Envy

I'd ask what selling my username even means. Does it mean that I'm selling my account/likeness? Will they be able to impersonate me? Or are they just so inclined to my username that they are willing to pay $1000 for it? Any of these scenarios are rather silly on an internet forum like this, though. It's hard for me to imagine it properly. If it was just simply giving up my username, sure. I'll take that money, it'll help me afford food, which we all need in this economy.

It's in the 50s and cloudy. This is my favorite kind of weather! (apparently I'm not human for thinking that...)

Local store didn't have any fresh potatoes today. I had to buy some in a container, I hope they're good! Also, grocery prices have hiked up so much over the past few months, I was doing just fine before that, but now things are difficult.

I have some varieties that I bought not too long before moving. Unfortunately they haven't made the move yet. Maybe I can convince my parents to put them in the next box they're shipping to me? lol.

I had this really bizarre dream the other night. It had both my ex-girlfriend and my former pet cockatiel in it. My pet cockatiel passed away quite some time ago now. But in this dream he was back, and my dream self was aware that he had passed and was so confused (but pleased) that he could be back. Where it got really weird was my ex being there and, in the shock of it all, looking at my pet bird and claiming that he is a deity. It was then that he started talking, and briefly shape-shifted into other birds. It ended with him and I have a conversation. That's certainly one of the oddest dreams I can remember ever having.

It's 5:20 PM where I live.

Yesterday was a day where I switched a few times. It was a busy day, and I needed to get out and get groceries so I did that early on and just threw on a white T-shirt and denim capris. I would have worn that for the rest of the day, but when I got back I showered before going anywhere else and thus switched clothes. I chose a sangria colored top and black capris for the rest of the day and my rehearsal but then realized that the top got a very visible deodorant stain when I put it on , so I scrambled and had to find another top to put on. I chose a darker floral top that is normally a fall/winter thing... But I did get a compliment for it, so I guess it wasn't too out of season. lol

Yesterday I got a letter from my nephew. Aw.

I live in the New England region of the USA. The best region of the USA!

I like floral patterns often in bright colors, especially when it's seasonally appropriate. Sometimes I have other patterns, or just plain stuff. For tops, I like blouses and tops of various styles, but usually quarter sleeve or sleeveless, with some ruffle or something fun. Sometimes if it's not too hot I'll wear a cardigan, usually cream colored, but I have other colors, as well! Sometimes I'll just wear T-shirts, instead, though. For dresses, they follow a lot of the same guidelines mentioned above. I like pleated or dresses that have some kind of belt or some mid section. I don't like straight dresses just as much as they don't flatter me. My dresses are almost always midi or maxi. I don't really like showing my legs. I have ONE dress that is a bit shorter that I love. I typically wear leggings or something with it. lol (but not at this time of the year...). Also, sometimes with dresses I like them darker. I have some really colorful, but also one of my favorites is just black with white floral patterns. For bottoms, I wear primarily capris. I love black capris with a lot of stuff, but sometimes I'll wear denim (always with t-shirts, sometimes with certain blouses/tops.). I have some skirts, too. Some professional dark ones, but also some cute floral ones. Always, long! For footwear, I like flats, sandals and tennis shoes. Due to medical issues, I no longer wear heels or wedges aside from when I perform in an ensemble or something (which happens so rarely, I let myself wear them, but they are wedges and not too tall. *sigh* I liked heels... but what can I do?) For jewelry, I love dangly earrings! Typically not huge, though. I don't like heavy as I've heard horror stories. lol. But I like them to not be tiny. I also love necklaces, usually with a charm. For rings I'm pretty minimalist, will typically have only one on at a time. As one can imagine, I like floral, but I have a wide variety of themes. I have music-themed jewelry, of course... Including an oboe reed necklace! lol. I love it! I also go all out for Christmas, I have A TON of Christmas themed jewelry. Can't have enough of it. xD Well geez... Now if you ever see me in public you might be able to pick me out after giving that many details... I'm kidding, but still pretty sure I went overboard here. Sorry. I just like sharing because it's typically like the one way that people ever compliment me. Something about my attire whether it be the top/dress or my jewelry typically gets me a compliment. lol

My apartment has a window unit in the living room. I wanted a central air conditioner, but it is what it is. That probably isn't super common up here in the northeast anyway.

