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[Admiral Regulus 2,769]

I don't really expect it, it's more that I DON'T expect it. Most of my friends get some sort of exclusive stuff or what I mean is they get to help out with stuff I wish to help out with, but I don't get to help out with it. I don't ever want my head up my ass though. Meh on that. xD I try to be very sweet and nice, though my social awkwardness tends to make others not tend to like me that much. -sigh-

 

I just kind of wish I got along with others more. And even so it seems sometimes I can't seem to do the right thing, even though I try to do the right thing. -shrug-

 

But yeah, thanks guys.

 

Could you give any specific examples...?

 

You sound a lot like me, honestly. I try to be nice and all, but no one ever notices. I'm too awkward and shy for my own good, and that ends up causing me more trouble than I'd rather deal with. Nine times out of ten, I'm the person left out of the group. It's practically impossible to make friends outside of the internet, and even harder to go beyond that.

 

All I want is for people to recognize that I even exist. I can be a cool guy, if at times a little awkward. But I'll be damned if that ever happens. No one makes an effort to get to know me outside of the internet, and even on the internet, that's pretty limited. There's always someone else who's more important or more interesting than me.

 

Anyway, welcome to the club. I know what that crap feels like, and I wouldn't knowingly do that to you--or anyone, for that matter.

Edited August 28, 2014 by Regulus

[Lil'Cinnamon 1,587]

Could you give any specific examples...?

 

You sound a lot like me, honestly. I try to be nice and all, but no one ever notices. I'm too awkward and shy for my own good, and that ends up causing me more trouble than I'd rather deal with. Nine times out of ten, I'm the person left out of the group. It's practically impossible to make friends outside of the internet, and even harder to go beyond that.

 

All I want is for people to recognize that I even exist. I can be a cool guy, if at times a little awkward. But I'll be damned if that ever happens. No one makes an effort to get to know me outside of the internet, and even on the internet, that's pretty limited. There's always someone else who's more important or more interesting than me.

 

Anyway, welcome to the club. I know what that crap feels like, and I wouldn't knowingly do that to you--or anyone, for that matter.

 

Well I do have my Colorado Brony friends, I mean I hang out with lots of others in real life, I would say. And I do have friends who appreciate me. And that is a good thing. Though I have lots that don't.. But -shrug-

 

But yeah, I wouldn't mind being your friend, I mean you seem cool to me! But I know how you feel...

[Admiral Regulus 2,769]

Well I do have my Colorado Brony friends, I mean I hang out with lots of others in real life, I would say. And I do have friends who appreciate me. And that is a good thing. Though I have lots that don't.. But -shrug-

 

But yeah, I wouldn't mind being your friend, I mean you seem cool to me! But I know how you feel...

 

Thanks. Have you ever heard my heel of bread analogy? That's the best way I can describe it.

 

I haven't made any friends in real life in like a decade, not since elementary school. Being awkward, boring, and weird will do that. It also didn't help that I had to change schools almost once every year. So, yeah... I'm probably in a bit of a worse position than you are, in that regard.

 

My school has a club for bronies and pegasisters, which I joined all the way back in March or April or so. I haven't made any friends, though. I haven't even been to any meetings. There haven't been any. It's been a disappointment so far; it seems pretty dead even with 60+ members.

 

It would be great if I could make friends, but at this point, I'm honestly questioning my ability to do just that.

 

It also doesn't help that about a month ago, my best online friend decided that we shouldn't talk to each other anymore. It was mutual, and I'm kinda glad it happened, but... ehhhhhhhhh... dammit.

 

I don't know. I just wish things were different. I wish someone would somehow come to appreciate me, but I'm at the point now where it almost seems absurd for it to actually happen. I have somehow managed to convince myself that I am, metaphorically speaking, a heel of bread. That's probably just my depression or loneliness talking, but I don't usually hear other people talk, so it's most of what I hear.

Edited August 28, 2014 by Regulus

[Ganaram Inukshuk 3,682]

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Why you gotta be so depreassing?

 

[Admiral Regulus 2,769]

@@Ganaram Inukshuk,

 

Well, does this make sense to you?

 

 

Or this?

