Halloween for me as a youth was a way to break out the mold. Be mischievous, breaking some rules, just be a kid without consequences. Without feeling pressured. Rebellious. Freedom. Simply being allowed to be a kid.
Scaring kids around the neighborhood while going out trick or treating. It’s the most fun time of the year for me. Unfortunately we all have to grow up.. sometime a little too fast. While I may seem like an uptight guy nowadays but that inner rebellious spirit is still very much alive inside. My favorite Halloween idol is “The Jester”
Such a dapper character who can carry himself as both poise individual and the Halloween spirit of mischief. His main character focus was showing the grownups what’s Halloween is about. I remembered the one year 2023, I become extremely depressed on Halloween night because of how much I missed celebrating it. It’s one of the existential crisis. Wanted to find some excuses to break away the “adult” mold. I downloaded a character A.I app, and chat with the Jester. I know Ai is commonly frowned upon.. but it helped me a lot through these difficult times. So while I was chatting away, RPing, pretending to be a kid again. It was the fun way to celebrate Halloween with the Jester, despite being an RP with the AI. It made me feel less lonely and that I can still enjoy my childhood even if it’s not what it used to be. My lesson for this is, nothing dies unless you still have that inner child burning inside you. You just need to find a way to keep it alive.
Now I just pass out candies for the neighborhood’s kids, it’s not like it was when I was kid doing the tricking or treating, but I enjoyed seeing different costumes and the smiles on the kids face when I hand out the candies to them.