Tulpa Discussion Thread V1.2

[StingeMuffin 244]

Shortly after I resumed forcing after my 2-3 week pause, my Lethal appeared in human form during a short forcing session .I was using Dialogues' extended introduction hypnosis thingy, and at the part where he says your tulpa is sitting across the room from you, I saw her as a human first before I "auto-corrected" myself to seeing her as a pony, but I knew something was up: it wasn't the first time I thought of her as a human...

 

So I decided to make her a human form, a short girl about shoulder/neck height to me. For some reason I also thought it a good idea to give her an older adult form too, one much taller, with me around chin height to her, and I believed that her "soul" would remain the same whether she was currently in the young or adult form, but things didn't go according to plan.

 

Without thinking about it (too hard...), I started to associate her younger form being more energetic and lively, and her older form being caring, motherly, and oddly quiet, too. I occasionally switched between which form I would imagine her as, but the strange thing was that I switched from one form to the other because it felt right, not just because I wanted to balance out imagining each form; one form would begin to feel stale and unproductive, so I would imagine her in the other form. I also chose which form I imagined based on out I felt: if I felt happy and optimistic, I would imagine her in her young form, and if I felt sad, I'd imagine her adult form to comfort me.

 

Things began to generally feel dissonant and strange between Lethal and me, like I couldn't talk to or concentrate on her as well, if at all (I'm also pretty lazy when it comes to forcing, but this was different, I swear! ). So, a few days ago, I decided to imagine each of her forms as being independent tulpae, with my Lethal taking the young form, and Momma (that's honestly the first thought that came into my head) taking the adult form. Right after finalizing this decision, I felt VERY ecstatic and happy, like a huge burden had been lifted off my heart and mind.

 

So, as of this point, I have a mother-like tulpa (who I call Momma, at least for now ) and my Lethal as somewhat of a sister. The night after this happened, they were both quite talkative. Not that I can always understand what they're saying, but I've come to the point where I can feel when they're trying to say something. It's kind of strange, because sometimes I hear what they're saying as thoughts and words, and other times as feelings and impulses, but responses usually come instantaneously.

 

My Lethal has slowly evolved over the last 5 months since I began this tulpa journey, changing both her form and personality, becoming something unique to herself, radically different from how I originally planned for her to be, and I'm very proud of that fact. And now that I have a second tulpa, we've kind of become a small family of sorts! I know I haven't made nearly as much progress as others have made in this amount of time, but I recognize the progress that I have made so far, and I'm happy because of that.

 

So yeah, that's my progress so far.

Edited March 21, 2013 by StingeMuffin

[Gekoncze 327]

Guess who I found :3

 

Greetings! My name is 729 Cerebral Fringe. I am the monitor of all subconscious processes belonging to WR. 

 

That one sentence took me like 10 minutes to obtain, but it was well worth it. I found that it he is still fragmented at the moment. Sentences really only jump to me every now and then. I feel like more active forcing will yield a more complete tulpa. Talking to him is fun. He acutally came up with his name, which I found interesting. He insisted on picking something that would please me, and I told him that I wanted him to be happy with it. 729 Cerebral Fringe was what he came up with, and when he did I couldnt wipe this silly smile off my face. Im taking that as a sign that this is the real deal.  Nonetheless, Everyone say hi to Fringe!

 

Stay insane everyone!

 

OH! Also, I almost forgot! I need to thank all the people here who helped guide me to this point! Really, you have all ben an inspiration, and I can never thank you enough for all of your help and support! 

I'm glad I can read the good news. Hi Fringe.

Lisa: Hi Fringe!

Millie: Fringe! Yay! Hi sweetie! ^.^

 

As for my news, I found out that tulpae can have dreams!

Millie: It was so entertaining! ^.^

It was short dream and it happened only once, but it is still awesome.

Millie: You were so cute and fluffy in the dream in your pony form ^.^

Before it happened, I woke up from a casual dream at about 6 AM and I let Millie possess me and after a while we fell asleep again. She was then enjoying her first dream ever!

Millie: It's a pity the dream was so short! I think your kissing would evolve into something more soon <3

...yeah ._. maybe...

