General Chat Thread

[Fox 5,330]

I'm serious. I actually feel like I don't have control over myself.

 

All I'm going to tell you is that you're wrong about depression. Anxiety is an emotion. One form of depression is a neurological disorder brought on by a lack of monoamines in the brain or those same monoamines being reuptaken too fast resulting in negative moods, lack of interest, and other anxieties. That is not an opinion. It is a fact that has been proven scientifically.

 

Again, what you're describing is anxiety. To be more clear, I should refer to depression as clinical depression. It's easy to say, "I'm depressed" and not refer to the actual disease.

 

I have a neurological disorder. Not enough neurotransmitters in the right places.

 

The only reason I'm continuing this argument is because I have such little confidence in myself that I can't just "let things go". If I was to stop talking, I'd be thinking to myself, "What if he's right? I'm probably wrong." I have zero confidence in myself, so I feel the need to argue my point in the vain hope that someone else will agree with me. I need constant validation, or else I doubt myself, and then I get anxious about it.

 

Ergo, why I asked you if it was okay for me to feel sad. When I get offended, a voice in my head says, "You deserved it. You're never right. You're never allowed to be upset."

I have a friend who suffered from anxiety, he never showed any distress before. I was worried that he'd be okay or not. But why did he show it? In this case something caused it. So, he had a different case so I can't really relate to you with your story I guess.

 

Besides, you're exhibiting confidence already. By retaliating in this conversation. You have a knowledge of the topic of depression and you chose to talk. And you are right about things that I don't know about, because you know yourself than a random internet user; like myself, and you have demonstrated an act of will by telling me what I don't know. It's a sense of feeling. Whether you're  enlightening me, or trying to state something. Everyone has the right to voice an opinion, because you're person.

 

I assure you I myself I'm having a great time talking to you, with gaining a better understanding of depression. Although, I'm troubled with the thought of agreeing what ego you feel best to side with. I think you already have a great sense of decision making from sharing, and keeping me intrigued  I'm also, giving you control if you want to push this conversation farther, because I trust you can decide for yourself.

 

I also question you this.... if I, or some "normal person" would go under a state of depression. What would that just make us? Sad, if I underwent suicidal thoughts? How are we different from you're neurological case? Or is it how can you connect it with your case?  

[Hawk Moth 390]

I have a friend who suffered from anxiety, he never showed any distress before. I was worried that he'd be okay or not. But why did he show it? In this case something caused it. So, he had a different case so I can't really relate to you with your story I guess.

 

Besides, you're exhibiting confidence already. By retaliating in this conversation. You have a knowledge of the topic of depression and you chose to talk. And you are right about things that I don't know about, because you know yourself than a random internet user; like myself, and you have demonstrated an act of will by telling me what I don't know. It's a sense of feeling. Whether you're  enlightening me, or trying to state something. Everyone has the right to voice an opinion, because you're person.

 

I assure you I myself I'm having a great time talking to you, with gaining a better understanding of depression. Although, I'm troubled with the thought of agreeing what ego you feel best to side with. I think you already have a great sense of decision making from sharing, and keeping me intrigued  I'm also, giving you control if you want to push this conversation farther, because I trust you can decide for yourself.

 

I also question you this.... if I, or some "normal person" would go under a state of depression. What would that just make us? Sad, if I underwent suicidal thoughts? How are we different from you're neurological case? Or is it how can you connect it with your case?  

Well everyone's different I suppose. I have a family history of mental illness, and I was bullied a lot through my childhood, so I had two things working against me. Quite honestly, I can't even speak for myself because I'm not a psychopharmacologist, and I know very little about neurochemistry.

 

And to be honest, I'm only being open about all of this because I have some compulsion to talk to people. I spent years and years saying nothing and not telling anyone how I felt, and it got me nowhere but my high school chemistry lab, drinking from random beakers and hoping they were poison. So now, I unwittingly gave myself the compulsion to talk to everyone. This is also the internet, so I feel safe in revealing so much about myself. Worst case scenario, I hit the identity kill-switch, make a new account and become someone else. Also there's the horrible, disgusting, death-worthy part that is doing this for attention, crying out "Help me! Help me! Please help me!" into the vacuum.