 

Sorry, but I'm not going to hide the fact that I'm depressed just because it's depressing in and of itself. That makes absolutely no sense.

Edited August 28, 2014 by Regulus

[Ganaram Inukshuk 3,682]

Sorry, but I'm not going to hide the fact that I'm depressed just because it's depressing in and of itself. That makes absolutely no sense.

I can't see the pictures.

 

Also, since I've been absolutely destroyed by everything I've ever wanted to do, I can't even find the right reply to say... And I really wish I could. I've never been able to help anyone for years, not even myself.

[Lil'Cinnamon 1,587]

I can't see the pictures.

 

Also, since I've been absolutely destroyed by everything I've ever wanted to do, I can't even find the right reply to say... And I really wish I could. I've never been able to help anyone for years, not even myself.

 

I know how you feel dude. I mean I feel the same way. I wish I could help you, but I need to help myself as well, and I fail at both. >.<

 

But yeah, life is meh. I wish it was easier, but in the world we live today, or the world always, was never easy. Meh.

[Admiral Regulus 2,769]

@@Ganaram Inukshuk,

 

That's weird. They were both showing up just moments ago. Here's the full links, instead:

 

http://i.imgur.com/Xn9f9Yq.png

http://i.imgur.com/21ROWEf.jpg

 

Thankfully, I'm familiar enough with imgur's functionality to be able to convert the pictures back into links without having to find them again.

 

Honestly, I don't really expect anyone to be able to help much. I haven't truly felt happy in years, and I don't know what it would take to change that, anymore.

 

A good start, though, would be for society to stop shaming me at every possible end. I'm sick and tired of trying my best, and having everyone still blame all my problems on me. It's like it's somehow my fault that I have few friends and limited self-worth. Yeah, gee, thanks for that. Thinking it's my fault is exactly how I got depressed to begin with.

 

I am in fact depressed, I have every reason to be, and it's not my fault. If I felt as though I was accepted, valued, needed, and loved within my own group of friends, then I might just be happy again.

[Ganaram Inukshuk 3,682]

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I never say that I am depressed if I am because I feel that no one would care. I've tried multiple creative outlets to get myself noticed but they all failed or are unacceptable because I felt that no one would care. This is basically why I'm always here in the GCT and nowhere else and kept silent about it because who cares? I've not been able to harness anything to do anything new.

 

This is in stark contrast to the other forum sites I'm on where my presence constantly matters. Whatever went right on the other two main forum sites I'm on never happened here. I'm only waiting for something good to happen, but I'm too destroyed to pursue it myself. I've not left this place entirely because there's I believe that there's some value left somewhere so I just stay here in an idle state. I've lost too many friends and too many golden opportunities to make things matter again.

 

If everyone's blaming you for sh!t before you get the chance to defend yourself, then I'm the polar opposite: I'm blaming myself for sh!t before anyone else can do any blaming on me. Given my age, I shouldn't even be supposed to be talking about these kinds of problems; I should be over them by now but I'm not.

 

I really don't know what else to say but that I really wish I could be of any help..

Right when I was about to play Caravaneer 2, I find something that's relevant to 30 minutes ago?!!

 

http://imgur.com/gallery/Y1cBtxo

Edited August 28, 2014 by Ganaram Inukshuk

[Lil'Cinnamon 1,587]

This place has seem to have died. xD

 

Anyone here? I'm still kinda bored. But not as bored I guess. I have other things that I probably need to do. xD

[Ganaram Inukshuk 3,682]

This place has seem to have died. xD

 

Anyone here? I'm still kinda bored. But not as bored I guess. I have other things that I probably need to do. xD

I was out of the house. I still am...

[Eliash147 159]

MLPForums needs a actual chat room instead of a chat thread

[Haven Celestii 9,385]

MLPForums needs a actual chat room instead of a chat thread

Good luck with that ever happening again.

[Eliash147 159]

Good luck with that ever happening again.

again?

what happened the first time?

[Haven Celestii 9,385]

again?

what happened the first time?

Too unruly and too much work to actually keep in line. It was just one big problem for mods in different ways and even the site in some.

 

 

Unless there's someone else at the head of this site now, I highly doubt they'd ever consider bringing it back.