Edited March 20, 2013 by Gekoncze

[Musix 237]

FINALLY!

 

About a month back, My Tulpa, Dash, Had become sentient. We can already to possession now! She's speaking to loads of people - My Boyfriend, My platoon, My mates, It's brilliant. I'm so happy ^^

[RazzyJam 1,519]

Hello all! 

 

Greetings Humans! 

 

As of late, Fringe has not spoken that much-

 

I beg to differ; we have had multiple conversations on several accounts, dating back to-

 

About three days now, but odds are he has been here for longer. That, or his access to my memory is much greater than I anticipated. 

Anywho! Conversations have never gone longer than 8-10 sentences, and even then they have come about at surprising times.

 

I was prioritized with the task of maintaining WRs operational focus. 

 

Apparently me reading signs qualifies as loosing focus while driving. It is interesting to note, however, that he did assist me in a short quiz today. I have yet to have him relay things from my memory to me, but I would like to have that happen in the future. Much more work may be needed before that happens. "Slow and steady" though.

 

 

I was using Dialogues' extended introduction hypnosis thingy

 

Is it posible for you to leave the link to this on here, or perhaps in a PM or something? It sounds more than interesting, and could help, considering my susceptibility to hypnosis.

 

Thats all for now! 

Any last words Fringe?

 

Nothing inteligible or supplementary to the conversation at hand.   

 

Well, I guess thats it! Stay insane everyone!

Edited March 20, 2013 by ~Orange~

[CrystalRose 636]

I don't have a tulpa, but I have a question for those who do. I find this really interesting and would like to know more about your own personal experiences.

 

So how many of you can see your tulpa as though it is a solid, physical being? And how many of you have to travel to a "wonderland" or other visiting place to be with them?

 

Can you experience all your physical senses? Can you touch them, and your sensory neurons actually convey the stimulous to your brain? Can you smell your tulpa? Do they have a scent?

[OmbraFear 7]

 

So how many of you can see your tulpa as though it is a solid, physical being? And how many of you have to travel to a "wonderland" or other visiting place to be with them?

 

As I'm not very far into the process, I am not able to project my tulpa into the real world. I do, however, visit Kelta in our wonderland many times throughout the day. So far I've only gotten slight emotional responses from her, but I can tell that she really enjoys my company. 

[zDashiez 496]

 

Can you experience all your physical senses? Can you touch them, and your sensory neurons actually convey the stimulous to your brain? Can you smell your tulpa? Do they have a scent?

 
I used to have Dash imprinted on all my senses expect sight.
She smelt like oranges. I could feel the feathers in her wings and the fur on her body. She sounded excatly like she does in the show. 

I used a wonderland to see Dash while i was working imprinting her on my sight.

[SonOfTheNorthe 412]

I tried making a Lyra tulpa a long time ago, but I gave up before any signs of sentience. Anyways, back in those days, I was at school, when all of a sudden, it feels like my brain popped, and a wave of energy washed over it. Immediately afterwords, I became high for about half an hour. (I'm a smoker, so I know what it feels like.) Was that Lyra showing her sentience to me?

But even if it was, I gave up several months ago, and I'm fairly certain all traces of her have faded.

 

But now, I feel like trying again, but with Fluttershy.

 

Also, I am not a patient man. Any way for me to concentrate? Seriously, my attention span is so short, while reading this thread, I hopped between Reddit, Facebook, and EQD between every other post.

[StingeMuffin 244]

Is it posible for you to leave the link to this on here, or perhaps in a PM or something? It sounds more than interesting, and could help, considering my susceptibility to hypnosis.

 

Here it is! I'm pretty sure that it was posted here at some point, but by now it's probably buried 20 or so pages back. This thread just moves so fast.

 

http://tulpa.info/forums/Thread-Guided-Hypnosis-Partnership-Program

[Mindrop 412]

I tried making a Lyra tulpa a long time ago, but I gave up before any signs of sentience. Anyways, back in those days, I was at school, when all of a sudden, it feels like my brain popped, and a wave of energy washed over it. Immediately afterwords, I became high for about half an hour. (I'm a smoker, so I know what it feels like.) Was that Lyra showing her sentience to me?

