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(Doctor Who rant incoming in 3, 2, 1...) Ah, Disney's idiotic renewal delays were screwing over Ncuti in Doctor Who did it... Shame, I watched his debut and he seemed like a really fun guy for the role, sounds like both him and Jodie got fucked over by a series of horrendous decisions. The show has been straight up unwatchable since Capaldi left which is a shame because I really liked Jodie's Doctor and was excited for her story until I noticed they were doing nothing with her... Why on earth would you involve Disney with something like Doctor Who. -_- I wish they'd stop wasting their budget on rubbish, tonally dissonant and dull cinematography and actually invest in good writers. Newsflash: nobody watched Doctor Who for top CGI or super dramatic cinema cinematography. The set was always campy because of budget and they had to work around it creatively so when you try to turn that into a "serious" look you mess with the entire feel of the set and it just loses character AND just looks bad. And the new writing doesn't make up for it either! Fuck I was so sick of these fake dramatic cinema filters in every episode, it's supposed to be a fun campy show not a fucking Hollywood film

Think I wanna try my luck at the other superstore for seafood then today... I want something different for once damnit :x

Tonight I'll be posting a different kind of drink - I'm having kawa zbożoba, a drink made of roasted grains meant to be similar to coffee (no caffeine in this one). This one has some chocolate flavouring in as well Posting to respond to this You would not believe how much that made me smile :] You sounded happier in your post too and it was really uplifting to see!! I always enjoy seeing your writeups ^^ I'm just relaxing before bed with some music, probably going to buy a Madoka Magica mug and you'll see it soon in this thread I got a Pyrex set and can bake dinners in the oven again, feeling like making some lasagna and roasted lemon mackerel over the next week and I'm hoping to find some frozen kalamari to make in the air fryer with homemade dip and salad

Beyond bored. I'd go out but there is nothing and nowhere.

I don't add anything to either tea or coffee anymore, I've been having them straight up for years now. For the best as I have waaay too much of them than is reasonable and the additives could get unhealthy real fast :p I might have a mocha with hazelnut syrup when out but at home it's always black.

Yes, yes, yes, and yes. If it didn't attack first then I would. It would fix me. Did I mention yes?

"Remember the drinkability."

What exactly would you want help with? No frozen kalamari in a superstore? Truly a worthless country does anyone eat anything actually tasty around here OMFG

I did it. I don't even want to get hopes up as she doesn't even use the account anymore but it's still up - maybe one day she'll check and find my contact details. Or she won't. But it'd be interesting to say the least.

You're too nice but I wouldn't stress too much about it in your situation - besides, in general people have their ups and downs and I think everyone has something more serious going on with them due to the complexities of life. It doesn't mean don't care of course but everyone is gonna have their moments. It depends on the area and one's gender and/or race. ESPECIALLY the area. But I haven't had any sketchy experiences personally - I have found ordinary people in the outside world kinder than it sounds on TV, TV tends to have a super negative bias because positivity doesn't make the news usually. You may want to give it a search, I could PM you things you've mentioned that made me think so if you'd like. Psych terminology can sometimes be too clinical and confusing. Obligatory I'm Not a Professional, just read waaay too much on the subject (especially to understand my own shit lmao) /facedesk - That was a nice meal out!

Have you considered you might suffer from complex PTSD? Some of the things you've said sound like it to me, I thought I just had depression and anxiety but those were just symptoms of a larger thing. It's more common than you might think. I'm more of a vodka person ;] it's cleaner than wine or beer in moderation, far less chance of inducing vomitting unless one overdoes it. Screw pubs/bars IMO, they're not a good place to get to know people compared to other places and the drinks are way too expensive. :p

Planning to get drunk tonight, play deliberately melodramatic breakup music and leave a comment on an old ex partner's friend's profile to ask how it's been and to give her my contact details if she wants to talk. It's gonna be really fucking funny.

At least I got more sleep last night and don't feel so tired today...

In The Halls of Awaiting by Insomnium. Y'know I wish they still did this style. It actually really holds up well to this day.

Mum's side: Dead. Dad's side: Dead. Laugh with me

I'm learning the violin, what do you think. twitch

Living abroad for a decade now has considerably shifted my accent in my native language in general - I feel really lame about it as I seem to come across as somewhat foreign to people now, it can be hard to make some sounds that used to be natural to me. :\ I don't have an accent of where I currently live either, it's like some undefinable unknown thing now.

The Northern Lights and The Subtle Knife are especially <3

That's an interesting way to say 'bred to be servile'. :p I don't mind 'em, I'd be ok dogsitting one and like larger breeds, but they can be too messy, smelly and sometimes drooly for my cleanliness-obsessed ass to consider owning one

I feel you on the "go with the flow" aspect - I feel like some of my lucid dreams were "half lucid" because I figured it out, but didn't really care to do anything with the knowledge and just played along with it. When it's not a personal kinda dream it's just fun in its own way. I've woken up before from becoming lucid too. I think funnily enough the first time I lucid dreamt as a teen I did try to play God with controlling the dream more (at first I attempted flight if I remember! Which was nice, until The Horrors started). Some other people also have this sleep paralysis experience when they first go lucid too, it's fascinating I'm with you in that I'm not sure how much that is within your control really, but I haven't looked into this stuff since I was a teen and I am kinda curious... As for your questions, I wish I could remember more, as I have the vague feeling the answer is "yes" to both - but I didn't write the dreams down if so so I only have the faint kinda feeling I've experienced that but the dream memories are massively blurry as to what it was about. Alas, I'd love to give a proper answer lol... Looking at the lucid dreaming sub, I noticed someone mentioning utilising lucid dreaming for help with PTSD nightmares - I do recall *one* instance of taking control in order to fend off traumatic elements which was neat :] Funnily enough though, I don't feel such a huge compulsion to actively seek lucid dreaming out. My dreams are generally vivid and wild, it'll come naturally eventually anyway - I like seeing what scenarios my subconscious comes up with without interferring, most of the time. Some people like deliberately meeting people from their past that way etc, but having me artificially induce that would feel 'off' to me... but that's just a personal hangup. According to this study about 55% of the population have experienced at least one lucid dream in their lifetime, though I wonder if other followup studies have been done...

I used to try to artificially induce that - I never committed to it. It happened once as a teen and it gave me sleep paralysis cos my brain didn't seem to know how to react to being consciously aware it's dreaming... since then I've had numerous lucid dreams over the years, some triggered by strong emotion and others just by me questioning stuff that's 'off'. I can only recall two instances where I've somewhat manipulated dreams in my favour though, the first was the sleep paralysis time and another as an adult, but most of the time I just continue the dream even aware of my state. Looking in the mirror, at a phone screen, or a book for example, can be clues that can make you question whether you're dreaming - dream logic does not generally know how to process text, computers, or reflections very well. But I can't help with suggesting HOW to question stuff in a dream because when it happens to me it just happens naturally. *shrug* there are techniques to supposedly help you there, but I cannot confirm their credibility.

Oh NO that Hatsan Galatian II is on sale used at a shop for almost half the price, WHY DID I CHECK THERE GOES MY PAYCHECK I GUESS LMAO

Ooooh consumerist thread don't mind if I do ladies!!!! Madoka Magica mug - NEED this and will order when I get paid loll This bad boy!!!! Carabina Hatsan Galatian II air rifle GIVE IT TO ME I HAVE BEEN NEEDING IT FOR YEARS More random junk will be posted as I manufacture a need for them ^^