 

To answer your question, I don't know what it makes you. I hate the social stigma that there are sane and insane people, that being depressed or having bipolar, borderline, or schizophrenia makes you insane, thus a lesser person - not completely human. Having depression just makes you depressed. The body is wired with things called neurons, and sodium and potassium move in and out of the neurons to create an electrical charge. This is called an action potential. The charge travels up the neuron until it releases neurotransmitters which float in the synapses between neurons. These neurotransmitters then are taken up by special receptors on the next neuron, and the message continues until the intended action is complete. The neurotransmitters: norepinephrin, dopamine, and serotonin are called monoamines, and they have been shown to play a large role in happiness. With depressed individuals, the body will either not produce enough monoamines and/or neurons in the brain will reuptake them too fast, so that they spend too little time in the synapses, and their effects won't be felt. Depression is just the name given to the condition where this happens systematically, not caused by anything. It's just an abnormality.

Edited April 5, 2013 by TheIronHugo

[Fox 5,330]

Well everyone's different I suppose. I have a family history of mental illness, and I was bullied a lot through my childhood, so I had two things working against me. Quite honestly, I can't even speak for myself because I'm not a psychopharmacologist, and I know very little about neurochemistry.

 

And to be honest, I'm only being open about all of this because I have some compulsion to talk to people. I spent years and years saying nothing and not telling anyone how I felt, and it got me nowhere but my high school chemistry lab, drinking from random beakers and hoping they were poison. So now, I unwittingly gave myself the compulsion to talk to everyone. This is also the internet, so I feel safe in revealing so much about myself. Worst case scenario, I hit the identity kill-switch, make a new account and become someone else. Also there's the horrible, disgusting, death-worthy part that is doing this for attention, crying out "Help me! Help me! Please help me!" into the vacuum.

 

To answer your question, I don't know what it makes you. I hate the social stigma that there are sane and insane people, that being depressed or having bipolar, borderline, or schizophrenia makes you insane, thus a lesser person - not completely human. Having depression just makes you depressed. The body is wired with things called neurons, and sodium and potassium move in and out of the neurons to create an electrical charge. This is called an action potential. The charge travels up the neuron until it releases neurotransmitters which float in the synapses between neurons. These neurotransmitters then are taken up by special receptors on the next neuron, and the message continues until the intended action is complete. The neurotransmitters: norepinephrin, dopamine, and serotonin are called monoamines, and they have been shown to play a large role in happiness. With depressed individuals, the body will either not produce enough monoamines and/or neurons in the brain will reuptake them too fast, so that they spend too little time in the synapses, and their effects won't be felt. Depression is just the name given to the condition where this happens systematically, not caused by anything. It's just an abnormality.

Regards, with action potential. Actions can be executed involuntary or voluntary it's just decision. Unless, you have tourrettes which is a completely other problem where you can't control sometimes speech or body movements. I'm sure something has sparked your feelings to having react so abruptly at my comment that made you mad about people becoming well themselves. 

 

I trust people can become well themselves. In all that I also believe you can bring yourself to a happy, safe, mental state.

 

Suicide...is a very touchy subject I have three suicide stories myself I could share. I can't bring myself to tell all of em' at the moment. Although, this past summer I had a friend who had got hit by train. And I had been told by someone else. It wasn't an accident, it was a suicide attempt. A lot of people we're so torn when the news hit them. He was such a young kid with an extremely nice heart. My heart just sank when I heard, and I would hate to see you die from drinking a dirty beaker cup. In just trying to kill yourself just like that. Suicide is no joke.

 

You probably have great potential in the future, and I'd hate to not see it blossom and your talents to disappear. You probably have great goals ahead of you, you forgot about because you're stressed out. If you have no one to impress. People on these forums like me, would sure appreciative of your knowledge or skills. You seem to take a liking to science, with your understandings of certain brain capabilities/functions. With the knowledge of the neurons that give active fluid and action when instinct is involved.

 

I'm hoping I'm somewhat helping now than just stating my opinions.

[Hawk Moth 390]

Regards, with action potential. Actions can be executed involuntary or voluntary it's just decision. Unless, you have tourrettes which is a completely other problem where you can't control sometimes speech or body movements. I'm sure something has sparked your feelings to having react so abruptly at my comment that made you mad about people becoming well themselves. 

 

I trust people can become well themselves. In all that I also believe you can bring yourself to a happy, safe, mental state.

 

Suicide...is a very touchy subject I have three suicide stories myself I could share. I can't bring myself to tell all of em' at the moment. Although, this past summer I had a friend who had got hit by train. And I had been told by someone else. It wasn't an accident, it was a suicide attempt. A lot of people we're so torn when the news hit them. He was such a young kid with an extremely nice heart. My heart just sank when I heard, and I would hate to see you die from drinking a dirty beaker cup. In just trying to kill yourself just like that. Suicide is no joke.

