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Oh I'm sorry well yes I do believe in him spiritually talking and what I meant was for example "sex before marriage" or "sexual orientation" religious people consider that a sin because the "Bible says it" (actually in fact the Bible mentions nothing about sexual orientation but I'm not going to talk more I'm just saying to me it is open to interpretation I mean it does say it in the Old Testament but not in the New and a lot of things changed in the New... LOTS of things... I still find it skeptical though) but see I've noticed things have changed SO much around the years and there are some proofs of different sexual orientations (SO many in fact because there's actually a scale which I didn't know before I'm leaning more to straight but I am bi curious and I can place you where I fall into if I had a pic of the scale) and they also argue about what's "natural" but that's the thing we also have evolved so who knows? and also about the sex before marriage well um lets put it this way, ..... you marry a person a virgin because of religion, then this person you married turns out to be abusive and you get divorced, and the reason they say virginity is important in their religious view is because a couple should become "one" ok I can't argue with that but why should a paper determine that? yes I agree with marriage in general because of LEGAL benefits hehehe >:DD (just in case he's a jerk I still get my part) but I mean if the couple is trully in love why should it matter? and also when you loose it to someone abusive then what was the point of waiting? when they didn't even value you! and sometimes people have to take YEARS to get to know someone I hope I got my point across though I don't even know if I'm being clear or not I'm trying.... but yes going back well they consider this things "sins" and when someone "sins" and doesn't repent suddenly they're condemned no matter if there were circumstances and the fact that there ARE circumstances is what gets to me and also if it's sooo bad then why did He let it happen yes life is not perfect if life was perfect there wouldn't be a point on living we wouldn't learn and still have the intelligence of a new born BUT why condemn genuinely nice people that have great hearts? see what I mean? when in reality things might not even BE like this they say He's merciful well if He is He would TOTALLY understand also another topic is suicide they kept saying my friend was in hell for it and that hurt I won't lie but who are THEY to say that he didn't even know about religion and he was going through the WORSE stuff I mean come on if people put themselves in HIS place I know I might of done the same thing! and if God is a God of love He would understand this! idk another thing this is a quote I found on YouTube: "if God created the laws of the universe why can't he bend them"

I settled in Christianity because that's where I was born into BUT as I kept growing up and talking to friends there's stuff in there that doesn't click and I end up getting into controversial arguments because some religious people think I'm not a true believer and "send me to hell" wth and people that don't believe anything call me gullible and it's hard being in between when barely no one even considers it like yeah it's awesome to respect other people's beliefs BUT um it sucks being the ONLY person that believes a concept :C you just feel lonely that's all I mean I can definitely believe in the Christian God and still not believe everything said by humans I just have a different perspective of Him and the fact you can't either prove NOR disprove a deity makes sense to me it's a mystery and we will only know when we die and also once someone tells me they have invented a spirit catcher please show me because as far as I know if spirits can't communicate with an actual body to project their voices and such then it's impossible to ask them to show themselves up ALTHOUGH I do get when people say that if He can do anything he would do that but if He meant it that way maybe it's because he simply wanted to and that's another thing religious people say this I just stated and then accuse people of sinning because they still didn't believe etc etc hey hey that's not the case if He is a God of love then He would understand it's common sense (philosophically speaking of course since there's no proof here and also speaking of it as an opinion) I personally think if He's there which I do so believe He wouldn't be evil but it seems like I'm alone in this but I'll deal with it it's not a big deal I just wish I could find someone to talk to about this that shares a similar view to see what they have to say of this it would be interesting to see it from different people's views

I love Winter season because it's cold and I can't stand heat it burns too much and people for some reason get nuts in summer (driving, partying, not wearing any clothes etc.) (yes the snow screws up driving badly so in that sense winter is not that great but when SOME people get too excited about summer they tend to drive faster and get distracted a lot at least where I live and it's frustrating you can cause an accident) so yeah in concerns of actual weather well a sunny day is always lovely but rain doesn't bother me either I like the dark (another reason why I love winter perhaps winter tends to be darker) and the rain sounds good with sleeping although it sucks to get wet especially for me since I get sick from it. .-. just an opinion

High School... I should've been myself back then and not let people get to me so much plus not become obsess over revenge, Revenge is never good...

