Most of the time, I acknowledge it and search for a solution. If I can’t find one, that usually tells me the issue is something within myself. I’ll break it down mentally where it went wrong and why. What I’ve discovered is blaming yourself for the things outside your control is like being caught in a web.
“It's because I only learned how to be bad
I did horrible things
I hate who I am
I wanted so badly to be good but—
[Verse 1: Tablo]
You ask if I was always this way
Because I'm sharp to the touch
You say you're afraid to approach me
It's just that the world made me swallow countless thorns
And as I tried to push them out of my body
I became a cactus
I hate me
More than you could ever
Of course there's no solution
I am the problem
Like you said, I'm too fragile
Even if I hold a flower like you, I will inevitably shatter into pieces
Just go”
You know that I'm broken
My hеart is like a desert and not еven a sprout of love can grow in it
I was always so cold to you
I gave you tears when you wanted a drop of attention
I took everything and gave you sadness
The waves of resentment in your eyes
Now look like waves of concern
Why are you worried about me?
You know I was always a mess
[Chorus: YOUNHA]
It's because
I only learned how to be bad
I did horrible things
I hate who I am
I wanted so badly to be good but—
It's because I've been hurt too many times
It's because I've been lied to too many times
I don't want to be like this either
I want to smile
I try but I can't
I can't
[Verse 3: Mithra Jin]
I worry that the shadow over me
Will swallow your future as well
Because I'm the type to hurt someone
Just so they can't hurt me first
Yeah, my loneliness is all my fault
But I keep blaming you and the world
I'll let go of your hand now
Before the last bit of feelings you have for me become hatred”
I can’t control the story other people say about me; the only thing I can control is my own story. How I wanted it to end. And i chose to break free from the web. To forgive myself. To stop people-pleasing, and start building confidence and identity on my own terms without chasing validation. That’s how I move on.