mega thread How are you feeling?

[Splashee 28,563]

I feel accepted by my friend 🥲

 

[DubWolf 17,262]

Angry as usual. Computer creating problems from old problems. A whole hour needlessly wasted and it keeps regressing. An update caused problems. Restoring it caused new ones.

[They call me Loyalty 1,948]

Too real. And it is not a good feeling. Because the more real it gets, the less real it feels for me. That is the thing about this reality, it is always a compromise.
People will have belief systems or practices to help them cope with life, but that doesn't work for me. I always have to trash my psychological buffers into the ground, because they are not real.

I have an obsession with truth that sources from a complex that is tied to childhood trauma. Just at the center of the heart. Trust issues. Hyperawareness, ADHD, dissociative identity disorder, etc. Your psyche is constantly expecting danger from everywhere. So, you HAVE to know. Because if you don't know, then you may get hurt again.
Thanks to my own parents, their mistake is here. They ruined my only chance at a normal life. And it burned me up so badly. I made sure they were recompensed. The only actual good thing I learned from my relatives. They know how settle a debt, despite their questionable morality. But the damage is already done. This emotional friction feels like a very tangible fissure from side to side of my chest. And it is killing me, like it killed the rest of the men in this family. Medical history of cardiac arrest in every single case. Coincidence? Probably not. Well, at least the ones who didn't kill themselves. Still, it could be worse. Like the women side of this family, cancer. Imagine it tearing the skin and muscle tissue in your back until your organs, which are undergoing a process of licuation, fall through your back. Multiple metastasis. If the chemo doesn't kill your first. What happened?

I should pay a shrink, really. But pay someone to be lied to is kinda sad. And lets not get into the toxic prescriptions. Besides, I have my star psychiatrists already. Imagine that, a star descending from the sky at your request. I wonder what they think; these luminaries. Or how bad I must be in the head, that they have to display these threatrics everytime I want to end it. "Mental patient number 5.643.632.734 soliciting aid".

What a mess... what a mess.

[Dreambiscuit 9,691]

I got too much sun and heat today. So I'm a little 'off' but I'll live. 

[ExplosionMare 18,062]

Doing good, just which the soreness in my legs would go away completely

[Shadowmoth2011 150]

Pretty damn miserable not gonna lie...my mother and her husband have COVID. 

[Savy 5,077]

Doing good, probably won't be after the Amphibia finale.

 

Update: I'm no longer fine. It broke me.

[Ika Musume 54]

Yaknow, I guess I'm fine if I just choose to ignore the bad stuff, and there's no negative consequences of that in my case.

[ExplosionMare 18,062]

Slightly tense. I say no to a comparatively trivial thing in the grand scheme to someone and it becomes a big deal. I did one thing that was already asked and the other thing really isn't necessary so does it have to be a big deal? Maybe it's just one of those things where non-compliance is seen as a personal attack on someone else.

[Ika Musume 54]

Thought I was finally feeling better. Now things are MUCH worse than ever. Why do these things happen 

[Savy 5,077]

Feeling blehh cause work tomorrow and also nervous cause storm coming.

[Tropical Melody 6,122]

Got that sore hip thing again. Wish I knew what causes it. If it happens, it's always there when I wake up, so something happens during the nighttime. Wish I knew what it was. Last time was exactly a month ago.

 

 

[TheRockARooster 51,003]

I’m feeling alright, even though I’m also anxious again.

[ExplosionMare 18,062]

Feeling glad that I got my new icon finished

[Savy 5,077]

Very tired from work. 

[Splashee 28,563]

Need to get all the stress out of me so I can focus on work

[ExplosionMare 18,062]

Annoyed at a couple of family members who aren't being very chill

[Lunaholic 898]

Still very tired. I woke up 10 minutes ago and I have to prepare for work

[Savy 5,077]

Tired, about to go to bed and rest up for work tomorrow.

[Sparklefan1234 170,277]

I’m feeling happy because I feel like I’m getting better when it comes to using the “shading” option 

in the program I use to create my artwork. 

[twilightlicious69 629]

Very stressed because my mom has complaints of stomach pain, and we have to admit her to the hospital. She needs a complete week of bedrest, so I have to share the household chores with my sister. I don't know if I'm ready to handle what comes next.

[Pandora 38,015]

Tired yet satisfied.
Sometimes moving on is the only way to go and feel better.

[Ika Musume 54]

meh I'll be fine I guess

[Tropical Melody 6,122]

20 hours ago, ExplosionMare said:

Feeling glad that I got my new icon finished

 

19 hours ago, -Buttercup- said:

I am feeling really happy to see it!

+1 & not blocky!

 

[ExplosionMare 18,062]

Good but kinda hungry, I forgot to eat breakfast and now it's already lunchtime. Whoops.