mega thread How are you feeling?

[Verdant Shy 950]

7 hours ago, They call me Loyalty said:

Same. She rejected the truth once again under the pretext that she is going to repair our future. And I promised her that she is gonna have no future as long as she continues to reject the truth. So, nothing to say.

My mother says to hate the rest of the family, but she continues to act on their false premises and religious bs. Which is exactly what got us into this limbo, as well as other interferences.

But it doesn't matter. Because she owes herself this dignity. Because she has insulted our blood. And because the truth in that blood is heavier than all the lies the rest of the world told to her. Which are also the source of her misery.

Do you think it is an act of cruelty for animals to sacrifice their offspring? Or love, mercy and wisdom. My mother used to have a heart like that. And I know it is still there, but the rest of the famliy numbed that wisdom. Which then caused harm to us. And that is the reason they ended like that.

So, yeah. Same as always. I am still bound by her rejection of the truth. But I have assumed the role of an anchor. And I will bring her down to reality. Even if I have to destroy all we have. Which is pointless. Because we have nothing in reality.

My regards. I hope you and your families are doing good.

Please don't cause any harm towards anyone 

[They call me Loyalty 1,948]

42 minutes ago, SunIsLost said:

Please don't cause any harm towards anyone 

The harm to my family is already done. Othewise you wouldn't be here trying to ease your conscience.

But I still love her like the first day. Nothing has changed. If anything, this pain is a proof of that love. Despite how much she was forced to change, to reject herself based on "better looking people". To "fix" her teeth and to hate her own body. When she was always perfect to me. And then she was "taught" to hate her own nature because of doctrine, which caused the separation from her maternal instinct, which then caused damage to her son. But my love has not changed. And I am still trying to protect her, because she is now vulnerable because of what they did. So, even something like death would be a mercy compared to what the world is capable of doing to a person in her state of mind.

Nothing that can be said or done will replace the family we lost. So, a more honest answer would be to pay respectful silence here. Because you can only hurt yourself at this point. Especially with such empty words.

Edited June 22, 2023 by They call me Loyalty

[Verdant Shy 950]

30 minutes ago, They call me Loyalty said:

The harm to my family is already done. Othewise you wouldn't be here trying to ease your conscience.

But I still love her like the first day. Nothing has changed. If anything, this pain is a proof of that love. Despite how much she was forced to change, to reject herself based on "better looking people". To "fix" her teeth and to hate her own body. When she was always perfect to me. And then she was "taught" to hate her own nature because of doctrine, which caused the separation from her maternal instinct, which then caused damage to her son. But my love has not changed. And I am still trying to protect her, because she is now vulnerable because of what they did. So, even something like death would be a mercy compared to what the world is capable of doing to a person in her state of mind.

Nothing that can be said or done will replace the family we lost. So, a more honest answer would be to pay respectful silence here. Because you can only hurt yourself at this point. Especially with such empty words.

I apologize.

I hope the situation will get better, I didn't mean to offend.

 

[They call me Loyalty 1,948]

32 minutes ago, SunIsLost said:

I apologize.

I hope the situation will get better, I didn't mean to offend.

 

It is not me the one you owe that apology.

Edited June 22, 2023 by They call me Loyalty

[Verdant Shy 950]

Not well.

I'm feeling not well, the world is a misserable place, imagine being muted and not about to speak and being hated for the person you are, for being yourself, for being you.

The world seems to be moving in wrong direction (the rich and powerful people at least), we can't be resting, we need to do stuff, I can't wake up feeling like I was in prison, even if I'm able to go outside and walk. /)

[They call me Loyalty 1,948]

2 hours ago, SunIsLost said:

Not well.

I'm feeling not well, the world is a misserable place, imagine being muted and not about to speak and being hated for the person you are, for being yourself, for being you.

The world seems to be moving in wrong direction (the rich and powerful people at least), we can't be resting, we need to do stuff, I can't wake up feeling like I was in prison, even if I'm able to go outside and walk. /)

Even if I am aware you are faking that answer. You can have all the money in the world and still be miserable, like some of my old relatives, who filled their empty lives with materialism.
The real prison is inside the mind most of the time. Sometimes because of people causing damage to others, like it happened to my mother.
I do not leave my house, not because I am a prisoner, but because I am free. And because I've known myself and my purpose since I was born.
Our endogamic origins, the difference that it makes for people like us within this social context, the charade that has been orchestrated around us. The lies from the rest of the family. And the psychological damage that resulted from interfering with our nature.

