Raskolnikov

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This user is now under a witness protection program.

@RaskolnikovIS @Raskolnikov'S SANDBAG ONLY!!!!!!

GUARDS? GUARDS!!!!!!!

WAIT WHY AM I BEING @'ED AT ABOUT BEING A SANDBAG

A summon?

I heard if you sacrifice a hotdog to Zeus, you get turned into a lamb to be eaten by a pride of lions for the disrespect

I need to finally get this sciatica seen by a physiotherapist, it's been over a year I've had it and the cap it's added onto my stamina and inability to sit down comfortably without my sciatic nerve flaring up suuuucks.

I don't STRICTLY go by a single philosophy - I believe flexibility is best as I think adhering to a rigid way of thinking is too dogmatic and restrictive. However I have always admired Diogenes - I remember peeking through one of my Ancient Greek Philosophy textbooks (that were never used in class! too underfunded, lol) just to read about Cynicism. His refusal to adhere to social norms, his shocking ways of calling out of bullshit and hypocrisy, his simplistic lifestyle, his identification as a "cosmopolite" - it spoke to me so much, I actually changed my user title on a forum to "The Cynic" for a time :] you could even say Cynicism was my first dipping into anarchism as a worldview, before I turned into one in my early 20's. Otherwise, I don't view anarchism as just an ideology, but also a philosophy - and it reflects how I approach other people, myself, and the world. I overlook statuses, whether it's someone in legal authority (e.g. cop, politician), educational authority (e.g. teachers, self-proclaimed experts - I am not in any way anti-science, but some individuals enjoy manipulating science for their own self gain - in fact I consider THEM anti-science when they do such things as I highly value the pursuit of truth!), someone of significant social status (e.g. celebrities), spiritual authority (e.g. the Pope, the Orthodox Patriarchate...), familial authority (e.g. blood relatives, parents) and so on - I make sure to ALWAYS question them and never treat them as anything special and avoid idolising anyone as we are all human beings with flaws and they are not above anyone else. Not even to be antagonistic, it's just a healthy habit to think for yourself. Even with ideologues I agree with, I try to look at their personal history and see if their words match their actions, and I try to see the human in them and not just what they're famous for. I believe in taking full control of one's life and destiny and being your own master rather than having anyone hovering over you setting it for you, and I view those trying to cruelly exert power over others as fearful and pitiful children. I'm not free of authoritarian tendencies in myself, either, and I try to be aware of them and challenge them. Ultimately - I believe in authenticity and that all symbols of authority, fame, or wealth get in the way of genuine connection with others, and I believe in genuine connection and cooperation as equals. So you can say I believe I 'follow' bits and pieces from cynicism, anarchism, nihilism, maybe even some forms of atheistic satanism? Maybe not a classical philosopher as you may expect, but I find myself rather fond of Emma Goldman - and that respect comes from her actions matching her beliefs, sometimes standing alone on some issues even against her own comrades. I admire that quality. She had a rough childhood and instead of it making her cruel or authoritarian, it gave her a fierce sense of justice. Her writing/speaking style is also full of life rather than cold, distant and academic, and I prefer that over a thinker who is afraid to show passion or emotion.

In real life I'm very, very quiet, and mostly keep to myself - it takes me a longer time than most to trust someone to get comfortable with joking, banters, or in depth discussions with them. Unfortunately I think it makes me come across as rude and arrogant... but it's purely self protective. (well, most of the time... lol.) I've tried being more jokey with my collague at work when he started because with me being the only other staff to engage with... I might have spooked him out seeing as it looked like it's his first job too. He seems comfortable now and at least not outwardly put off by my tendency to be quieter...

thread sunks into the ground, to reveal... the Throne of Bairro

YESSSS!!! Uhhhhh, TOPIC DERAILMENTS! Inappropriate language!!! YOU ARE ALL FOOLS!!!!! YES THAT'S WHAT I'VE THOUGHT ALL ALONG!!!

MODS ARE ASLEEP, POST PONIES- Wait.

King Bairro!! Are you a city person, a town person or a village person? Or perhaps an evil hermit in the woods

Okay loser what inspired you as a child?

I love taigas <3 Would love to visit Russian nature someday! What did you want to be growing up? If it changed as you got older, why? What inspired you as a child, if anything?

I hadn't known much about absurdism actually! I looked it up and, is it basically from my understanding the belief that life is ultimately meaningless and our need for meaning causes 'absurd' tension with the reality of that lack of objective meaning? And that it's better to embrace this lack of meaning and live well anyway as a fuck you? If so, it makes sense to me. I've considered myself a nihilist in the sense that I think life has no objective meaning, but I never interpreted that in a necessarily negative sense - it is what it is and you can craft your own subjective meaning. So absurdism sounds reasonable to me. I looked up Albert Camus. Interesting guy to be sure. As for antinatalism, I was one before I even knew the definition of it (I think I found out about it at 13-14 years old?), and I've only grown more into the position over time the more awful parenting I see creating more and more broken people who then go out in the world and cause more harm... Certainly in this time I think we should be fixing a lot in our world before we bring our children into it and making them inherit our mess. In a kinder world I may reconsider my position.

Hmph, local council dropped a leaflet through the letterbox - after the predictable raised eyebrow I think I may pester them a bit at the email they provided :3

Hey! When did you first discover the genres of music you like? What do you think of Cynicism (school of philosophy)? How did your interest in philosophy and anarchism start? For something lighter... if you could pick any animal to live as, which one would you pick? Do you like nature? If so what are your favourite biomes?

Counsellor has gotten back to me and wants to book an initial call with me, not sure if I should warn her of a few things through email first as my more unsavoury parts get scared/hidden away during sessions and it makes genuine productive engagement difficult if the counsellor has no idea what's going on. :s

Nervous, I just contacted a counsellor asking about a "walk and talk" sessions option. Feel completely stuck ATM and my brain just went "yeah you need help like, professional help" and had to practically force myself to do this because I think my avoidance is a clear sign something is really wrong fhslfjsn. Just frustrating cos I'll have to give a convoluted life history context for a *fourth* time ughhh I need to write a pdf of this lol

I should write a review for that book considering how mixed I am on it.