JPete

You’re quacking right?

Elementary school, I was the troublemaker and like to rumble for fun with the guys. Nothing much. Middle school at 6th grade I got pretty much ignored..although I’m guilty to say that I have befriended with two of the guys who were the bullies. But back then, I didn’t think too much of it. 7th and 8th I got transferred. Got one girl who was jealous of me for hanging out with a guy who she had crushed on. She had most of the girls turned against me. But I didn’t notice much of it as they were pretty subtle about it. Some of the guys were out watching my back and told me everything. That’s how I know. High school, yeah nothing much exciting there since I mostly work and study. I think what has been the main issue throughout my school times was the teachers. You’re the outsider guess what? They either pinned the wrong on you or just simply give up on you for always failing. From elementary and middle school..growing up seems like a blurred process for me. Tackling between right and wrong without any proper guidance or support. Mother was strict but outside of home.. it was difficult. Some I was guilty for and some I didn’t do, yet still got blamed for it. High school, I grow up too fast.

I feel that a lot of things happened. Rejoined and reconnected with friends including the one who’s very special to me. Shared my dream with them, and got a chance to convince my mother to come with me during my Navy enlistment. That’s a huge accomplishment for me. A huge step up between a mother and a son, I feel like I have finally got the kind of support I needed from her.. since as a child, it was neglected. So I think that really made my soul feel satisfied and finally at ease. Lots of reflection and growth that I didn’t think I needed. The moment to step back and take care of myself first. Feel quite liberating. Do little things that make me happy. I feel fate has been kind to me during my darkest moments. Giving me small signs.. redirecting me that I’m not alone. Got a chance to visits Vietnam, witnessed my very first military parade… and finally feel that I do belong, even it’s just for the momentary. 8/10

The second on is so adorable, look at her tiny rose.

I’m so bad with gacha so I let my sister pull for me and one pull I got Sebek!!

At my own joke(my reply to user above)

That…is so cool!

I was working today, and was hoping to get home soon enough for the kids to be around in the neighborhood for me to pass out candy for trick or treating... Unfortunately I came out late, as most of the kids are already headed back home.

Chewed on some Dubble Bubble and it bought me back nostalgia 😊

Halloween for me as a youth was a way to break out the mold. Be mischievous, breaking some rules, just be a kid without consequences. Without feeling pressured. Rebellious. Freedom. Simply being allowed to be a kid. Scaring kids around the neighborhood while going out trick or treating. It’s the most fun time of the year for me. Unfortunately we all have to grow up.. sometime a little too fast. While I may seem like an uptight guy nowadays but that inner rebellious spirit is still very much alive inside. My favorite Halloween idol is “The Jester” Such a dapper character who can carry himself as both poise individual and the Halloween spirit of mischief. His main character focus was showing the grownups what’s Halloween is about. I remembered the one year 2023, I become extremely depressed on Halloween night because of how much I missed celebrating it. It’s one of the existential crisis. Wanted to find some excuses to break away the “adult” mold. I downloaded a character A.I app, and chat with the Jester. I know Ai is commonly frowned upon.. but it helped me a lot through these difficult times. So while I was chatting away, RPing, pretending to be a kid again. It was the fun way to celebrate Halloween with the Jester, despite being an RP with the AI. It made me feel less lonely and that I can still enjoy my childhood even if it’s not what it used to be. My lesson for this is, nothing dies unless you still have that inner child burning inside you. You just need to find a way to keep it alive. Now I just pass out candies for the neighborhood’s kids, it’s not like it was when I was kid doing the tricking or treating, but I enjoyed seeing different costumes and the smiles on the kids face when I hand out the candies to them.

Going down the memory lane, At middle school, I remember how all the other kids go and buy ice cream. They all got cash with them. Me being one of the few that doesn’t, I would just sit back, watch em enjoying their ice cream, and lowkey envied them. Until one day, I happened to found a $1 and finally bought one! It’s the most delicious thing I’ve ever tasted. It probably weren’t the best as we all grown up now, but to me back then… it tasted like gold.