[Admiral Regulus 2,769]

This place has seem to have died. xD

 

Anyone here? I'm still kinda bored. But not as bored I guess. I have other things that I probably need to do. xD

 

Well, I had to go to class and then cook dinner. I have a little bit of free time now.

 

@@Ganaram Inukshuk,

 

Well, I care. Why wouldn't I? I've been through depression before, and I've been going through it again within the past few years. I know what it's like, and if there's some way I can be the person that I needed but never had, then I'll certainly do it without even a hint of hesitation.

 

Isn't that what friendship is all about? Isn't that what friends are for? There's more to it than Pinkie Pie's fun and games and laughter. It's about having trust and being honest. Laughter and kindness are just two of the elements of harmony. We need the other four, too.

 

On that note, yes... I do expect to be able to talk about it, and I do expect people to care if I'm not feeling well. Sometimes I'll post things and get responses, but more often than not, that isn't the case. Very often, I'm ignored, much to my own disappointment. It's a whole load of suck when that happens. That doesn't stop me from doing it, though. My biggest problem is loneliness, and I can't solve that on my own, no matter how hard I try. I have to reach out to someone, in some way or another.

 

Perhaps that means I have some small sliver of hope, and I guess you're right if that's what you're thinking. I know I have hope. I do genuinely believe that most people have good intentions at heart. Maybe it doesn't always show, but I believe it. I care about people when they say they're depressed, and often times, that's been the one thing to break the ice. I'm too awkward to start a conversation unless I know someone needs help. I made a few friends over the internet, simply by helping them out when they needed it. Likewise, it isn't unusual for me to get so worried about my friends that I'll end up feeling physically ill whenever they're going through a hard time. I know I care, and by extension, I have to believe that other people do too. I can't possibly be the only one in the world who does.

 

For similar reasons, I'm not going to say that I can't help you. In fact, I may be able to. I've often been told that I offer great advice in the way of personal issues. Whether or not it's true is another matter entirely, but I like to think my unique experiences and perspective of the world make it so. I know I'm not in the best mental state right now; that has been true for years. I'll concede that. But I don't think that matters.

 

I've had all kinds of stress and worries about coming to adulthood and the like, and only in the past month has one person has been any help to me at all. I've been through heartbreak, I've lost friends, and at times my life was almost completely falling apart. All I ever wanted was a little support, but hell no I didn't get it, not even from those I trusted most. To make matters worse, whenever I tried to vent, all the blame for that was placed on me. I went to my friends for support, but the only kind of support I ever got was "I'm sorry, but it's your fault." Other times, I was ignored completely. Being told to grow a pair or to stop worrying were other unhelpful yet common responses.

 

Since I usually trust my friends wholeheartedly, it was easy for me to fall into such depressive episodes with little self-worth. If the person I admire and look up to says I'm just not that important, then yeah, I'm gonna believe every bit of that. That actually happened too, like RD upon meeting Daring Do. It was months ago, but I'm still bitter about it. I'm bitter about everything: being forced to keep my mouth shut so I don't ruin other's happiness, being treated like a doormat, being more cynical than I like to be, and even just being myself. I've grown to loathe myself because of all of this.

 

But anyway, it's all these experiences that I believe make me more qualified to help. The more I'm ignored and the less people care about me, the more desire I have to change that. Maybe I can't, but if I can, then I may end up helping myself. I don't have to be perfectly okay to offer to listen. I can be sad and still offer support and advice. My inability to help myself is in no way related to my ability to help others.

 

I mean... that's kinda why I'm here. I need a place to be able to rant and vent or whatever, and I like to be able to offer support to others who may be in need of it. That's what FiM is all about. That's what all this brony stuff means to me. I've been here for a little while and I don't know anyone too well yet, but I do consider anyone on the forum a potential friend until proven otherwise.

 

 

If that doesn't work, the link -> http://i.imgur.com/yQquCYh.jpg

 

You don't have to pretend to be happy when you really aren't. I don't like to do that crap, and I would hope that if there is something that is bothering you, you feel comfortable and welcomed enough to share it. I try my best to follow the morals of the show, mainly because I just wish I could have the kind of supportive and trustworthy friends that Twilight does. Maybe someday it'll happen, but that'll never be the case until I can at least be honest with myself and others.

