Sunlight Swift

Thanks ponies! I got a little emotional and started drinking when I wrote this, went alot furthur than I intended. But yeah I appreciate the warm welcome everypony!

This show has changed me as a person and my entire perspective on life. I had become a sad pony after I had bad health issues, unemployment, betrayal by spouse, divorce, having to leave my hometown and being disregarded by every friend and everyone I ever cared about. During this time of recovery I lost my faith in my religion, then discovered that it was actually brainwashing cult. All my expectations of hope for the future shattered and all my fondness of my past crushed I had to relearn life as a whole. In all that happened I saw many misguided people. Many people with good qualities mislead by mistakes and poor choices. I began to feel that the only way I wanted to continue is to try to do what I can to make people see each other better. I began to see people from a different light. When I found good employment again I worked alot. I found that when I talked to people and responded I often had a sense of wanting to make myself seem important and special to them. Meanwhile I starved for a way to build my own qualities in a way to make them useful to others. I was always pretty antisocial before. So I had to learn alot. I looked for ways to be a better friend. I figured I needed to learn fundamentals if I were to get good at it. Thus I found the show. I studied it like I did when I was in my religion. I used to be extremely active in my studies of that religion. I began changing the way I conversed with people. Instead of saying things that made me seem important and special. I began to respond to people in ways that made them feel important and special. This is something I often repeat in my mind when I feel any type of negative emotion. "say what makes them feel special." I started to see even the most angry and negative people had shining qualities. I used to want people to get what I felt they deserved for bad behaviour. But now I saw those attitudes actually made them who they are. We make people into what we hate by hating them more for what we can forgive and overcome. Many times these negative people I can see become better if I make them feel I can trust them and make them feel like they are something special, that I am not blinded by their surface presentation. I also met my wife who is a fan of the show too. Our first date we watched the season 2 finale. By the season 3 finale we were married and lived together. I no longer care about living for the future, having a hope of an immortal life. I feel I can make people feel better in any way I can, no matter how small, then I live forever in my effect on the world. I have to thank this show though for helping me realize purpose in a time where I had little. Now though I think I understand what makes life special. You do!

426592 sunday 10/8/2017