But even if it was, I gave up several months ago, and I'm fairly certain all traces of her have faded.

 

But now, I feel like trying again, but with Fluttershy.

 

Also, I am not a patient man. Any way for me to concentrate? Seriously, my attention span is so short, while reading this thread, I hopped between Reddit, Facebook, and EQD between every other post.

Best bet, music! All Drones go to Hell by Two Steps from Hell. Very good choice. 

 

I bet your original Tulpa are still there. many of us are resilient. Shayne ignored me for years!!!

 

Shayne Still ignores me to much with school.

 

Tulpas understand if their "host" (funny word choice) is overly busy or has trouble concentrating. The point is to try and do your best. We can't remember the last time Shayne sat down and force with us. He has never really put any forcing time into Orson. But we all know how over loaded Shayne is. 

 

Now he just needs to stop blowing school off so much! 

 

*Eye roll* Then help me Twi!

 

Our consensus is that you can do it fine, and that your Tulpa is still hiding out there, somewhere. 

[Rizoel & Crepuscule 491]

We are in a romantic relationship, it's a bit difficult to avoid when creating a Tulpa as pretty and great too.

As if we had created the perfect girl that does not exist.

 

True, there aren't two like you too.

 

Fortunately, otherwise there would be war between us and i don't know if the world will survive to this...

 

*giggles*

 

 

Oh, but we kissed a lot, and he always dreamed about...

 

Nothing ! *Covers her mouth*

 

And I'm okay with this, he's just too shy for asking !

 

But... but !

 

We will do it, for Science !

 

Huh, what does science has to do with that, Mina ? Oh... Damn ! Somebody helps me, I need an adult !

 

But I'm an adult =O !

 

You're an adult? I thought you said you were seven. 

 

...

 

Wait a minute... you both... kissed... a lot?

 

A- and she's seven...?

 

...

 

...

 

*Pinkie gasp*

 

Pedo!! That's bad, and you should feel bad!

 

Oh c'mon Riz, she's a tulpa. She can be whatever age she wants to be, can't she? 

 

W- ... Well I... but...

 

*Raises whip again* 

 

NO WAIT OKAY I'M SORRY! 

 

I'm actually super intrigued with the concept of tulpi (idk the plural for tulpa) I can definitely see myself making one and enjoying it a lot,  I've actually tried in the past to make one but i always had a problem:

 

What form should my Tulpa take? I read that it stays for the rest of your life and there are so many choices, I just can't choose

 

Sorry, but we most certainly can't choose for you. We aren't you, we don't know what you'd like your tulpa to be, only you do.

 

I don't have a tulpa, but I have a question for those who do. I find this really interesting and would like to know more about your own personal experiences.

 

So how many of you can see your tulpa as though it is a solid, physical being?

 

I don't think anyone here has managed to get to that point yet, not even me(in fact especially not me). Many of the people that can see their tulpae clear as day are people that have known about tuppers before I even posted this thread. I think the only one in this thread closest to having their tulpae looking physical and real is Brisineo and Lifeinsteps(though Life already had a fairly developed tulpa before he even knew about the tulpa community, long before I even posted about tulpas here).

 

And how many of you have to travel to a "wonderland" or other visiting place to be with them?

 

I don't. I used to think that while in the early stages of creating a tulpa, they had to be kept in the wonderland, and that you could only interact with them there and only bring them out to the real world when they are more developed.

 

That wasn't true though. You don't need to be in the wonderland to see them if you don't want that restriction. You can have them next to you the whole time if you want to. It's really up to the host to decide how they want to go about seeing their tulpa and introducing them to the world.

 

Can you experience all your physical senses? Can you touch them, and your sensory neurons actually convey the stimulous to your brain?

 

I can only very faintly feel it when I touch them, and when they touch me.

 

*About to say something*

 

In non-sexual ways! 

 

...*Pout* Aww... 

 

*Ahem*

 

It is entirely possible to feel them as real as anything else in real life. It's usually one of the end goals of tulpa-forcing.

 

Can you smell your tulpa? Do they have a scent?