 

You probably have great potential in the future, and I'd hate to not see it blossom and your talents to disappear. You probably have great goals ahead of you, you forgot about because you're stressed out. If you have no one to impress. People on these forums like me, would sure appreciative of your knowledge or skills. You seem to take a liking to science, with your understandings of certain brain capabilities/functions. With the knowledge of the neurons that give active fluid and action when instinct is involved.

 

I'm hoping I'm somewhat helping now than just stating my opinions.

Actually I was wrong about the action potential. An action potential is how much charge a neuron needs to fire.

 

What sparked me was the fact that you didn't think depression was a disease. When people say that it makes me feel like they're looking down on me, saying that the only thing wrong with me is a bad mood, and that I should stop whining about it. I thought you were downplaying my condition.

 

As far as suicide is concerned, I feel like it's my destiny. I can't imagine being a 40 year old or an old man. It just feels like I'm going to die soon. I get so sad, panicked, and desperate sometimes that I don't feel in control of my body. My mind races so fast, and my body hurts. It's the worst feeling in the world. I'd take physical pain to that any day.

 

And I don't feel like a talented person. I tried my hardest when I took psychopharmacology, but I barely manged a C+. It was shameful. The only thing I'm good at is writing, and no one cares about writing. People like art and don't have the patience to read. If I was an artist I'd be respected. And I lack the dedication to write as well. It feels like homework to me, like I get anxious at the thought of doing it. It's unenjoyable. I just hate myself.

[Haven Celestii 9,385]

This is the daily Haven tier post in the GCT.

 

Everything is ok.

 

You may all continue on living now.

 

#BasedHaven

[Hawk Moth 390]

This is the daily Haven tier post in the GCT.

 

Everything is ok.

 

You may all continue on living now.

 

#BasedHaven

I just noticed that your name is Haven and not Heaven.

[aRegularPony 306]

This is the daily Haven tier post in the GCT.

 

Everything is ok.

 

You may all continue on living now.

 

#BasedHaven

Error. Living.exe has stopped responding. Shutting down.

[Haven Celestii 9,385]

I just noticed that your name is Haven and not Heaven.

............................................................................................

 

Ive had so many people do that from time to time on Xbox.

 

I have no idea how.

 

Error. Living.exe has stopped responding. Shutting down.

BasedHaven.HVN would like to access Living.exe, but needs Administrator permissions.

 

Allow?

 

[ yes ]   [ no ]

[aRegularPony 306]

 

BasedHaven.HVN would like to access Living.exe, but needs Administrator permissions.   Allow?   [ yes ]   [ no ]

[yes] 

[Starshine 16,333]

[yes]

 

...you have just unleashed the devil

Edited April 5, 2013 by Starshine

[Viscra Maelstrom 3,718]

 

o look i'm doing a ganaram

[Hawk Moth 390]

............................................................................................

 

Ive had so many people do that from time to time on Xbox.

 

I have no idea how.

 

BasedHaven.HVN would like to access Living.exe, but needs Administrator permissions.

 

Allow?

 

[ yes ]   [ no ]

It's just one letter, and I guess I'm more used to seeing the word "Heaven".

[Haven Celestii 9,385]

[yes] 

Living.exe has recovered from an unexpected problem.

 

You may now continue on with your daily activities.

 

                             [ ok ]

[aRegularPony 306]

Living.exe has recovered from an unexpected problem.

 

You may now continue on with your daily activities.

 

                             [ ok ]

[x]

[Starshine 16,333]

 

<exploding disc>

 

Need more destructive chemical reaction

 

[Viscra Maelstrom 3,718]

so i need to be doing more practical assignments for my video-class. i've always wanted to try out doing crazy audio-visualizations and shit. probably not gonna be able to make it AS crazy as i want it to, but doing something simple for this could work. but the thing is, i dunno where to start? should i download templates and apply them or make them myself? i feel as if i just download a template it'd defeat the point of actually making the visualization for class in the first place. kind of like i am cheating.

 

i dunno, thoughts?

[Starshine 16,333]

 

i dunno, thoughts?

If you don't know where to start, it's better to start with a template, but don't rely too much on it. Use the template as an example, but expand it with your own style.

 

Or you can just do a Leeroy Jenkins and do it anyway

[Ganaram Inukshuk 3,682]

This is the daily Haven tier post in the GCT.

