Envy

Yeah, but I am happy to report that after starting wearing Oofos slippers around the house five years ago, I have only stubbed my toe ONCE in that entire timeframe. It actually happened earlier this year and I was so surprised. The impact was lessened when it happened, too. Oofos slippers is are truly incredible. xD

I never saw the artwork. I liked how big and wide it is. You have to understand that when you go to a cramped airport like Chicago Midway, it makes you appreciate the space of Denver's airport a lot! (Of course, maybe Chicago Midway isn't usually as bad as it was for me. I bet Thanksgiving travel was already beginning when I was there)

Okay, so recently I flew again and I now have a pretty solid opinion of my least favorite airport. No, it's not Tulsa. Can't give Tulsa this one even though I want to because Oklahoma sucks. LOL The airport is fairly decent. My least favorite is one of Chicago's... Not O'Hare (which I've never been to that I recall) instead I'm talking about Midway. I got there for a connecting flight and was met with a very small, clustered, and very crowded terminal. There were no seats for me to even sit while waiting for the next flight, and the restroom's line was backed up waayyyy far. The men's restroom somehow also had a similarly long line so my dad had to wait as well. LOL. WTF. Maybe I'm being too harsh, but that didn't leave a good impression on me. It just a big clustered mess. I didn't get to check out any of the restaurants and stores there, it was a very short time in between flights. On the other hand, I use Denver's airport a second time and it has been established as my favorite airport of any I have been to (recently at least. I don't remember much of anything about the airports I went to in the mid 2000s anymore).

Before just this last week, it was southern California. This last week I went to New England, including a lot of CT and a little bit of MA and RI. It looks like my venture into Rhode Island is officially the farthest distance.

I'm surprised. I've seen a few Barnes and Nobles up in Connecticut. Yale's bookstore is a Barnes and Nobles, in fact! We also still have one in my home city. I wonder how it's staying afloat?

Well, I flew over the Canadian peninsula that borders Detroit, Michigan. Does that count? I don't think so... but kinda? Otherwise, still got nothing. lol

It's a little chilly up here in Connecticut. Soooo much better than Oklahoma, it's not even funny.

I'm feeling pretty great! I'm in Connecticut and I'm really loving it. I was worried that my love for New England might just be artificially created from romanticism/"the grass is greener on the other side". (BTW, the grass is literally greener up here. xD) But it appears it's more than that. I could definitely see myself living here.

I've been to two concerts - Streetlight Manifesto and Chicago, both in 2011. I did very much enjoy them. Streetlight Manifesto was my very first concert, which I still think is quite funny considering how uncharacteristic they are of music I generally listen to (I do listen to punk, but not a lot), but I'm glad I got to see them! With Chicago, of course, I would have preferred to see them in their first decade, but that was long before I was born. They did play a lot of their hits from the 60s and 70s so that was great!

It got up to 87 degrees today. I'm so frustrated. What is this, Florida? >.> Hope it didn't where you live.

It's like 84 degrees. This is an outrage. November is one of my top favorite months. We already turned off the air conditioner because it was chilly a week ago. Which i was okay with...back then... but now I'm suffering. I hate this weather so much... AGAIN this is NOVEMBER.

I'm not scared to cry, but I am not one to want to draw a lot of attention. It really depends on the situation. Sometimes I will excuse myself to the restroom and go in a stall and cry privately for a while. On the other hand, a month or two ago I was listening to a very, very sad audiobook at work and I just stayed at my desk sobbing quietly. Lol.

I probably do on a subconscious level judge someone if they're dressing in an outlandish way in my mind, but I really don't mean to. The only thing I intend to judge for is character. And if their character shows on words/logs on a T-shirt/hat then certainly I will judge them for that, but not for how they dress stylistically.