tehe oh my well tehe how about I just show :3

Favorite songs: You Should've Killed Me When You Had The Chance by ADTR, City Of Ocala by ADTR, Life @ 11 by ADTR, I Remember by ADTR, Leave All The Lights On by ADTR, This Side by Nickel Creek, What's Left Of Me by Nick Lachey, The Webs I Weave by Escape The Fate, Tears Don't Fall by Bullet For My Valentine, Lost In You by Three Days Grace, Tongue Tied by Faber Drive, Wake Up Call by Hawthorne Heights, Shattered by Trading Yesterday, One Day by Trading Yesterday, Change My Name by Trading Yesterday, Kiss Me Slowly by Parachutte, The Only Exception by Paramore, A Thousdand Years by Christina Perri, Distance by Acceptance, One Day Too Late by Skillet, Never Surrender by Skillet, The Older I get by Skillet, You Are My Hope by Skillet, Corageous by Casting Crowns, My Own Worst Enemy by Casting Crowns, Let Me Go by 3 Doors Down, Holly by All Time Low, Popping Champagne by All Time Low, To Live And Let Go by All Time Low, Weightless by All Time Low, Complicated by Avril Lavigne, Best Of Me by ADTR, Breathe Hope In Me by ADTR, Shades Of Blue by Nick Lachey, End Of Me by ADTR, Homesick by ADTR, I Surrender by ADTR, I'm Aready Gone by ADTR, If Looks Could Kill by ADTR, Price We Pay by ADTR, Welcome To The Family by ADTR, Casablanca Sucked Anyways by ADTR, Stay Close Don't Go by Secondhand Serenade, Take Me With You by Secondhand Serenade, Your Call by Secondhand Serenade, Until The Day I Die by Story Of The Year, Revolution by Trading Yesterday, aaand the Screamo version of My Heart Will Go On by Empire XD Don't ask me about order or my MAIN favorite because it's hard to me all this songs are great and it depends on my mood too

cool well thanks for understanding and yeah I get what you mean XD it is easier and yeah I get what you mean with enjoyment I'm also pleased just to see my friends happy and YES EAT lol EAT EAT EAT especially sweets I have this thing for sweets XD *-* iccceeee creeeeaaaammmm XD I just hate when people give me that look as "COME ON kill joy" or drag my hand XD but I try to do as much as I can so that both of us get what we want not just one party both parties should get their needs in a chill way XD and I love negotiating with friends XD and yes I realize that O_O sorry btw (to everyone) o.o XD /).(\

yeah XD yeah I usually tell that to most people (PLUS the fact sometimes I just don't feel like it and it's nothing personal I don't hate them sometimes I'm just tired) and most people get it... most yeah I see well actually group conversations are ok with me IF people are willing to actually listen and not talk over eachother ( like our acting group is based on us telling our situations (kind of like therapy but not really) and we make a play about situations that happen a lot but the play has to have a good solution (unless we leave it to interpretation or mystery) which help us in real life and they DO teach us acting skills like actual professionals which it's surprising when we see our end results we're like WOW we did this XD but most of those skills we CAN apply to real life and 2 important rules of the group is CONFIDENTIALITY and be able to LISTEN to people and not judge them but help them if you can but really listen to them and respect everyone's turn and it's like the rule got engraved on most of our brains XD so it's easy for us to talk in a group BUT when it's a party and there's too much commotion I just can't >__< everyone gets nuts things get too loud and sometimes I fear people will judge me for being in a corner and I feel the need to pretend I'm having fun and dance and then inside I panic o_o XD it happened in the last performance when we had a big pizza party and it's even worse when I'm depressed because when you're ACTUALLY depressed you don't feel like doing squat and you just want to wallow in your sadness lol (I know it's not funny but I have this problem of always laughing when nervous or sad I do this a lot it comes automatic at first it was about not worrying people but now it's automatic so that's why I say "lol" a lot so don't think I'm making fun of depression just in case I know it's something serious I just type exactly how I talk)

gosh that happens to me too! lol I feel bad I worry sometimes I'm not making anyone feel bad although I never say anything about it to see what the other person says and dang O_O well my ex was a little like that but I have a friend that is more like that as a friend and it is a bit hard but I guess the fact we're friends makes it easier for me because I can just point out the fact I'm busy and not that but we're friends nothing more and see true friends are still friends no matter what just because a conversation suddenly ended it doesn't mean we stopped being friends and idk is easier to explain that to a friend than if it was a relationship because some people have the idea that when two people are together they should "stick" to eachother and become one all of the sudden yeah XD in fact I'm the same even online (unless I'm explaining something like right now XD) I'm not really talkative but I am more talkative in person than online or text (especially text since my phone is SO SLOW and I also have problems with patience I know I gotta work on that but yeah so I BARELY almost never use my phone) but yeah I have gotten crap online for replying short but no matter how much I explain it people still get mad :C and in person I have social anxiety in huge crowds EVEN if I know everyone in the crowd EVEN if I'm best friends with everyone in the crowd it's just not for me I like get togethers with a small group of friends and kind of quiet unless there's music or a game or something but when I talk I want to be able to hear the other person and for them to hear what I'm saying (which rarely happens ._.) but I'm not a big fan of parties whatsoever I mostly like events like when our acting group goes hiking etc.

