mega thread How are you feeling?

[Jeric 46,851]

Nervous trying to avoid Spoilers for Pony, Kenobi, and Stranger Things. 
 

I HAVE TOO MUCH TV TO WATCH. 
 

 

 

[ExplosionMare 18,063]

Feeling nice and relaxed right now 

[Savy 5,077]

Very tired right now.

[Magic Note 2,748]

I'm feeling fine tonight. I'm glad the weekend is a three-day one.

[TheRockARooster 51,384]

I’m a little nervousbut alright.

[Treeglow Flicker 13,676]

Pretty good. Although I'm a little slow with getting myself motivated to get on with my work today.

[Savy 5,077]

Pretty good. Barely awake, but good.

[Tropical Melody 6,220]

Returned from my trip, where I did a bit of walking, so I ache now, but in a good way. (I don't get enough exercise!)

 

 

[They call me Loyalty 1,948]

Like utter cr*p. I was getting out of a manic episode and straight into the abyss of depression. And with my animic state being so low, my immune system got affected too, and I ended up caughting the flu. My bone structure and articulations are hurting as if someone was trying to drive a puncturing object into them, and I was already in psychological hell.
So, yeah, the "virus" finally catched up to me. And I didn't get immunized. So, this is it, apparently. No, no. It is fine. Don't cry. It is fine... Let me go. Let me go to a place where the tired souls of this world can rest from the endless quandaries of this most strange human zoo.

Edited May 27, 2022 by They call me Loyalty

[ExplosionMare 18,063]

Doing pretty good right now, just relaxing 

[ZiggWheelsManning 10,392]

After making my bed, I feel overpowered to emotion and relaxed whole listening to rock  

[TheRockARooster 51,384]

I’m feeling cold as well as sickly in the gut.

[ExplosionMare 18,063]

Doing good, just relaxing.

[Tropical Melody 6,220]

Annoyed at the computer being so slow.

 

[Pandora 38,062]

Today I’m good not very productive but oh well

[Savy 5,077]

Doing good, just trying to relax.

[ExplosionMare 18,063]

Good except for some minor hand fatigue from the computer. Oddly enough, my left hand hurts more and I don't even use it that much.

[They call me Loyalty 1,948]

I feel like my mind is breaking past the ideological constrictions and personal conditioning of the ego. Behavioural patterns and belief systems you have learned during your whole life. And I realize that I do not believe in anything. And my mind does not work in the normal way, but something like plasma filaments touching the physical limitations of my surroundings without conceiving any thought or preconception. Because what my intuition is telling me does correlate with what my senses are perceiving. So, most people will see something that presents itself in a certain a manner, and say "Oh, that thing, IS a thing". Meanwhile, I would say "No, that is not it. What is this, really?" And start deconstructing reality until there is nothing left but the "truth"... Maybe that is the reason for my unhappiness. It is like I am searching for something that doesn't quite exist. And this is why this entire creation feels unreal to me. The whole construct.

And it is the same feeling I've been having since I have memory. "What is this?", "What is this?" like an echo inside my head. It runs in the family, this strangeness.
And the closest aproximation to my observations of this creation model comes from scripture, unfortunately. But then, I am only taking the measurements of this place from the enochain text. And throwing the biblical philosophy. I've been studying these damn texts in the past month, to the point if I hear the word "holy", "righteousness" or "behold!" again. I swear someone is gonna die a very painful death. I hate biblical cosmology so much. The worst sin you can commit in written word, is being boring. And this little "moral" guideline called the bible excels at this. Keep it for the animals. And spare me the lecture.

So, I ask myself. "What is this reality?" And yes. It often happens to me that the psychological stress I experience will "kick me out" of the body. And it feels like you are flying all of the sudden. Everything looks so much clear. "To think I was struggling over nothing, yet my problems felt so real". But if it felt so "real"? Then, why did I hate it so much? I love real. Real is what I've been looking for my entire life. There is no reason to hate something that feels real... unless it isn't real.

I've always felt this instinctive animosity towards anything that is fake. So, maybe my rejection of the global perception of the world and the notion of god, comes from the subconcious knowing that there is no such thing as god. But something closer to a creator, perhaps, just without the ideological boundaries that contradict the very possibilities allowed within this creation. To be honest, I am more interested in knowing what is beyond the multiple domes layered in the firmament, now. Because, I feel like if there is any truth to be found here. It is past that barrier. It gives me hope. I can breathe again. Because I live for truth. It is like sustenance for my soul. And I've been starving my whole life inside this world.

So, this is one of the rare of occasions where I can be brief and say. "I feel good".

Edited May 29, 2022 by They call me Loyalty

[TheRockARooster 51,384]

I’m feeling ok, nothing much happening.

[Patty Thundersnow 4,164]

Doing okay. Just unwinding from the day before bed.

[ExplosionMare 18,063]

Doing good right now  

[Savy 5,077]

Really tired right now, glad I don't work today.

[Sarabi 57]

Pretty okay... though it's pretty late and I should get some sleep.

[dead account 2,710]

Stressed, frustrated, worried, confused.

[Evil Pink One 13,506]

Tired, over time, not worth it... 

Edited May 31, 2022 by Kujamih