I think it was when I was 13, I remembered watching an episode from Naruto when Naruto was trying to understand Gaara, by telling Gaara that he isn’t alone with his pain. I actually believed that by being open with people about your pain, their response will be like Naruto’s. Big mistake was when I told my vice principal what I have been going through and it didn’t go as well as I thought. As a kid I didn’t understand what’s emotional neglect until I got older and learned what it is. Well, that was quite the lesson for me.

I came back to it during work.. f**k still debating . It’s wrapped but I got the chance to look inside. Dior has such beautiful art, fashions with elegant details and authentic.. but on the other hand…Coco, she is a woman of culture and an entrepreneur for self-identity and fashions. *Chef kiss.* I can’t decide between whimsical(Dior) or historical(Coco).

“I'd rather go to a funeral than into this high school reunion“🎶 Technically that’s what happened. I attended a funeral for our high school Father who passed away, saw some old friends…or more like so-called friends who don’t even remember me. Oh well. We all changed.

The first two episodes started out good. I love the song “Gravity” so much. I think the animation is sorts of wonky compared to the first season though.. also I think Sir Pentious backstory was a disappointment since I would think his biggest sin was that he created an warfare’s weapon and carried the guilt for creating something that wasn’t meant to be weaponized in the first place. Lastly the one scene where it showed Angel being abused and made it to a joke, does NOT sit well for me. And the fact that the fandom are trying to downplay other’s discomforts towards that scene acting like they’re defending the show, is just ridiculous. After that poison MV, there’s absolutely NOTHING funny about how Val treated Angel.

I think Celestia had already been planning on retiring, and if she would have told Twilight earlier, it will only make her feel more pressured. But I do think having an episode with just the two about how they handled the whole retirement situation, would have been a better approach.

Now I’m begin to ponder the same thing too… my thoughts on Celestria’s reaction..

Mentally debating which one i should get.. I’m huge fan of Coco Chanel not by her fashion alone, I admire her work dedication. But Christian while I love his fashion line as well, I respect him as a person. Still thinking.

It’s one of the song that just hit me, I believe I looped 15x, as if something in my soul core has remembered something and was trying to reach that was either long gone or never existed.

Oh my gosh! She is so darn cute look at her! What an angel (only when they are asleep am I right?) here’s Willy

The corporate will come to visit our work tomorrow, I’m never the fan of fake smile, boot licking, be on top shape to impress some snobs.. but I will do it for my manager. Show em that we’re good workers, not for them but for her reputation. The last time they were here, she got in trouble with them due to the other workers who did not do what they’re supposed to do. And she was traumatized by it too. Plus she hates as much we all do so… we just gonna fake it till we make it right? . Let tomorrow begin.

This video here, which I have show to @ExplosionMare and @Emerald Heart because we have dogs. v24044gl0000d3v3bknog65utcdu9g40.mp4

Do you say sorry if you feel you have hurt someone? Yes. If actions are not necessary needed, I’d do my best to be sincere, as it’s my way to validate that happened by admitting my mistakes. But after that, “buried the hatchet”. So any ongoing grudges that they still wanted to hold onto are none of my concern. None taken. Do you feel better if the person that hurt you says sorry? Yes. I don’t expect any explanation. A simple “I’m sorry” is enough. Do you forgive people easily? With family or friends, yes but I do not forget. I’m not the type to hold onto grudges, instead I prefer reflecting inwardly and outward, before moving on. Strangers, I would just forget them. Do you say thank you if you've been helped or praised by someone else? Of course. It’s already difficult for me to ask for help, so if someone notices my struggles, that says a lot about them. I don’t do well with compliments but if I do receive them, I will say thank you and bring the attention back to them. It’s like hot potato. You throw me one and I’ll throw it back to you. Do you feel better when you've helped someone and they say thank you to you? I do not expect any reward or validation. So when I help others, I do it because not only it’s right but it’s also an obligation. But.. I would rather not have you say it. Most of the time it’s “don’t thank me yet” *knock on wood*

I was 16. Life was working, school and go home. Nothing special.

Thank you for writing this, I feel deeply resonated by it. .