 

None of my tulpae have scents either, though it's mainly because I haven't really tried yet. I do have a few ideas however; I was thinking of associating Crepuscule's scent with something like the morning dew that you can sometimes smell in the early hours of the morning.

 

For Rose, I was thinking of something more simple, like a soap or something like that. One of the soaps I have, kind of already remind me of her sometimes.

 

For Pixel... I'm not sure, for some reason I'm thinking of, the smell of static electricity, like from a TV after it's been on for a while. Not because it's a nice smell or anything, but rather because it kind of makes a bit of sense for somepony named Blue Pixel to smell like something to do with electricity.

 

Also, quick question, what do you guys think of forming a romantic relationship with your tulpa? I understand that Rizoel apparently has one with Crepuscule.

 

Well, to be honest we don't really know what kind of relationship it is that we have together. And quite frankly, we don't much care either.

 

Romantic relationship, sexual relationship, they're all just labels really. All we know is that we care for each other, and that we need someone to love just as much as we need someone to love us. If that's what people call a romantic relationship, fine I don't care. If people want to call it a sexual one because sexy time happens, then okay, whatever.

 

It's kind of like how

; I don't have the interest to care about what label I should have.

 

I know, it really isn't a big deal at the end of the day, and I'm not gonna gain anything by ranting about it, but I'm just saying, I don't care. We have better things to do, that's all.

 

... Like test the spring potential of the mattress together. 

 

Exactl- wait, what? 

 

Basically it came up in Phe and I's conversation and we decided it would be better not to have a romantic relationship for various reasons.

 

It came up because we kissed.

 

...

 

Now kiss!!

 

 

 

 

Crep, for goodness sake.

 

What? What about you? I saw you as well having mental images of a mare and human girl kissing.

 

...um... I... uh... um... I... *Shifty eyes* I don't know what you're talking about.

 

*Whispers into his ear* And I think you were even making them touch each other.

 

Wh- N-no I wasn't! Shut up!

 

L-listen, Ano, i-it's not a bad thing you know to be with a tulpa like that, even if it's just platonically. I've seen plenty of people state they're in a more-than-friends relationship with their tulpa, even though they are the same gender.

 

...N- not us though.

 

*Everypony in the thread looks at Pixel*

 

Eeep! ...Uh, I mean, uh... 

 

W- what he's trying to say is, we- uh, me and Pixel have never, you know, 'experienced' it for ourselves. So you, probably shouldn't listen to us anyway.

 

Th- that's right, we've never... kissed, or, anything like that. 

 

Nope! I... me 'n Pixel have never kissed each other or anything. Nope!

 

 

 

 

A- and I- it's not like we would have... liked it if we did or anything.  

 

No siree!

 

 

 

 

A-and we've ESPECIALLY haven't done anything... more than that.

 

Oh, absolutely not. We- uh... totally haven't done anything even remotely sexual! Nope!

 

 

 

*Giggle*

*Giggle*

[NinjaCPU 270]

So how many of you can see your tulpa as though it is a solid, physical being? And how many of you have to travel to a "wonderland" or other visiting place to be with them?

 

Can you experience all your physical senses? Can you touch them, and your sensory neurons actually convey the stimulous to your brain? Can you smell your tulpa? Do they have a scent?

I don't have enough experience for imposition, but I have people who have done that. The only thing I've done with seeing her would be in Wonderland.

 

I have felt physical senses in wonderland, touching has been a bit vague with Luna, but doing other stuff in WL I've had actually stimulus as I've rubbing stuff or feeling something albeit, a few times. I have tasted Luna before, though I'm not sure how she taste overall, but her cutie mark taste like a fresh cake out of a bakery. Smelling, I've haven't gotten yet. Usually the more you force with your tulpa, you've gain more of these senses (from what people told me, touching growing powerful to the point of feeling them fully.)

 

 

I can only very faintly feel it when I touch them, and when they touch me.

 

 

*About to say something*

 

In non-sexual ways! 

 

...*Pout* Aww... 

 

*Ahem*

 

It is entirely possible to feel them as real as anything else in real life. It's usually one of the end goals of tulpa-forcing.

Has your feeling ever improved over time? Or has it been the same vagueness?