 

Everything is ok.

 

You may all continue on living now.

 

#BasedHaven

I just noticed that your name is Haven and not Heaven.

Error. Living.exe has stopped responding. Shutting down.

BasedHaven.HVN would like to access Living.exe, but needs Administrator permissions.

 

Allow?

 

[ yes ]   [ no ]

[yes]

o look i'm doing a ganaram

It's just one letter, and I guess I'm more used to seeing the word "Heaven".

Living.exe has recovered from an unexpected problem.

 

You may now continue on with your daily activities.

 

                             [ ok ]

[x]

I take a fever-induced nap, and what did you guys do to the place?

 

Oh, and:

#include <iostream>
#include <iomanip>
#include <string>
using namespace std;

int main()
{
	// Declaration of Variables
	signed int day, month, arrayNumber1, arrayNumber2;
	string YourPonyName;
	string ponyname[42] = {"Twilight Sparkle", "Rainbow Dash", "Fluttershy", "Rarity", "Applejack", "Pinkie Pie",
		"Apple Bloom", "Scootaloo", "Sweetie Belle", "Babs Seed", "Diamond Tiara", "Silver Spoon",
		"Carrot Top", "Bonbon", "Lyra", "Derpy Hooves", "Berry Punch", "Cheerilee",
		"Nurse Redheart", "Mayor Mare", "Cloudchaser", "Flitter", "Thunderlane", "Caramel",
		"Snips", "Snails", "The Great and Powerful Trixie", "Featherweight", "Octavia", "Vinyl Scratch"
		"Princess Luna", "Princess Celestia", "Princess Cadance", "Shining Armor", "a Royal Guard Pony", "Pony Joe"};
	// Need 6 more pony names
	string ponyactivity[30] = {"discover an ancient evil with", "bake a cake with", "sail across the world with",
		"go fishing with", "travel to Appaloosa with", "go stargazing with", "pick apples for",
		"get punched through the fourth wall by", "will have to use the bathroom of", "hug", "surprise hug",
		"get tickled by", "write a book with", "perform a show with", "give flowers to",
		"ride a train with", "ride a balloon with", "return a letter to", "play video games with"};

	// Main stuff begins here
	cout << "Enter your pony name.
";
	cin >> YourPonyName;
	cout << "Input the day and month (the number) of your birthday.
";
	cin >> day >> month;
	arrayNumber1 = day + month - 2;
	if (month < day)
		arrayNumber2 = day - month - 1;
	else if (day < month)
		arrayNumber2 = month - day - 1;
	else if (day == month)
		arrayNumber2 = (day * month) % (day + month);
	cout << "You, " << YourPonyName << ", will " << ponyactivity[arrayNumber2] << " " << ponyname[arrayNumber1] << ".
";
	return 0;
}

 

Oh yeah, and:

 

[Starshine 16,333]

Good night folks

 

[Viscra Maelstrom 3,718]

i just wrote a thing which i'd like to call

"THE HOLY ENCOMPASSENMENT OF A GIANT ROW SLAYER'S DICK.txt"

by Viscra Maelstrom and CAPS LOCK PONY.

 

no im not gonna post it here or else i might get banned lol

[Electrobolt 2,069]

Holy CRAP... What just caused my phone screen to stretch SO WIDE HERE???!! Just... The hell, man ._.

[Twiliscael 3,960]

Holy CRAP... What just caused my phone screen to stretch SO WIDE HERE???!! Just... The hell, man ._.

ponies, man.

[Haven Celestii 9,385]

Holy CRAP... What just caused my phone screen to stretch SO WIDE HERE???!! Just... The hell, man ._.

You got that as well?

 

I'm guessing Star's picture. Seems like the culprit

[Electrobolt 2,069]

You got that as well?

 

I'm guessing Star's picture. Seems like the culprit

 

Well... I doubt it... Considering it didn't stretch the screen out as much as it did... I mean... Wait, now that I think about it... Ganny's code had a scrolling bar below it on the forums when I saw the screen on my laptop... THAT COULD BE IT!!!

[Haven Celestii 9,385]

Well... I doubt it... Considering it didn't stretch the screen out as much as it did... I mean... Wait, now that I think about it... Ganny's code had a scrolling bar below it on the forums when I saw the screen on my laptop... THAT COULD BE IT!!!

.......

 

Gaaaaannnnyyy!

Him and his frakking coding.

 

Oh, well. At least we're on a new page now.

 

 

>inb4he posts another one