework to do since this class started yesterday...yet I want to play some of the new games that are coming out.

So what you excited for huh something we can play? 
also 

[Guest]

Moments ago, FlutteringGuardian said:

So what you excited for huh something we can play? 
also 

mmmm perhaps. Was there a game you wanted to play in mind?

 

also

[Old Accnt. 3,149]

1 hour ago, thecoolerglimmer said:

mmmm perhaps. Was there a game you wanted to play in mind?

 

also

Well i haven’t been playing game’s recently so idk i would have to think 

[Cash In 22,479]

That I'm about to declare @Simon as my arch-enemy!

[Simon 4,557]

That I’m about to declare @Cash In as my best friend! 

[Jackleberry 1,923]

I'm thinking damn, social anxiety got hands.

[Cash In 22,479]

4 minutes ago, Simon said:

That I’m about to declare @Cash In as my best friend! 

[Player the FNFL Boi 123]

I'm thinking about finishing a video show later today at night.

[Pandora 38,066]

about king <3 {yeh bf just nickname king}

What to name an oc of mine and how some people are doing

[ZiggWheelsManning 10,874]

That I'm not a Bat Pony anymore as I lean on the number 6  

@Princess Silky, you'll want to bring a confetti cannon and a falcon with you  

Edited May 12, 2023 by ZiggWheelsManning

[misaokuser89 139]

what i’m going to wear for when i go out next week