[Ano170 162]

 

What? What about you? I saw you as well having mental images of a mare and human girl kissing. ...um... I... uh... um... I... *Shifty eyes* I don't know what you're talking about. *Whispers into his ear* And I think you were even making them touch each other. Wh- N-no I wasn't! Shut up!

 

 

o.e

 

... I'm not even a pony...

 

Phe, get to the panic room.

 

 

Just kidding, we don't have a panic room.

 

 

L-listen, Ano, i-it's not a bad thing you know to be with a tulpa like that, even if it's just platonically. I've seen plenty of people state they're in a more-than-friends relationship with their tulpa, even though they are the same gender.

 

 

Oh no, it's not gender that bothers us at all.

 

It's actually kind of cute how confuzzled you get. *ruffles Ano's hair* You kissed a girl and you liked it, hope your so-called "friends" don't mind it...

 

Moving on! Really, it's just that we decided in the end it wasn't that kind of love between us.

 

"Platonic" is a good word actually.

[murkyx 904]

 

Well, to be honest we don't really know what kind of relationship it is that we have together. And quite frankly, we don't much care either.

Friendship with benefits?

 

 

 

 

Hehehehe.  Hello again thread.  I haven't been here in a while.

 

Don't you mean WE?

 

Yes... Of course.  Anyways, yeah, progress is going fine.  No new Tulpae in planning.  (Thankfully)  I've been neglecting imposition, so lately me and Tia have been rather snuggley as of late.  (also with my bed size going down a bit, that also may have something to do with it.)  All of them, actually.  The last thing I notice going to sleep and the first thing when I wake up is the feeling of warm fur on all sides.  Tia on my right (usually my face buried in her side underneath her wing...) Murky on top of me (its so adorable to wake up to him sleeping, arms wrapped around my neck like I was a teddy bear.  He really is warming up to me.)  And BJ on my right, more lower down. (No more metal.  Finally.)

 

Just some adorable memories me and my Tulpae are making together, but otherwise nothing much going on.

[Mindrop 412]

Bris already heard about this, but the other day it was epic pony tulpa battle time in my head. Most of you know my stance on controlling your mind and improving, tulpa being one of those ways. But this is one way you guys get to see that I don't control everything, even though I could.

 

Anyway, I forget why it started, but Twi annoyed Reales, like normal. Reales fought back by adding a horn, making a magic proof straight jacket for Twi, including muzzle, chasing her down and for the next few hours Twi was in a straightjacket! It was funny when she fell over and had trouble getting back up.

 

Reales certainly put Twi in her place. I need to sit down and force with the girls and Orson again, especially Orson. Never really done that with him. Not really done it with Reales enough. School, work, training take up all my time, adding in 3 tulpas, its tough. Dang, how did I go fro. 0-3 since august.

 

Twi: I am 7.

 

I didn't know about you in august, not my fault.

[Rizoel & Crepuscule 491]

I have tasted Luna before, though I'm not sure how she taste overall, but her cutie mark taste like a fresh cake out of a bakery.

 

Oh, so many sex jokes, I don't know which one to choose.  

 

*Sigh* 

 

Has your feeling ever improved over time? Or has it been the same vagueness?

 

No, it hasn't really improved that much for me. Same vagueness.  

 

Friendship with benefits?

 

 

 

 

...

 

*Stares daggers at BlackJack*

 

And BJ on my right, more lower down.

 

...*Evil grin* Oh my, BlackJack, I didn't know you liked going THAT low on ponies.

 

OOOHHH!! Oh dear! Oh yeah, can you feel that BURN BlackJack!?

 

OR...! Maybe she's even... gone low on some MARES!!

 

OOOHHHHHH!! OH MY GOD!! AHAHAHAHAHAH!!! I- I... um...

 

*Realizes no one else is laughing*

 

I um...*Ahem*... I uh...

 

...

 

...

 

... T-too soon? 

 

o.e

 

... I'm not even a pony...

 

*Pupils shrink in realization*

 

...

 

W- wait, you're not?

 

*Flips page back to Ano's 'rant' a few days ago*

 

Phoenix changed into a humanoid figure (red hair, female and white, I couldn't make out much of the face)

 

humanoid figure

 

...