But more importantly, I know that my mother needs me. Because of what I previously explained. So, I cannot leave her. And that is enough reason to stay inside this house every single day, even if it means I am losing my own life. Because that is what love means, sacrifice. And it doesn't mean that I cannot get angry, or irrational. But everything I have done since the beginning was to keep her alive, despite the fact that she complains about this life because she was robbed from herself without her knowledge.

She is the only reason I am still enduring this sh*t show, even when knowing my life is essentially over. Because I know myself. But she does not. Because that was taken from her. That is the reason she is lost, and I have to stay here to see her suffer over someone without a future. Which is the reason I considered "harm", because she is already being harmed by her mental state.

And remember, it never works to tell someone who is angry to not be angry. Useful advice for a change.

Stay well, huggies.

Edited June 22, 2023 by They call me Loyalty

[Yakamaru 3,127]

Feeling even goodererer. :>

Picked up my darling earlier and she's perfectly fine. Apparently there were some temporary short circuits that were giving error messages and made the engine go into secure mode, making it so you can start it but you can't revv it up in case it damages the engine. Quite neat a feature and glad it's there to prevent potential damage to the engine. 

[Ice Princess Silky <3 13,500]

1 minute ago, Yakamaru said:

Feeling even goodererer. :>

Picked up my darling earlier and she's perfectly fine. Apparently there were some temporary short circuits that were giving error messages and made the engine go into secure mode, making it so you can start it but you can't revv it up in case it damages the engine. Quite neat a feature and glad it's there to prevent potential damage to the engine. 

I love this image so much!!! I'm so glad to hear the good news ;~; feel free to PM me more details if you care to share.

As for myself, to stay relevant to the thread, am feeling very well. I had NO idea my feelings could take a complete 180 thanks to friends and online connections ... what the heck. You guys are wonderful and magical and make me realize that... no matter what part of the world we may reside in.. we're all on this great, mysterious world together sharing feelings, experiences, thoughts, a journey of sorts, together ... and it's so nice to have that. Even on an abstract level.

But that's just the gist of it. These feelings have completely motivated me to take more action in my life. I am inspired and happy <3

[Yakamaru 3,127]

7 minutes ago, Princess Silky said:

I love this image so much!!! I'm so glad to hear the good news ;~; feel free to PM me more details if you care to share.

As for myself, to stay relevant to the thread, am feeling very well. I had NO idea my feelings could take a complete 180 thanks to friends and online connections ... what the heck. You guys are wonderful and magical and make me realize that... no matter what part of the world we may reside in.. we're all on this great, mysterious world together sharing feelings, experiences, thoughts, a journey of sorts, together ... and it's so nice to have that. Even on an abstract level.

But that's just the gist of it. These feelings have completely motivated me to take more action in my life. I am inspired and happy <3

Thanks, love. That's one of my 50-ish stickers I have commissioned of my Fursona. Have 11 or so as well of my other character named Lissandra, who is an arctic fox. 

And there's not much to it, really.

Went to my aunt last Saturday to celebrate her birthday. Some.. 30-ish odd seconds or so before parking my car at her place the car's electric wiring decided to go have a bloody seizure and give off some most likely faulty readings(most likely due to the heat, as it was 32C that day), ending in the car and her engine going into safe mode. Ended up sending her to a car mechanic that were practically just down the road. The workshop or whatever you can call it is part of our company group, so it wasn't hard to get some diagnostics going at least on her on Monday. If it had been some actual problem with her, like the particle filter(albeit unlikely) having issues it'd end up a 14-day waiting period. Due to where I work and where I live I am rather dependent upon having a car, although this week my colleague's been so nice as to let me hitch a ride. I'd do the same for him anyway, so not a big deal but I do really appreciate the kindness on his side.

And so I picked her up earlier. Just took the bus that drive outside of work at 17.10 and got off about two kilometers from where the workshop is. Couldn't take a bus stop closer due to the route the bus takes, but I can walk 2km without any problems anyway.

Though to be more on-topic,I am feeling satiated. Just had dinner and a Mango Loco. Haven't had any energy drinks all week which have helped quite a lot on my weight loss. Dropping bread and going for crisp bread alongside sugarfree Cola have helped quite a lot as well. I want to lose at least 8kg this Summer in total, preferably 13kg in total, which is my overall goal.