#1 I know I was just explaining to what you said and wanted to emphasize on it #2 again that's why I said in the beginning "and it applies to people in general as well" it's ok I know you're not attacking me I just explain things too much I wanna make sure people understand what I'm trying to say in case they don't or if they misinterpreted what I said because it happens I've done that SOOO many times I feel bad /).(\ and you're right it varies but in fact what I consider clingy (just personal opinion here) is not that it would be stuff like "where are you going" "who's that guy" "can I go to the bathroom with you" "can we hang out EVERY DAY ALL AFTERNOON" "why aren't you responding" ( <--- after just like 5 mins) "you hate me you don't respond :C" "did I made you mad" ( <--- for every little thing) "I suck you're not happy with me let me make you super happy" overly does things... stuff like that it's just that for example sometimes I just want to be alone sometimes I don't feel like responding and it's nothing personal I'm just really tired and perhaps want to read a good book in my room and listen to music or watch Adventure Time and MLP XD yeah .-. that's it and about the note I TOTALLY get that lol in fact I used to hold hands and such but I realized it was a problem when my ex almost fell on the road in front of the school where cars go by flying LOL XD (sorry I know it's not funny but idk lol it's just his expression XD)

for #1 I'm talking for example about a dude that goes to a party because his friends would call him uncool or wimp if he doesn't go I just can't stand people that always do what people tells them without considering their own feelings it's like they don't have a sense of SELF for #2 well this is why in the beginning I said "and this applies to people in general as well" they asked what was your pet peeve about the opposite sex so I gave my pet peeves about the opposite sex oh and I even forgot clinginess that's a big one everyone needs their SPACE I don't want people to stick to me like gum especially being an independent person and all and sometimes a loner even but that's just me

Physically my pet peeve would be cleaness (clean freak and germaphobe here) also I don't like when people are in my personal space and drinking or eating from what I'm drinking or eating unless they're like FAMILY and EVEN) Emotionally/Mentally/Personality/Behavior/or whatever would be complaining about things you do YOURSELF (but of course this applies to anyone) an example is (even though not EVERY single guy does it but a lot do) complaining about the friendzone WHICH does not exist that concept makes no sense you're either friends with someone or not but yeah lots of them complain and perhaps they do worse to another girl that likes them... I've witnessed some of them that treat the girl that likes them like garbage (me and my best friend are 2 of those girls) and they still have the nerve to call us friends and mind trick us which sucks. Another pet peeve would be guys that are like doormats ._. sure I don't exactly have a problem with people who have low self esteem I had it before BUT you have to know your limits and there's these people that no matter how much you try to help them they DON'T let you help them and then they keep complaining that life "sucks" etc etc when they don't even try and let other people step on them it drives me insane... Another one is those jerks that are Egomaniacs. I CAN NOT STAND EGOMANIACS they're the worst humans I can think of besides serial killers and rapists these people think they are the best and the world revolves around them and the rest of the people are "trash" unless they're EXACTLY like them just NO... Also is the "know it alls" the brainiacs that think being Academically exceptional is crucial or that knowing everything is crucial and everyone else is dumb ._. also the hypocritical ones that politely insult you but consider people that swear in general (no matter their intentions) "garbage" sure because a polite insult doesn't ruin someone self esteem .___. v_v ugh *facepalm* it's the intention that matters... Also the pervs but also the guys that are TOO innocent because THEY choose to (of course I would rather date an innocent guy than a perv BUT both extremes are NOT healthy and I'm a big health freak especially psychologically) Also the guys who have high expectations of women but complain of women in general of having high expectations of men ._. this one drives me nuts... and lastly people who drink I HATE DRINKING whatsoever unless it's wine because it has been proven wine is good for the heart but that's it and it should be moderate

those hispanic adds about loosing weight or buying those elastic things to make your butt and boobs look bigger (or in men's case to have abs) (also I say hispanic because they show them waaay more on the hispanic channels than on the american ones) like COME ON! THANK YOU SOCIETY for shaping up how everyone is "supposed" to look I thought we all had the freedom to look how we wanted! isn't it beautiful when we're all unique in our way!? .___. it's good to look neat and clean (clean freak here) but really? everyone is different and has different body metabolism and resistance so screw it! oh yeah and what bothers me the most they promise and promise and some people buy their products and they just get more money than it was intended stolen and the product works like garbage welp and I can't believe people still fall for that >___< also other adds that bother me are drinking add not only because it encourage drinking obviously but also how they denigrate women's bodies on most of them >___< ._.

I have lost my brain cells watching this o_o but to each his own as long as they don't hurt anyone ._. WHICH they might with all that .__.

I know Spanish and English (Spanish is supposed to be my first language but honestly I think it's English since I'm forgetting how to even spell in Spanish and how to say certain words that I can say better in English and in fact I like using English more) but I would love to learn French, Italian, & Japanese .-.

None :C I ate it all in one day and now I have none :C