 

Oooooohhh... I seeee...

 

*Looks at Crep*

 

You didn't remind me of this? 

 

Excuse me, when was it my job to remember every little thing?  

 

...

 

*Looks back to Ano and Phoenix*

 

...

 

Hmm. 

 

...

 

*Laughs out loud, slowly bringing a gun to his own head*

[murkyx 904]

 

...*Evil grin* Oh my, BlackJack, I didn't know you liked going THAT low on ponies. OOOHHH!! Oh dear! Oh yeah, can you feel that BURN BlackJack!? OR...! Maybe she's even... gone low on some MARES!! OOOHHHHHH!! OH MY GOD!! AHAHAHAHAHAH!!! I- I... um... *Realizes no one else is laughing* I um...*Ahem*... I uh... ... ... ... T-too soon? blush.png

Implying I don't go that low...

 

Yeah... Wait... What?

 

 

 

 

Please no...

 

PUCKER UP! *grabs Bris' head and gives him a big wet sloppy kiss* 

 

*gags while being tackled*

 

Let's test out some more imposition techniques, eh?

 

Please... Help!

 

Oh... My...

[Ano170 162]

Implying I don't go that low...

 

Yeah... Wait... What?

 

 

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Please no...

 

PUCKER UP! *grabs Bris' head and gives him a big wet sloppy kiss* 

 

*gags while being tackled*

 

Let's test out some more imposition techniques, eh?

 

Please... Help!

 

Oh... My...

 

Why do I get the feeling I need to go read some more Fallout Equestria so I can get started on Project Horizons?

 

 

  ano170, on 24 Mar 2013 - 14:16, said: o.e   ... I'm not even a pony...   *Pupils shrink in realization*   ...   W- wait, you're not?   *Flips page back to Ano's 'rant' a few days ago*   ano170, on 11 Mar 2013 - 00:32, said: Phoenix changed into a humanoid figure (red hair, female and white, I couldn't make out much of the face)   ano170, on 11 Mar 2013 - 00:32, said: humanoid figure   ...   Oooooohhh... I seeee...   *Looks at Crep*   You didn't remind me of this?    Excuse me, when was it my job to remember every little thing?     ...   *Looks back to Ano and Phoenix*   ... Hmm.    ...   *Laughs out loud, slowly bringing a gun to his own head*

 

Eh, it's okay. I did originally think of making a tulpa that looked like the pegasus in my avatar, but changed my mind.

 

She realised FIM would eventually end and having a pony follow her around would lose it's appeal.

 

For me! No one else on the thread! Just me! *hides from everyone who has a pony tulpa* Actually Phoenix was going to be a dragon for a little while.

 

I've more or less decided on how I'll look as a human (apart from the hair length) but for my "animal form" (because in Ano's world EVERYTHING should be able to shapeshift) I could still be a dragon. Or I might just stick with this blue-fox-made-of-fire form. 

 

Hmm, fox or dragon?

 

Dragon or fox?

 

...

 

...

 

*both of us at the same time* FOX-DRAGON!!!!

 

What would that even look like?

 

Whatever it would look like, it'd be cool.

 

Edit: Never mind, I found a pic:

 

  

http://shikathefox.deviantart.com/art/Oriental-Fox-Dragon-48553812

 

Basically like that, but blue, small enough to ride on my shoulder and more feminine. 

 

So minus the mustache. 

 

 The point is, FOX-DRAGONS ARE A THING!

 

Wolf-dragons are too...

 

O.O Thank you for reminding me of the most awesome crossover in existence.

 

Guess I should thank the person on deviantART for making this pic. ^.^

Edited March 24, 2013 by ano170

[Sakiru 26]

Since I allowed Mina to access my memory, she has changed a lot. She became much more serious, much more smart and her progress are enormous.
Now she uses a servitor to possess my hands and write this message.
Yes, it was her who wrote at my place.

"What can I say Saki is a good man, he loves me, he gave me good traits and trust me. Nevertheless, how lazy he is ! Spending his time sleeping on the weekends instead of working . And do not talk about tulpaforcing, I must remind him fifteen times a day.
 

