mega thread What are you thinking?

[ExplosionMare 18,062]

I hope I can have lunch here soon

[Sparklefan1234 170,062]

Moments ago, ExplosionMare said:

I hope I can have lunch here soon

 

Ok. I think it might be a bit tricky to grab though. 

 

 

 

[SweetieDreams 84]

I was feeling inspired by Kyoshi’s free signature and avatar collection  so I’m working on some of my own. I plan on making my own thread in the Requestria subforum once I get a few examples under my belt, so that people can get a feel for my style. Although, I must admit that my skill level is far below that of Kyoshi’s so don’t expect anything too fancy. 

[Sparklefan1234 170,062]

10 minutes ago, Moonydrop said:

I was feeling inspired by Kyoshi’s free signature and avatar collection  so I’m working on some of my own. I plan on making my own thread in the Requestria subforum once I get a few examples under my belt, so that people can get a feel for my style. Although, I must admit that my skill level is far below that of Kyoshi’s so don’t expect anything too fancy. 

 

As a fellow signature and profile banner maker, I'm excited to see what you have in store, BFFFF! 

[Savy 5,077]

I still have things that I need to pack ugh. Have my main suitcase packed, but I still got my one carry on bag to do.

[ExplosionMare 18,062]

"How to Pretend" is an excellent Sister Location song, even though it's vocaloid (not saying it bothers me, I actually really like vocaloid).

[Sparklefan1234 170,062]

I'm thinking: 

1. "I hope my Bestie @Savygriffs is having an AWESOME vacation!". 

2. "Wow. She even updates her "Do it for her" profile banner to go with her posting gimmick. That's dedication!".

Edited July 7, 2022 by Sparklefan1234

[ExplosionMare 18,062]

Thinking about what to do after work

[Savy 5,077]

I'm so ready for this vacation ughhhh.

[SweetieDreams 84]

The person who I bought my Nightmare Before Christmas Squishmallow from said that they’re out of town and won’t be able to ship for a little while. At first that raised some red flags, but then I remembered that we just finished celebrating 4th of July here in the US and I forgot that many if not most people travel whenever there’s a holiday.
 

Now I’m not quite as suspicious anymore, just disappointed that I won’t be able to hug Sally for a while. Oh well, just as long as Sally gets here safe and sound, then that’s all that matters to me. I can be patient, good things come to those who wait after all. 

Edited July 7, 2022 by Moonydrop
Wording

[Ashen Pathfinder 16,161]

I am hungry so I ordered lunch. Deer gotta eat. 

[DubWolf 17,258]

13 hours ago, Lady Kochos Pathfinder said:

I am hungry so I ordered lunch. Deer gotta eat. 

But you are not a deer, you’re a wolf…

 

Thinking I just want to be that fool who was wrong about ever succeeding and escaping my self-enslavement. I want to be in disbelief about what life can really be… in a GOOD way. And yes, godly too…

Edited July 8, 2022 by WWolf

[Rosy Moonlight 369]

Watching old stuff can remind you not only of simpler times but also how much you grew and what you got to experience between then and now.

 

[ExplosionMare 18,062]

I can't believe how many deviantart notifications I got today. Thanks, @Moonydrop, for all the favorites!

[Gun Metal Zebra 2,223]

It is a bit amusing that my fursona is a zebra, and that I was hanging out with others who have hyenas, wolves, etc. for fursonas (I get playful teasing about this). 

[They call me Loyalty 1,948]

It just hit me that being the last in line within this family. I got the generational confluence of genetic trauma from the entire family. An entire family of traumatized and damaged human beings.
I have the narcissistic disorder from my mother, the dissociative and violent personality from my father. As well as the promiscuity of my grandfather, the chronic depression from one my great aunts, the hoarding dissorder from one of her sisters, the dementia and mystical delirium from my grandmother by the side of my father, as well as the alcoholism from my great grand mother, etc, etc, etc. And that is just on the psychological side of things. Hahaha.
No wonder why I feel so ***** up. Ah, genes... I truly owe this family so much. It may be actually a good idea to get rid of this broken car after all. It is like seeing a terrible accident in very, very slow motion, enough to stretch it across an entire life.

