You can't just ignore all the social pressure of passing. People DO react, whether anyone likes it or not. I don't know how I'm just supposed to ignore getting thrown out of the bathroom/complained about and the constant creepy stares if I were to go out trying to buy or even just wear women's clothes. Like sorry but I can't just be myself without all the backlash that inevitably makes me feel awful. Though forcing myself to not be myself is also painful. Damn, this sucks