What's your self esteem like? Has it changed?

[Lucky Bolt 35,070]

On 12/12/2019 at 12:33 AM, Meson Bolt said:

I lie to myself a bunch, and self-esteem is no exception. Most people say I've got pretty good self-esteem, they couldn't be further from the truth.

It's pathetic, I know, but I need validation from my friends that I'm worth having around and not just a useless bag of biomass that should be disposed of.

I can actually relate to this a lot. 

I don't know what my self-esteem is like anymore, honestly, but it sure isn't what it used to be....in that it seems to be getting lower with each day that goes by.

[Ittoni 538]

It's not good but it was WAY worse. If you've seen the main character from the  watamote anime you'll know what I'm talking about, although I wasn't as hopeful as her.

Anyway, I'm a bit better now. Who would have known that what I needed was exactly what I was looking for, someone who actually was willing to help and understand and freely give what I was desperately looking for, some kind if affection. I still feel worthless, incapable, inadequate, ignorant, like garbage, but I at least try to forgive myself for being like that and accept it. If I'm that person well... I guess I'm not the successful one I used to envy in others but at least I'm not dead yet like I wanted. And in today's society there's a little bit understanding and ppl are willing to be a bit more patient with individuals like me so I can learn even if it hurts to acknowledge yourself as that guy no one wishes they would be.

[Clawdeen 15,136]

It fluctuates. One minute I’m happy with myself and my looks the next not so much.

[EpicEnergy 23,223]

Most of the time my self esteem is low, and it has been this way for years now.

[Here No Longer 5,276]

On 12/7/2019 at 1:59 PM, Dustlicious2020 said:

I'd say my self-esteem has improved a ways since my original post (probably thanks to being loved ), though I will say it isn't all too high still. 

Well, this actually isn't an entirely accurate picture. My newfound self-esteem can pretty much collapse at any moment, resulting in depressive episodes that range from mild to "I feel worthless and a waste of everyone's resources." Nonetheless, as suddenly as it may collapse, it may also just as abruptluy rise back up with the proper support from... him.

Edited January 2, 2020 by Dustlicious2020

[Cagey 4,248]

I don’t have high self esteem. Most people don’t. But I’ve been focusing on it lately and learning exactly how it affects my psyche, and that understanding is surely a good thing. 

[Odyssey 5,717]

For the most part, yeah. I'm a different person now than I was 5 years ago; I overcame some deep personal issues. I'm not truly happy with myself, but I don't hate myself either.