Deuteronomy 5:9
" I, the Lord thy God, am a jealous God, visiting the iniquity of the fathers upon the children unto the third and fourth generation". I think that is what is talking about, about genetics and generational trauma, that is imprinted on the children because of the mistakes of their progenitors. It is like when YHWH saved Noah. Because he was pure in his "generations". Because his family was closer to righteousness, and having acted according to the law and the ten commandments of God. Their genes were clean from trauma and behavioral degeneration, psychological distortions and the physical illness that this causes. I mean, this man lived 950 years. So, imagine the correctness of his behaviour. And how this impacted in his life-span in comparison with modern society. And you will get an idea of how truly bad things are in the "normality" of our "modern" world.
And I display all the problems of my father, and I've been told I have a specific expression that only he did when he got angry, and I never met my father. So, it is all there. It is in scripture. As well as genes. I mean, when you look at the marvel that is this creation, this fixed plane we are in. The complexity of genetics. You realize how truly advanced is the creator. It is beyond our cognition. Look all these awesome life forms in nature. We can barely scratch the surface. We can only change and distort what he made in perfection. And our diseased modern world shows this perfectly.

"Because of course we live on a planet that is traveling through outer space in an ever expanding universe product of some random explosion". The humanity...

Still, having to pay for their mistakes is very painful to me.

Edited July 8, 2022 by They call me Loyalty

[SweetieDreams 84]

@Gun Metal Zebra Beastars moment 

 

 

 

 

Edited July 8, 2022 by Moonydrop
Dang it should’ve quoted the original post, now it looks weird out of context

[They call me Loyalty 1,948]

About something my grandfather said to me one afternoon, when he called me to his bedroom, and I found him sitting on his bed. He looked so tired of everything... but his words sounded different, they had a real weight to them this time, and thus they stuck in my head to this day. He said "If push comes to shove, you know what needs to be done". And then he glanced at the revolver lying over the night stand next to him. I understood what he meant, but I did not want to accept that reality. Because things had to be better than that, right? So, he sighed and grabbed one cartridge from the table. And he showed it to me, almost with exasperation over my insincere naivity, like "Do you *****ing understand or not?". Then, he regained his composure, and said "This is more than enough for vermins". And he didn't say anything else.

Most of the family hated him in their "moral superiority", but I think he was a good man. Despite his vices, which he may have earned. After all, he was the only one being a real man, and dealing against a reality or survival. And even then, he still kept some of his heart until the end, and it costed him dearly. Sometimes I think he was too good a human being, too strong, because the son and daughter he raised became weak under the stable protection of his roof, but he could not do it alone with his wife having died early to cancer, and nobody to take care and raise my mother and his brother into proper adults and decent human beings while he worked all day. It was a disaster waiting to happen. And that is me. I am the disaster that influenced his own demise in the end.

So, yeah. I was thinking about his words. And how much more real they are than mine. It was my own morality, or hypocrisy, that did not want to recognize how correct he was, perhaps.

Because violence is the utlimate answer to an animal world like this. It truly is, unfortunately. I think I was too naive. I wanted to believe people could be better, ignoring all those times I had to resort to violence to get the message across. But it was such a tragic realization for me, that I did not want to accept it. And yet, in my moralistic view of the world, I lost what I owned, because I chose morality over violence when it came to defend myself from animals wearing human faces. So, to this day, I sometimes open the cabinet, take the revolver and sit on the bed with it, thinking.
And I will look at myself in the reflection of the open window and realize it is me the one who looks tired of everything now. And I still remember those messages of hope in the sky, but hope is running out.

So, I will wait a little longer, before I take this matter into my own hands. I am tired of lying to myself over the fallible and exploitable compromise that is society. I sometimes truly believe my grandfather was right all along. And I am the one who is naive for having trusted in my heart. But we are not so different, he and I. Except he was strong, and I am weak. Or maybe it is the other way around. I wonder about that.

[Sparklefan1234 170,062]

How do I ALWAYS manage to miss saying goodbye to My Friends when they post that they're leaving MLP Forums!? 

[DubWolf 17,258]

Let me have some closure this time… now and not 3 years later

(Ahh thanks I got it)

Also it sucks that you wait so long for one door to open, often to have other doors close on you before that happens. That’s what time does to you.

Edited July 9, 2022 by WWolf

[Splashee 28,563]

39 minutes ago, WWolf said:

Let me have some closure this time… now and not 3 years later

(Ahh thanks I got it)

Also it sucks that you wait so long for one door to open, often to have other doors close on you before that happens. That’s what time does to you.

I know exactly what you mean

[Sparklefan1234 170,062]

6 hours ago, Sparklefan1234 said:

How do I ALWAYS manage to miss saying goodbye to My Friends when they post that they're leaving MLP Forums!? 

 

I'm thinking about how happy I am that I  had a chance to say goodbye to ExplosionMare.  I hope you all do, too. 

Edited July 9, 2022 by Sparklefan1234

[Clawdeen 12,190]

I work second shift. The phone calls and texts at 5am really need to stop.

[TheRockARooster 50,896]

I might stay up tonight longer.

[Gun Metal Zebra 2,223]

I have been getting better at being more productive with my spare time, but I can still be lazy at times.