Welcome back!
I think the important thing is to reflect and understand how you can grow and better yourself as a person. If we understand why our actions can be harmful and use that as a opportunity to learn how to be better, then there was some good achieved.
Trust does take time to rebuild, but it's never impossible. Rome wasn't built in a day. It took time genuine effort, time and care. If you are able to apply that, I'm sure you'll be able rebuild it.
And this a message for everyone: We may look like fun hating tyrants, but we do care and we investigate serious situations with great concern and attention.
Our entire team cares greatly about this community and thought of anyone being put in harm's way is something that none of us like to even think about, but we are always ready to act.
So please talk to us. You are safe with us and we are here to help