My hard work ethic. It makes every job I get stable for me, but it also means that I can be taken advantage of and treated very differently from the others. As was evidenced most in my overnight grocery stocking job where it was noticed and got me shouldering more work than many others (there were others who were expected to work, as well... The other ones with hard work ethic) and if I called in sick, with a doctor's note, I got a slap on the wrist, while other people could call in all of the time with no doctor's note. Ugh. The second trait I don't have a "term" for, only a concept I can spell out. It has to do with not reading/being impacted by emotions so easily. Now, don't get me wrong, that's not to say I am completely void of that ability, nor am I a cold, unemotional person. I am quite emotional and can be impacted by others feelings. The thing is... when it gets more abstract, I can't. Like take, emotion through music. No, I'm not talking about a song meaning to elicit a certain emotional response via use of minor modality, but instead the more abstract idea of someone putting emotion out through their music. I can not detect that at all. Not even one bit. Yet I've heard so much about it. I also can be a bit socially off and it's taken me forever to be able to read other people, and I'm still lackluster at it. Those are big downsides I've found. But what could make such a thing a gift? I think it played a large role into why I couldn't get attached to religion, deities, and anything of that sort. The emotional manipulation that goes on in churches wasn't effective on me. Everyone else in church could supposedly feel these things, which they attributed to a deity, but not me. No matter how much I tried. I saw this is a downside back then because I was indoctrinated and was horrified at the thought of not experiencing the God I was told to believe in. But now I see it is as a good thing, a very good thing. The things that get people really emotional in churches just don't work on me. Thus, I never got attached to church like everyone else. I see how much I differ from so many other exChristians who struggle so much with the loss of church, community and those feelings. I never had them, so I didn't lose anything in my deconversion, in fact instead I found more peace with myself and relief that I don't have to spend hours in such a boring place that could be spent on doing things that I love or working instead.

Hm... I always thought Hellenism referred to the era and the ideas spread in areas conquered by Alexander the Great's Greece until they were taken over by others (like Rome, of course). I didn't know it included the era of Rome, interesting. I think aspects of ancient Greek culture were pretty cool, but lets be honest, a lot of it wasn't. It was very, very sexist. It's not for me, that's one thing for sure. As for Rome, well Rome certainly carried on the sexism. Rome certainly didn't much care for freedom, freedom of religion, etc. As is evidenced by how harshly they persecuted Christians and Jews and then when Christianity became the state religion, then non-Christians were persecuted. And homosexuality was punishable by death. My how those Romans hated freedom. So, I'll pass. I quite like living in a society where I have opportunities as a woman, where I don't have to be religious and where I won't be executed for being with another woman.

Typically after Thanksgiving. Sometimes I listen to my favorites no matter what time of the year it is, but a lot rarer than after Thanksgiving.

I'm going to say it's very possible to not be the case. There are plenty of people out there nowadays who like the "aesthetic" of a religion, but do not follow it. I can think of myself in terms of the ancient Greek muse Euterpe who is said to have created wind instruments. I could totally see myself having stuff with her on it and even necklaces I would wear in public if I could find one I liked. I could even see myself doing a fake prayer to Euterpe before a performance (or say her in place where most people say "God", like "Euterpe, give me patience this day" lol), but I do not believe she is real, I just think that the concept is cool. lol. It's an aesthetic to me, nothing more. And I think that when we talk about someone being a "weeaboo" for something, they are only into it in shallow ways, whereas if they had to live in that culture they'd be shocked. I can also think of myself as liking many things aesthetically about Christianity, such as artwork, architecture and early/classical music, but I am not a Christian at all. Beyond appreciating those things I wouldn't even call myself culturally Christian. So, there you go. xD Probably weren't expecting an answer to that... Sorry about that. lol

