I can only echo what the others have said @ComanderZhabikKlavik, I find your willpower and ability to go against family pressure admirable. You mentioned losing a family member so your ability to be productive might be affected - that is fine and it's human to take a rest if need be. You sound like a chad, I need a gym membership
Same cardamom tea as Acinonyx, took photo on my bedside table as it would feel weird taking a photo on their desk as it doesn't feel like *my* space - I usually listen to music and browse or read in bed when I drink my tea so it made more sense. I'm about to put on the album Crimson by Edge of Sanity, I liked it before but haven't given it enough attention to make my mind up and I suppose I'm in the mood. I put it on earlier too but I think I prefer complete solitude and silence for this kinda thing.
I'm about to send Bairro from this forum a PM about how me and Acinonyx met, it always feels daunting when people ask as it's a very long story and you miss out a lot of details with just a summary. Which is why I'm on Acinonyx's desk as my laptop broke a while back and it can be frustrating typing long messages on mobile.
I don't really like to reflect these days so I'll probably not post here much on that regard unless something interesting has happened. I just figured I may post to respond to Zhabik's post and add this. I struggle with shyness too but not as much these days, counselling has made me be more accepting of it and I realised I'm an introvert outside of my shyness... but I would still like to connect with people more, I feel more and more on a different planet each day and trying to put myself out there more exasperates the feeling rather than lessens it. I don't think there's a solution anymore really, it is what it is.
In any case, hoping to get a teapot to finally get into loose leaf brewing - I have been meaning to get into it for ages but our old teapot broke when I was washing it in the sink a couple years ago would love to try tea mixes! And to mess with brewing temperatures. I feel like I don't even know what proper tea is yet.
I should probably stop procrastinating and get to that PM.