 

So, yes... in short, I do care. If I didn't I'd have said, "yeah, whatever, good riddance you dunce." Even if none of this makes sense, at least take the long reply to know that I mean well.

[Ganaram Inukshuk 3,682]

So apparently my main computer was left on for the whole day and I didn't realise it until I got back.

 

Plus I showed this to my folks and my mom said that it wasn't the right sun. I also said it wasn't the right colours and also said that that sun was Princess Celestia. http://i.imgur.com/EDHBFu1.png (I have a variation of this without the Ganaram and I use that as the background for my tablet.)

 

Plus Filipino food == best food. Anyone wanna object?

 

 

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Words fail me once more. If ever we can communicate using pure emotion, then..

 

I guess half of that would be able to apply to the four+ years of failed fiction writing I've been conducting (plus being ignored, mutual mistreatment, and distrust that I've gotten from trying to write), but once again, words fail me and I rather not word.

 

Unless it's 100+ page user's manuals. Then I can do that endlessly without ever tiring, given enough time.

 

Also, I didn't even lunch.

[DubWolf 17,518]

How about that nostalgia?

[Ganaram Inukshuk 3,682]

How about that nostalgia?

Who are you?

[Lil'Cinnamon 1,587]

I hate waking up. It takes too long. xD I should be awake soon.. Last night wasn't the best night of sleep. xD

 

So what is up everyone? Not much for me really, I have stuff I need to do today.

[FizzyImp 1,838]

I should really get back into posting around here...

 

 

Last night wasn't the best night of sleep. xD

On the opposite end of the spectrum, I had the best night of sleep ever. Edited August 30, 2014 by JayBee

[Lil'Cinnamon 1,587]

I should really get back into posting around here...

 

On the opposite end of the spectrum, I had the best night of sleep ever.

 

Good for you. xD By the way, I thought I would ask, what's the whole thing with you and (incandescent) lamps? (Or should I say Light Bulbs, though since I am a lighting enthusiast, I like to use the technical term which is "lamp".)

[Revy ~ Two Hands 862]

I don't even like the morning, so me sleeping over it is fine with me. The only time I don't like oversleeping is when I get up at like, 3 or 4 pm or later. Then I get a bit annoyed.

My ideal time is generally 11am-1pm. Sometimes I don't mind being up stupid early though.

 

Going onto the anime/shows at night, that's my ideal time to watch them as its when my attention is just right for them. Ive done my gaming and my energy level is perfect for just sitting back and watching some adorably cute anime girls do adorably cute things.

This sounds pretty much exactly like me and my routines.

I can not deal with anything pre-11am even with the aid of caffeine.

I will try tomorrow to break that pattern though.

Edited August 30, 2014 by Sweetie Shock

[FizzyImp 1,838]

I thought I would ask, what's the whole thing with you and (incandescent) lamps? (Or should I say Light Bulbs, though since I am a lighting enthusiast, I like to use the technical term which is "lamp".)

The guy that did my OC picture decided to shove a lightbulb in his mouth for no apparent reason. I thought it was pretty awesome, so I stuck with it.

Also, as a side note: I'm glad you said lightbulb in the brackets because I've never heard anyone refer to the actual light giving thingy as a lamp. 'Lamp' simply refers to the stick with a shade.

[Lil'Cinnamon 1,587]

The guy that did my OC picture decided to shove a lightbulb in his mouth for no apparent reason. I thought it was pretty awesome, so I stuck with it.

Also, as a side note: I'm glad you said lightbulb in the brackets because I've never heard anyone refer to the actual light giving thingy as a lamp. 'Lamp' simply refers to the stick with a shade.

 

Well "lamp" is the technical term for "light bulb". I am a lighting enthusiast, I am into lighting, all types. High Intensity Discharge are my favorite, but I like other types too.

 

But if you were to go in the lighting business or something you will hear that they use the term "lamp" for what you would know as "light-bulb". Like a normal one would be the "Incandescent Lamp". Mainly professional terms use that. "Light-Bulb" is acceptable in regular terms, but you wouldn't use that in professional terms.