Envy

Probably I don't care. Depending on how grouchy I am, you may get "whatever".

It's hot today. But it taking until April 19th to hit 80 is at least better than where I used to live, where it could hit 80 in the middle of flipping winter. Still, this is far too early for this heat by my standards. I don't like it.

Wearing: Pajama top (with seashells on it!) and shorts Hair: Long and down Eating: Nothing ATM Drinking: Nothing ATM, but last thing I drank was Polar Blood Orange Lemonade sparkling water. Thinking: About going to bed. Feeling: Fine. Talking to: No one. Listening to: Classic soul Watching: Nothing ATM Loving: Life. Hating: How hot it will be tomorrow, the high prices and the extremely worrisome direction of my country. Wanting: To get a stable job soon and for the direction of my country to somehow change for the better. Waiting for: I'd say, but lets appreciate every day! Weather: In the low 50s. Time: 10:45 PM Hoping: Going back to my answer to "Wanting" Situation: It's time to go to bed.

A week or so ago when my parents went back home. That's the last time I remember crying, but it definitely could have happened again after that for any reason. lol

A lot of my plushies still haven't made the move, but hopefully someday soon! Here's what I have now (the right most unicorn and the wolf are the two that I actually brought with me on the move, the others I've gotten since lol)

I like being alone. I need a lot of time to myself and it can be hard to convince me to leave my space. I'm a bit reclusive. But, to my credit, I took the initiative to join the community band in my new town. I like being alone, but also having no friends or acquaintances in the area whatsoever is too lonely for me. Music is the only hobby I have that gets me out of my apartment, so I went with it. (and of course, I love music, so...) But ultimately I do truly thrive in my space with just my dog and I.

Definitely writing. I was not prepared for academic writing at all when I entered college. It was not for lack of my ability, as I became quite skilled at it quickly, but before I got there I was doing horribly. The "papers" I had to write in high school were nothing like what I had to write starting in college. It was night and day and threw me for a loop.

Woke up to snow on the ground! The forecast showed it, but I still didn't believe it would happen, but it did. Yay!

I'm a millennial and I eat cereal every morning!

Not a lot going on for mine. I just moved into this apartment not long ago and don't even have a lot of my stuff... but I do have my desktop, so I'm happy! =D

Well, MLP ponies aren't very horselike really, so you don't have to feel too weird about it. An example I have for me is the fact that I find horror and morbidity absolutely disturbs me greatly, and yet I love British (and some early American) Folk music that is very morbid and disturbing. These songs can be so graphic and grim that I can imagine someone would look at me funny for listening to them if they listened to the lyrics... And yet I have no problem with any of it. This is such a weird contradiction for me. I suppose it's easier to stomach Folk because it's music and not visually graphic. But still... I find it bizarre that I can stomach these songs regardless. Some examples:

Yeah, totally agree on the NSO. Holding classic games behind a subscription is something I have strongly disagreed with from the beginning. This doesn't happen with like any other kind of media. Like for music you can choose to buy albums and songs/pieces individually or you can subscribe to a service like Spotify. There's no reason that Nintendo can't sell titles individually along with offering a subscription service. The only reason I could think that they wouldn't do it is when they introduced that upper tier of NSO years ago that included N64 games. Subscribing to that service would have been pointless for me if I could buy the N64 games I wanted individually (I never got that tier of NSO either way because it's not worth it even for the N64 games. Way to go, Nintendo), so I think it's as you said - Nintendo wants to make you subscribe to NSO to get the games and if you can buy them individually they can't do that. That sucks. They should let us purchase individually. In my ideal world, they would not only do that, but allow us to transfer our VC games to each new system. That was the one frustrating aspect about VC - knowing that my purchases wouldn't carry over to the next system. But gosh darn it, the Switch would have been the perfect system for me to do VC purchases regardless due to being both handheld and console, and also being very comfortable (IMO) to play in handheld mode (sooo much better than the 3DS), but nope. No VC. =(

Not super excited about the Switch 2 itself, but am pleased that it's being launched with a new Mario Kart. I would love to get it immediately, but that's not at all likely between my financial situation and the dumpster fire that is my country's government. I hoped to get a SteamDeck before Nintendo's next system, but again, with the way things are, I may have to go for Switch 2 because of it having exclusive games. =(

You and I both know what you said here is just a deflection.

... Nah.

I am like 5'4" or 5'5". IDK. It's a perfectly average height, so I'm happy with it.

A nice day with overcast skies and temperatures in the mid 40s.

Went to the coast with my parents. We found some really neat seashells!

My name is fine! It's relatively common, but not so common that I'm often surrounded by others with my name. The only thing is that people always mishear it as another similar name so I'm always having to spell it.

Noooo. I hate it! Make it stopppp!!! Why does winter end so fast?

I finally got my desktop PC in my new apartment! (it's been like nine months!) I also got a nice new monitor. It's bigger than my last one and is a smart monitor that can be controlled with a remote control from my bed and I can watch stuff on it like it's a TV from my bed. It's blowing me away. lol

Eating is a private thing for me. I don't know if it's because I'm so frustrated of eating around others after decades of people nitpicking me over what I do and/or don't eat, or if I'm just naturally private about it, but I don't like eating around others and I don't like being watched eating.

Hm... There's one thing that makes my town particularly famous, but if I said it, I'd give exactly what town I live in away and I don't think I should... Actually there are two things (second one being a little more niche)... Oh I hate not being able to say it, oh well. Some neat things about my state in general, though: Second state to legalize same-sex marriage. It was a church from Danbury that wrote in to Jefferson with concern about a church establishing itself in the state that led to Jefferson coining the phrase "wall of separation between church and state" Famous for some media such as Gilmore Girls and Mystic Pizza (I think the latter is famous?? My mom mentioned it, I've never seen the movie). Also some Hallmark Christmas movies are filmed here.

Never thought of that specifically as it just isn't practical. But I do like to dream of a country that consists of New England states. I'm far from the first person to ever think of it, though. Either way I consider myself a member of my region and state before I do the country. I have very little pride or faith left in my depraved, stupid country.

I was raised with a strong work ethic, which also intermixed with certain aspects of my personality (being insecure and not wanting to burden others leading me to work even harder). In retail, this work ethic ended up getting me taken advantage of. Working hard doesn't often lead to rewards, it leads only to more work and burnout, so be careful anyone who was naive like me when entering the workforce. Thankfully not all jobs are like this. I still have this work ethic... It can't be turned off. I even tried back when I was in my retail years... lol I just naturally can't stop putting my best into my work.