Raskolnikov

My FiMfiction account favourites are like a time capsule from the fandom in 2013 and I don't think I could bring myself to read new pony fanfics. It was a different time.

This exchange between Bairro and Rikifive has me in stitches rn My giggles are DELIGHTING y'all

Uh huh, yeah, let's shoot down genuine discussion because of the presence of Opinions, which apparently is the same thing as a witchhunt even though everyone is being respectful and merely discussing an artist's art, as if art isn't meant to be discussed. It's not like you've been complaining about low engagement and need the burst of discussion. Didn't realise I joined the Shooting Ourselves In The Foot club, my bad. Some people are so sensitive about normal fucking opinions being stated as if that's threatening. (not related to here, just putting it here cos I'm annoyed and don't care to start drama by saying this kinda stuff. urghhh)

I can't even justify that price for goddamn therapy guys. ...to be honest I'd probably get much more out of the vocal training than the therapy between the two lol

Ugh, fine. Katatonia's Brave Murder Day is fine, there was something tonally weird about the first two tracks for me but it really picked up after that... Maybe I had listening fatigue the couple times I tried listening to this before. Definitely recognise the style that so many death/doom bands imitated from this though now that I'm almost done with this. Very boppy. What was up with the track that straight up sounded like aethereal gothic rock right after the first two though. I like the style so no complaints, loooove dreamy vocals but wasn't at all what I was expecting omg that was a jarring change of style haha

Certain people loved to tell me I'm broken/mentally ill to the point it near destroyed me. I have since come to the conclusion there is nothing wrong with me and people can shove their projections up their asses. That isn't to mean I don't struggle ever because I absolutely do in ways people would consider troubling but I refuse to pathologise my struggles or emotions anymore no matter how offputting or strange they appear to other people. I have found that the most "well adjusted" people are smoke and mirrors themselves and in many ways are far more unhealthy than I have ever been yet tend to come across as "successful" or normal... "It is no measure of health to be well adjusted to a profoundly sick society."

Don't appreciate Disc 3 enough, it's definitely one that needs high quality speakers and a calm night with no one around and little distraction lol it's not "accessible" the way the first two are.

Would love to hear this live cos goddamn.

Just sad and alarmed. I have grown to dislike being shown photos of loved ones at home because I can see them aging and all I can think of is how many years I have lost and will continue to lose with them because of distance and there is nothing I can do about it. "I am so sick of losing." I am in my 20's yet I feel like I'm in my 50's these days. I don't understand why I have had to spent near 30 years on this planet fucking grieving and losing and losing one thing after the other. Just when you think you're done with one thing here's another for the next 10 years to get over.

ahahaahhahahahahahahahahahhhh Found me saying my granddad's death was ""therapeutic"" two years ago AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHH I have always appreciated my good sense of humour. Honey I believe we call that a traumatic event lol (I think it caused a domino effect of other things peripheric to it to come up... or get redamaged really)

Thinking that the neighbour listens to Swallow The Sun all the time too. Whether he likes it or not. Cease and desist your avian terrorism or the suicidal metal will persist Edit cos now I'm laughing at this chat right now lol

We are talking about a God after all...

I'd be the one people suspect of becoming a school shooter. "It's always the quiet ones" was apparently the vibe... the most antisocial and unpleasant person person at my high school said once I scare him because I never talk and he can never predict what I'm thinking I guess he wasn't there when I broke into tears when I failed to prevent a bunch of assholes from killing a mouse at the school... The teacher had genuine concerns but they just wanted to kill because they are sadistic fuckers and I despise people like that. Should have thrown hands in retrospect but I'd be outnumbered sadly. I also had a principal once think my parents were undergoing a divorce because he never saw my mother and I looked shellshocked in class. So yeah, fucked up quiet traumatised kid vibes, LMAO

Love that before my avatar renders in the forum page it just says the letters 'Ra' Me logging on:

He seems lovely, I really do hope he comes back. <\3 Is it a city you're in, any chances someone took him in without realising he already has an owner?

Kinda concerned, I need my tutor back... I get antsier and antsier the more I am without posture guidance :/

On it :p (I'm taking a brief pause, shhhh)

Trying not to laugh lol :3

I need to pick up my violin but I feel so lethargic despite having rested a good amount last night x_x

Early 2000's, we still had dial up and I wanted to use my Magic Kinder code to access games on the Kinder website at my sister's house. Of course my sister's mum talks a loooot on the phone so it used to be an ordeal waiting for her to finish so I could go online My parents only got a desktop and a connection years later. EDIT: Might have been mid-to-late 2000s in fact, I can't find a date on when the Magic Kinder website first became a thing? Goes to show you how little I remember besides "I existed some things happened then I became a teen" lol if it weren't for joining forums in my teens that had post dates I would never remember a single date of my life.

Bought these two lovely band tapestries: Would have just gotten the first but I also love the album of the second and a tapestry depicting the fall of Constantinople is just soooo cool and soothes the nerd in me. I love the designs of the Dardanelles bombards.

We interrupt this brone-cast to bring you: @Acinonyx's banishment to the moon.

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