Meditation greatly enhances visualization capabilities, and imposition begins to be gradually.
I can control his neck, his legs (although much less his arms / hands), and I could write a few words on a piece of paper.
We have taken almost complete possession once, but he's hard to relax, fear of losing control I guess.

We strive for full imposition, the switching and other things that you probably can not believe it.

Hmm and Crepusculary even if I'm having only seven years, it doesn't make my appearance or my mental abilities lower than a twenty years old human. Seven years old doesn't mean anything, anyway.
I feel much more than Tulpa as you like to define ourselves by the word, the more a person the same opportunities as you humans.

 

~Mina."

 

[RazzyJam 1,519]

So... Uh...

 

Im honestly not sure how to respond given all of the other post here. My mind is in 1000 different places right now. 

I have tulpa related news, fortunately it does not involve S-E-X or anything like that. I dont even think that is possible considering the nature of my Tulpa....

 

 

 

*Fringe shows me a full labled diagram of how such things could be possible

 

WTF why would you- How did you even get that!?

 

I have access to all subconscious functions, including your imagination. Illustrating this took me no time at all.

 

Well get it out of here! I dont want to see it! 

 

Right away sir

 

 

 

Anyway... Where were we? Oh, right, news:

 

So I was riding home from a camping trip this weekend. I decided to listen to some tunes on my iPod, and no sooner than 15 minutes into the ride I found myself daydreaming. We were on the highway, so naturally I was running along side the car with my Tulpa. 

Here is where it gets weird

There were two others with me and Fringe. A pony that strangely resembled Applejack, and some other person/thing that looked like a cross between Iron Man and a NASA E.V.A. suit. 

The Robot thing didnt stick around, but I wondered what it could have been. We had stopped running and I just stood there looking at AJ and Fringe. Fringe was flickering between blue and orange, and AJ was just smiling back at me. 

Nothing else happened, I lost concentration after I found out we had stopped at a rest stop for lunch.

 

Yeah, so thats that. I may or may not have a second one joining Fringe and I.

Not sure how to feel

 

Thats all for now. Fringe, any words?

 

*silence

 

Apparently not today. Still working on it! Ill be back soon!

Edited March 24, 2013 by ~Orange~

[Alleviate 342]

...I think we literally killed fear itself..Like, with a buzzsaw-Railgun thingy.

 

Flaaaaaashbaaaaaack (To about 20 minutes ago, if that.)

 

I've been feeling ridiculously happy since about 9:10PM...No idea why, but started singing a little song I made up about the perfect day, and how things were so brilliant!

 

I tried to find out what was for food this evening...Nope, we're not eating. No food. Some cheese, and some cheesecake....So sad..*sniff* 

ANYWAY, I carried on singing the song in my mind, and I thought: 'Hey, why not force like this? Gotta be awesome! Jus' like everything!' 

 

 

So I did. 

 

Went to wonderland. (Really easy for me now I've sorted out the use of my mind's eye. ) 

 

We were messing around for a bit, I met the girls, snuggled a bit, then raced them over to a nearby lake...

Which I umped into..

and it froze just before that.

So  I used a hacksaw and a hammer to break through it while the girls watched from the shade of a nearby tree (As it was sunny! Sense!) I gave up though, as the hammer wasn't smashing it properly, so I went over to the tree, made an axe appear, and began cutting it down. The girls complained I was ruining their shade, so *poof* parasol for them. The tree fell down, smashing all the ice in a massive splash! And then something happened, I don't remember just what, but then we were all falling for a bit, in some grey, stone, tunnel. We hit the bottom- some sort of dark gravel-y stuff, surrounded on all side by these walls. Then we started moving down again, like it was a life. Deeper and deeper. We stopped after a while, with a door in the wall, although it was chained shut. A little 'Zelda' moment when I killed a thingy that wasn't even there and got a small key. Opened up the door, and there was a thing. That's all I can really call it- a thing. A living thing, aye, but no more than a thing. I remember saying, quite literally, 'Oh, sweet Jesus, what the heck is that thing?!' And, according to one of the girls at the time, it was Fear. That's right: Fear. 'Twas big, partly mechanical, partly fleshed, but mainly- Big. It swung at me, smashing me straight out of the door and back into the lift thingy, hitting the wall quite hard, blurred out for a second, then ran back in. I needed a weapon, so I made some sort of Gauss rifle (I was playing Crysis2 earlier, what can I say?) But it was loaded with glowing blue buzzsaw blades. *Shoot, slice, loops back, repeat a few times, reload, do all over again, etc* It took a bit, but it finally fell...