From my understanding we're called Nutmeggers. Kind of a weird title to me. lol

According to my email, it's going to be a letter from a symphony orchestra in my former city/state. How they have my address in my new state I have no clue. lol

I'm now in my much more permanent living situation and still I don't know my neighbors. I don't like small talk, so I don't initiate it and I guess that's how people usually talk with strangers/neighbors to meet them. It's foreign to me and I refuse to do it, especially because it feels like it infringes on strangers' rights to just be left alone. It's the golden rule - I want to be left alone around strangers, so I leave strangers alone. When my parents were here they talked to some of my neighbors, because I guess they don't follow the golden rule. Eh... Whatever. They don't understand the New England culture. I can't expect them to, I suppose. It fits my natural nature, but for them it doesn't. Anyway, one of the neighbors was nice to them. Another was rude and really mad about me having a dog. They felt burned by talking to the latter neighbor and now think everyone is "mean" here, and I'm just like... Why did you talk to him to begin with? Just because someone rents an apartment in the complex doesn't mean they have subscribed to talking to their neighbors. Hm... Anyway, now I have a neighbor who is unhappy at me and I feel anxious. I shouldn't though because I have permission from the landlord, and because my dog is super quiet and I clean up after her 100% of the time immediately. We aren't causing any trouble. Lol why on earth did I go and share all of that? Just needed to rant I guess.

Spent a lot of the day on buses to get to the closest Trader Joe's to get a flavor of sparkling water that only they have. (Why can't they just ship/deliver? >.>) It's right by this great big mall and I totally would have gone there, too, but storms were coming soon so I decided I better just head back home.

A very delicious baked potato.

Sleepy. I wanna take a nap, but it's already almost 6 pm and I'd regret it because I'd lay awake in bed at night if I did.

No. As great as the house itself is, the location is not it. I'm so glad I left Oklahoma. I never plan to go back. It would be nice to have $10,000, but life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness are more important and those are the reasons I left OK for a better state.

There are at least a few McDonalds in my city. At least one of them is in walking distance, but I don't go there often at all.

It's about a 20-25 minute walk to the closest big box grocery store, Price Chopper. It's a nice sized store with a lot (and nice potatoes!), but it's also a little more pricey than Walmart. There's also a Dollar General, about a similar distance.

Zone out is a big one for me. I do it so easily that it's caused me to miss major scenes in movies, shows and the like just because my brain went somewhere else. I eventually caught myself doing it and I try to stop it or pause and rewind now when it happens. I also have tons and tons of physical habits. It's like I always must be moving in some fashion. That includes moving my leg up and down (which I'm doing right now lol), spinning my chair (slightly, not all of the way around), rocking back and forth, messing with my jewelry or grosser, destructive things such as picking my lips. Unfortunately the latter happens a lot and I find myself hurting my lips and wondering why in the world I even did it. Ugh.

Probably I don't care. Depending on how grouchy I am, you may get "whatever".

It's hot today. But it taking until April 19th to hit 80 is at least better than where I used to live, where it could hit 80 in the middle of flipping winter. Still, this is far too early for this heat by my standards. I don't like it.

Wearing: Pajama top (with seashells on it!) and shorts Hair: Long and down Eating: Nothing ATM Drinking: Nothing ATM, but last thing I drank was Polar Blood Orange Lemonade sparkling water. Thinking: About going to bed. Feeling: Fine. Talking to: No one. Listening to: Classic soul Watching: Nothing ATM Loving: Life. Hating: How hot it will be tomorrow, the high prices and the extremely worrisome direction of my country. Wanting: To get a stable job soon and for the direction of my country to somehow change for the better. Waiting for: I'd say, but lets appreciate every day! Weather: In the low 50s. Time: 10:45 PM Hoping: Going back to my answer to "Wanting" Situation: It's time to go to bed.

A week or so ago when my parents went back home. That's the last time I remember crying, but it definitely could have happened again after that for any reason. lol