My productivity has never been higher than it is now despite all the crazy things happening in my life. First my grandfather died, then my favorite gun YouTuber Matt from DemolitionRanch left YouTube after I found out, it was like a part of me died. A long time ago I had a dream where Matt sent me guns and ammo in the mail and I shot his guns a lot.. Then I sometimes had dreams like this where I was shooting Matt's gun. My parents also want me to work in a factory my whole life and never see anything but a f*****g factory. And if I don't work in a factory, then work in a garage behind machines. I HATE F*****G MACHINES (lathes, milling machines and all the rest) AND FACTORIES!!! I study programming every day, I have already learned all the basics of HTML and am now studying CSS, I practice it a lot. I plan to go to university for a degree in Computer Science. My parents will definitely try to force me to take another profession, so that I would work in a factory. But I have to tell them NO! I will be a web developer and I don’t care how I get there, I will do it!!!
I feel like a space marine of the legion of the damned. Before I felt like a soldier of the Death Korps of Krieg, but now I feel like a Space Marine of the Legion of the Damned.
I feel like my productivity has increased so much because of all these difficulties in life.
It drives me crazy that my life can be connected with factories and a garage. This life will suck if I don't do something to improve my life. My parents think that if I work at a factory, then my life is a success. But this is very stupid, they don't know what they are doing. When I entered technical school, they told me that if I don't like the profession, then I can retrain for another profession. I didn't like this profession, but they are not going to let me leave this profession. They deceived me when they said that you can retrain for another profession and we will not be against it.