[They call me Loyalty 1,948]

Good. I was explaining my family that the damaged state of this house is because of the internal resistance that is occurring within them, even subconsciously. Given our origins as people of the wilds. I am proud of my mother. She is a born hooker, in the way he rips and tears prey. Like she did with granny when she fashioned the ideology she was given into a weapon and used it to crucify her adoptive family. The same way I was always a hunter, but my family was broken. Still, we cannibalized them regardless. Since everything becomes a weapon in my sight. Even religion, which is an ideological weapon already.

That is the purpose of this slow sacrifice I am commiting to. So they can die with their dignity intact. Free. For the blood of our ancestors and because I owe this to that little girl. So, here were are, keeping up with the show.

Cookies for everyone!!! Yay!

Edited June 22, 2023 by They call me Loyalty

[ZiggWheelsManning 9,922]

Very worried.  

That being my eye doctor appointment is tomorrow.  This could be make-or-break, depending on my right eye's condition.  

Hope @Princess Silky and others here read this and wish me the best of luck.  

[Verdant Shy 950]

26 minutes ago, ZiggWheelsManning said:

Very worried.  

That being my eye doctor appointment is tomorrow.  This could be make-or-break, depending on my right eye's condition.  

Hope @Princess Silky and others here read this and wish me the best of luck.  

Speaking of eye doctor appointment, my mum had an eye operation, she is fine.

[Espy Vibe 4,251]

Right now, I'm a bit woozy, tired, dizzy, got a bit of a headache that's lasted for the past few days. But otherwise fine, I'll get through it 

Lately overall though I actually do feel really good with some projects and other stuff. Keeping myself occupied with personal studies has helped, at least, make me feel like I'm not just wasting my life away.

[Savy 5,075]

Feeling pretty bored right now. Slow day. 

[StarburstRainbow 30]

Tired and want too jump in a nice warm pool that I wish I had in my backyard 🤣🤣🤣

[Verdant Shy 950]

On 2023-06-22 at 10:40 AM, They call me Loyalty said:

Even if I am aware you are faking that answer. You can have all the money in the world and still be miserable, like some of my old relatives, who filled their empty lives with materialism.
The real prison is inside the mind most of the time. Sometimes because of people causing damage to others, like it happened to my mother.
I do not leave my house, not because I am a prisoner, but because I am free. And because I've known myself and my purpose since I was born.
Our endogamic origins, the difference that it makes for people like us within this social context, the charade that has been orchestrated around us. The lies from the rest of the family. And the psychological damage that resulted from interfering with our nature.

But more importantly, I know that my mother needs me. Because of what I previously explained. So, I cannot leave her. And that is enough reason to stay inside this house every single day, even if it means I am losing my own life. Because that is what love means, sacrifice. And it doesn't mean that I cannot get angry, or irrational. But everything I have done since the beginning was to keep her alive, despite the fact that she complains about this life because she was robbed from herself without her knowledge.

She is the only reason I am still enduring this sh*t show, even when knowing my life is essentially over. Because I know myself. But she does not. Because that was taken from her. That is the reason she is lost, and I have to stay here to see her suffer over someone without a future. Which is the reason I considered "harm", because she is already being harmed by her mental state.

And remember, it never works to tell someone who is angry to not be angry. Useful advice for a change.

Stay well, huggies.

"Even if I am aware you are faking that answer." I'm not faking it, it may have been a little exaggerated, but I'm not faking it. (Although I feel calmed now)

As for the rest of your answer, yea, that's a lot. 

Idk exactly what is happening in your family, but hope it will be alright.

[Cash In 22,214]

I'm feeling pretty tired. Didn't get much sleep last night, plus I had to drive 3 hours just to pick up a car.

[ZiggWheelsManning 9,922]

Satisfied with breakfast and bloated with hot chocolate.  

[Pandora 38,015]

Exhausted, so much to do still.. + my brain storming like mad with idea's.

[ZiggWheelsManning 9,922]

Filled up and fulfilled, thanks to an energy drink  

[Miss 6,223]

Confused and suspicious

But also slightly sympathetic 

[Woohoo 34,000]

Quite bloated from lunch... 

[Cash In 22,214]

Still exhausted! On the plus side, I do have some personal projects to work on, so that's given me some much needed motivation.

[Tropical Melody 6,043]

5 hours ago, Cash In said:

Still exhausted! On the plus side, I do have some personal projects to work on, so that's given me some much needed motivation.

Seriously, get some rest!   Been there done that.

 

[Sophie 1,434]

I'm super excited! Because of a very special visit