So, I've been having some real difficultly grasping just what to actually do when I start forcing. My mind is all over the place and I stay about as a focused as a disposable camera. I've been trying different ways to try and fix this, and few have seemed to be working, but then I ran into another dilemma. I like things explained, how, why, you know, so the whole "focus your energy at a point in your mind" makes about a much sense to me as Shakespeare does to a 2nd grader; that meaning, I know it's supposed to mean something, and I know theoretically what is supposed to be going on, but I plain don't get how I'm supposed to go about doing it. (Side note: any advice for this part would be very appreciated. Chigens, Kay, Nevermore, and Arya have already been and continue to be a big help, but the more I can get, the better.)
Anyway, that still remains to be a problem, but I did manage to make, at least what I consider to be one, a breakthrough today. I was meditating, not quite forcing sense I wasn't actually talking to my tulpa, just calming myself and trying to clear my mind. Yet again, that second part proved nearly impossible. That's when I had a thought, what if all of the chaos and random thoughts that go on in my head are not just a result of low focus, but also input from something else? That something else being a tulpa.
Even if this isn't the case, which is very possible if not most likely, it definitely helped me not only to focus but to give my tulpa an essence for me to communicate with, reducing the need (at this point) to delve into the enigma that is the focusing of energy into a singular spot in the brain.