You think you're making a joke, but you should never, ever jokingly ask a question about woodwind instruments to me, because you're going to get a real and detailed answer. There are a couple of different reasons historians think it may have gotten that name. It is not English in origin, so yeah, English is not the reason. My favorite reasoning would be that... Well if you know the history of the country name England - England's name is based off of one of the many tribes that invaded it back in the early medieval period: The Anglo-Saxons. It was Anglo-land, which became England. Now, Anglo means Angel. So it's possibly that the English Horn was originally considered the Angel's Horn. But like how Anglo-Land got "corrupted" (for lack of a better word, I'm not a linguist expert) into England, Angel's Horn got corrupted into English Horn. The very same process as the name of England as we have it today. Wouldn't that be cool? lol ^That's my favorite potential reasoning because I adore the instrument and think it is beautiful, so it originally being called the Angel's horn is cool. The other more practical reasoning is it is instead a "corruption" from "angled". Back in the day, there were versions of the instrument where it was angled or curved. So... since Anglo and Angled are very similar worlds, angled somehow could have "corrupted" into English. I think this one is mentioned more and is more likely than the other, but it's been a while since I looked into thsi.

I think there's a good chance that I'm mildly autistic, but I don't want to self-diagnose. I talked to my therapist about it, she gave me a checklist and it came out very likely, but she's not authorized to give me real tests and diagnose me and said I would have to find someone who specializes in it to test and that it would be expensive. I decided against doing that testing for the time being for various reasons, but it is on my mind a lot whether or not I'm autistic. So many of my traits would make sense if so. However, I must note that I'm already confirmed neurodivergent in terms of being ADHD, and there seems to be some overlap, making clearing this up even more difficult. Someday, I hope to find out. But not right now with me needing to save every penny to move and also, just really don't want another reason I'm different diagnosed the way the world is right now.

Interesting question... One could perhaps apply that to me in regards to France, England or Greece. France - Some of my usernames are French terms. I also adore Medieval French music, the Formes Fixes are some of my favorite vocal works from all music history. It's a common thing for me if I'm in a game and I need names for three characters, I'll name them after the three Formes Fixes (Rondeau, Ballade, Virelai). xD And kinda in the way that weeaboos are so far removed from Japanese culture and life in reality, my obsession with French stuff is mostly medieval music. France is also where the oboe originated, so that's awesome of France! England - Again, music. I'm obsessed with English (some other British as well, but a lot of it is English) folk music. I listen to it a lot!! I also really like the accents. And... Well, lets just say that one really shallow reason I am looking forward to moving to New England is because I really like English town names, which New England has sooo many, obviously because it was originally colonized by the English. Greece - Even more shallow than the others, I just like the aesthetic of ancient Greece. I love the architecture of ancient Greece, and the artstyle of the vases. I also adore the language! But this is all very shallow, and perhaps where a weeaboo would say they would want to live in Japan, I wouldn't want to live in ancient Greece. No way. It had so many issues, including overt sexism. But I also wouldn't really want to live in modern Greece. Too hot. lol. I could also say Germany and Italy to lesser extents.

We've been in the 80s lately. Lame. It looks like we're going to get some rain in the coming days. Then around Halloween, it looks like we will have the delightful Fall cool front with highs in the low 50s that I've been waiting for! *crosses fingers that it pans out*

It's a mixture, but mostly I use a username. There are a couple of cases where I've used my real name, but I don't play online with those... Except for FFXIV. My real first name is in my FFXIV character's name, and that's ridiculous considering how I don't use my real name for privacy, but then use it in FFXIV which is the most online game I have ever played. I feel like even though it IS my real name, people won't automatically assume it is, so it's less of a big deal. When playing the rare game where I get stuck with a male protagonist and no option to play female, I use the default name. If such a thing doesn't exist, then I don't know what to do. lol. I have no creativity.

A longtime dream of mine has been to move to New England (since my teens, at least). I'm now working toward making that dream a reality. Otherwise, I'm in a "new" chapter of my life with a drastically different mindset from before, and thus I'm really having to rethink what I really want to do with my life beyond this move. Of course, I dream of finding a partner and having a child. But career-wise, I'm having to think long and hard about what I really am to do.

Saturdays are my lazy day. You'd have a tough time getting me to accomplish anything on a Saturday. Lol. I guess, what I did was research a little about what stores and restaurants that I frequent down where I currently live are up in New England where I'm going and very potentially moving to. That's not a whole lot, but I guess it's something. lol

Nah, I work that day, and well.... we don't do Halloween at my job.