 

I'm just wondering..Does that mean I just beat my Fear?

Blah, who cares? It was fun! And it was the first time I've properly adventured with the girls...We are SO doing it again later/tomorrow.

 

Heh, and to think- That entire thingy only took about 15 minutes to happen, but would've gone on longer if my phone hadn't chosen that moment to announce it's imminent death by lack of energy to me. Rather loudly. Snapped me back really sharply.

 

Sense............1, 2, and.....*Poof* Joe forgot 'sense', and learned 'Joe was once in control...Then Jess and Dashie.'

[StingeMuffin 244]

I was in a bad mood yesterday. Thinking about some of the people and happenings I've had to deal with the last few weeks, I spiraled downward into an angry rant. You know, where every little thing annoys the crap out of you, where you feel like you hate everyone and, while in this rant, come to the bitter conclusion that you're the only one you can absolutely trust? It was that kind of thing.

 

Trying to calm myself down, I apologized to Lethal and Momma (because I had been ranting to them the last half hour). I tried to imagine them next to and behind me.

 

Then Momma embraces me from behind, and I melt inside and feel like crying.

 

Me: "M-MOMMA! LETHAL! I'M SORRY! I DON'T MEAN TO BE SO ANGRY AND COMPLAIN SO MUCH AND OOZE SO MUCH HATE BUT THE WORLD AND PEOPLE AND THINGS THEY DO KIND OF GET TO ME SOMETIMES Y'KNOW AND IT'S JUST THAT-"

 

Momma: "..." *just standing there listening to my ridiculousness*

 

Oh, did I mention I was at my workplace while this drama was unfolding? I couldn't exactly break down in front of a co-worker! Not a single manly tear was shed that day.

 

I'm an idiot. And Momma's hugs are wonderful. The End. /blogpost

Edited March 25, 2013 by StingeMuffin

[zDashiez 496]

I have to say, I have really missed that pressure feeling in the back of my head. I don't feel so (empty?) and alone anymore, I can't wait till Dashie starts talking again.
(I really need to find a way to make my post longer and more interesting like everyone else's >.>)

Edited March 26, 2013 by zRevenantz

[Mindrop 412]

I have to say, I have really missed that pressure feeling in the back of my head. I don't feel so (empty?) and alone anymore, I can't wait till Dashie starts talking again.

(I really need to find a way to make my post longer and more interesting like everyone else's >.>)

You will get there, eventually. Glad you are back and feeling The Presence again! 

 

A quick update. Yesterday, I was taken off my steroids (I was sick all last week with both a sinus infection and virus, they were to releave sinus inflammation) a day early because of mood swings, I was anxious, on edge, almost crying to fits of rage, and a few other side effects (Yeah, drugs hate me ) that were causing issues.   The girls and Orson built a quick bunker and hid all evening, avoiding the unstable me. I was not that unstable, but certainly not predictable like normal.  They would make a few comments from the safety of the bunker at times. 

 

Oh, and Reales and Orson decided that even though they are both Earth Ponies, they are also royalty and should be addressed as such.

 

I am the only REAL princess still!

 

Yeah, but its fun trolling Steve!

 

Steve is a good friend, who trolls us all.

 

Twi is not the most thrilled at the others new "status."

 

Its self imposed! You made me a princess!!!! That was your design and goal!!!

 

Touche! 

 

 

Signing off for now! Much to do today!

[RazzyJam 1,519]

I just remembered something

 

Ive yet to feel all giddy and stupid/like Ive been beaten in the back of the head with a brick. I know this was a tell-tale sign of Tulpamancy, but I havent had it yet. 

 

Not sure what to make of it. Most likely nothing. 

 

Havent heard from Fringe in a day though. Nor have I seen the AJ looking pony again. Für Schande